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ImNotReal

ImNotReal

Don't wake me up
Jan 18, 2025
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Title above but I want to share my experience. I don't cry like ever? I'm immensely sad at all time. Sometimes when it gets really bad the most that'll happen is I choke on my tears a bit but I can't get myself to cry? The few times I have it's been very cathartic and a kinda nice feeling. Does anyone else have this issue? I wish I could cry more lol
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
I wish I could cry more but I am able to when the mental pain is at its most intense and overwhelming and at that point I am crying a lot uncontrollably and very loudly and screaming in pain for quite a few minutes. Otherwise I am not able cry with stuff that is less than the highest amount of pain I can feel.
 
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LavĂ­nia

LavĂ­nia

plalace
Feb 19, 2024
161
I think the last real outburst I had was a year ago. When I feel really bad, with sadness consuming me, a few tears come out... I realize that I'm finally crying... and it stops completely. I keep trying to force it but it doesn't work. I don't know if it's a lot of internalization, in my case I used to hold it in a lot. I can't say if that's why
 
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arandomname

Member
Nov 19, 2024
50
I wish I could cry more as well because I feel like it helps. Didn't cry since childhood but recently (last 2 years) I've cried over concerns about someone I love (thinking they lied to me about a cancer diagnosis, them repeatedly leaving/heartbreak).
It's similar to what Lavinia mentioned above where it's not uncontrollable (couple of tears) and when I realise it just stops but then I try to force myself to continue but can't. I savour those moments though because it tells me what I feel towards that person is different to what I've felt towards anyone else and can focus on understanding that feeling.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
674
I haven't been able to cry since I became severely depressed about 6 months ago. It's like the sadness became too intense so my brain had to turn it off. I still get tears sometimes, and when I try to talk about my children I often choke up and get very close to crying.
 
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taysontheory

taysontheory

Member
Jan 17, 2025
53
Me
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,678
The last time I remember crying was my one-month old grandchild's funeral. Almost 23 years ago now.
 
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onthefence

onthefence

Actually… sobbing on the floor
Dec 31, 2024
227
When I was on an SSRI for 15 years I never cried. I stopped it almost 2 years ago.
Lately I usually only cry when I'm alone but haven't been able to since starting a stimulant a couple weeks ago.
I did end up crying in front of my therapist just before I started the stimulant- they said it looked cathartic. From my end it was more like I was realizing how messed up I am and that I am close to losing my freedom. Afterwards I was so dissociated that I could hardly walk.
The stimulant has helped with my symptoms enough that I can act more normal and keep myself out of the hospital. The trade off of not being able to cry is totally worth it at this point.
 
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Agent_PS

Agent_PS

Member
Jan 19, 2025
30
I can kind of relate to that. The only time I cry is when I'm having a full on mental breakdown or very randomly when I conjure up a imaginary tragic scenario in my mind. But most of the time I just feel frustrated, disappointed and angry at myself and the world
 
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Peace2peace

Specialist
Dec 26, 2024
361
Due to my severe depression have always been crying but lately have stopped crying maybe because am starting to embrace ctb
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,356
I mean, I tear up a bit on occasion. Once in a while one or two fall, but generally, no. Conditioned myself to stop doing it a while back. Cried way too much in my lifetime and not going to freely anymore.
 
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ClippedWings

ClippedWings

Member
Nov 30, 2024
94
Ya I don't cry much unless some art sparks my imagination.
 
SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Nothing Like The Looks « ❤️‍🩹 »
Nov 13, 2023
583
I physically hardly ever cry. The only times I do is when I'm REALLY, but REALLY feeling down to the point I literally cannot move from depression. Even in sad moments, when I want to cry, at any time, I just can't. No tears fall, just nothing, "no emotions". I feel that.
 
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ClippedWings

ClippedWings

Member
Nov 30, 2024
94
really, I'll cry if I want to or not, it's a fine emotion and response to sad thoughts from the imagination, no issue
 
NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
568
I can't remember when was the last time I cried, but I remember it was because I had been thinking of how people around me would feel after I died.
 
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martinso67

All human rights are important
Feb 5, 2021
362
Title above but I want to share my experience. I don't cry like ever? I'm immensely sad at all time. Sometimes when it gets really bad the most that'll happen is I choke on my tears a bit but I can't get myself to cry? The few times I have it's been very cathartic and a kinda nice feeling. Does anyone else have this issue? I wish I could cry more lol
I can't cry anymore since about 2013. It does not matter if i am really sad or in a lot of pain.
But I get watery or teary eyes though when I am stressed or outside.
It could be physicial health issues mixed with psychological issues. Also a protective measure by your body against depression? Idk
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I cry on some nights but I don't cry for the most part overall
 
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NoPoint2Life

NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
952
I can relate. In the last few years, I have been on both sides of that. Many people say the medication we take makes us numb. But before I was on medication a few years ago, I realized after quite a while that I could not cry. I wanted to so badly, but it just didn't happen. Then I slowly started taking meds. A few months later, I could cry and did so hysterically all summer long. Then I was hospitalized and put on some other medication so I don't know how much this affected me or if it was just natural like the first time, but I can't cry. I definitely sympathize and feel emotion, but I don't get that feeling like I want to cry. But my face remains very emotionless and robotic. It's kind of easier actually.
In general, I would say I was only a person over my life that could cry when I was alone. If I was in some kind of group setting and someone was crying or getting really emotional, I would totally sympathize and want to be, but it's like I just couldn't do it in a group. So then I felt like a total freak Compared to everyone else. I feel like it's a no-win situation.
 
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areyousafe??

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
478
I have the opposite problem - I can't stop crying. It's embarrassing when it happens in public and people start looking at me weirdly. I would prefer the tears stay away when I'm in a public area, but sometimes I get consumed in my thoughts.
 
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astonishedturnip

astonishedturnip

Like Christine Chubbuck, but sadder
Jan 16, 2024
266
With my depression, I cry too much and it SUCKS. I always feel worse and sick to my stomach when it's done, along with a bad headache and exhaustion. I would rather feel nothing than be so fragile all the time.
 
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billie

billie

take me back to the night we met
Mar 31, 2024
622
i cry every day
 
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Electra

Electra

The relief of giving in to destruction
Jul 1, 2024
587
I never thought about this. Should have a cry log to see. But I don't really like crying, even tho it can be cathartic.
 
froggirl9000

froggirl9000

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Feb 4, 2023
1,787
I don't know when I last cried, but I noticed I couldn't cry in late 2019, so for at least maybe six years now I have been completely unable to cry.
 
SteamaHorns

SteamaHorns

Member
Aug 2, 2024
88
Yeah I've always struggled with being able to cry. Rarely will I ever be able to easily cry for long periods of time if ever. Used to try to manually immerse myself in sad emotions just so that I could experience that sweet release of being totally connected with those emotions. It's funny because whenever I do reach that level of emotions to be able to actually sob and tear up, it very quickly dissipates and I'm left with an awkward imbalance between the emotional intensity of my feelings and the ones of the current situation.
 
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Aloneandinpain

Specialist
Dec 25, 2023
375
I can't cry anymore. I think it's a sign of very deeply embedded depression.

I'm not completely emotionally numb yet , but about 95% numb.
 
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human909

human909

Banned
Dec 30, 2024
590
I know how that feels like since it happened to me and that feeling is so awful. I mean like when you really want to cry but can't just that feeling fucking sucks, luckily i am able to cry more often now but i hated that feeling not being able to cry.
 
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