Discussion Does anyone else get scared of dying when you're going to sleep?

[tardis]

It's interesting because when I'm awake I constantly want to die. It's all I want. So much so that I fantasize about it when I'm going to bed.

But then right before I fall asleep I start picturing my corpse being buried, or rotting, or my body flailing around in a motel room, and it scares the shit out of me. It's enough to make me not want to CTB, but then as soon as I wake up I'm back to my normal suicidal self.

I just open my eyes and suddenly those things don't scare me at all.

Is anyone else like this?

 

[tireddreamer]

That's interesting. I can't say I can relate though, I kind of enjoy going to sleep.

 

[Ryan.s]

It's interesting because when I'm awake I constantly want to die. It's all I want. So much so that I fantasize about it when I'm going to bed.

But then right before I fall asleep I start picturing my corpse being buried, or rotting, or my body flailing around in a motel room, and it scares the shit out of me. It's enough to make me not want to CTB, but then as soon as I wake up I'm back to my normal suicidal self.

I just open my eyes and suddenly those things don't scare me at all.

Is anyone else like this?

I used to get that feeling when I took seroquel. Off of it now and don't feel that fear of dying in my sleep anymore. Are you on any medication? (especially one that sedates you), if so it is probably the meds (just guessing from my own experience).

 

[Darkhaven]

Afraid??? The best thing that could happen to me would be to fall asleep and never wake EVER AGAIN!

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

It's interesting because when I'm awake I constantly want to die. It's all I want. So much so that I fantasize about it when I'm going to bed.

But then right before I fall asleep I start picturing my corpse being buried, or rotting, or my body flailing around in a motel room, and it scares the shit out of me. It's enough to make me not want to CTB, but then as soon as I wake up I'm back to my normal suicidal self.

I just open my eyes and suddenly those things don't scare me at all.

Is anyone else like this?

Honestly … No !!!
Sleep is the best part of the day. (When I can get it) I would LOVE to die in my sleep.

 

[Morphinekiss]

This is one of my biggest ocd things. I'm afraid of not knowing where everyone I love is, incase they need my help at night. Sometimes the thought/a voice in my head tells me if I fall asleep I'll die so then I can't go to sleep that night and spend the night doing rituals.

 

[RottenDeer]

Absolutely. The worst thing in my mind is not even feeling when I'll die. Going to sleep with the expectation of waking up again, no matter how horrible life is, and then the thought of not going to, not being able to decide it, is horrifying. I have this fear since I'm a child.

 

[oxymoron]

It's interesting because when I'm awake I constantly want to die. It's all I want. So much so that I fantasize about it when I'm going to bed.

But then right before I fall asleep I start picturing my corpse being buried, or rotting, or my body flailing around in a motel room, and it scares the shit out of me. It's enough to make me not want to CTB, but then as soon as I wake up I'm back to my normal suicidal self.

I just open my eyes and suddenly those things don't scare me at all.

Is anyone else like this?

I'm not scared of it, I adore that idea. It'd be so nice to pass away in my sleep and not see another miserable, painful fucking day again. How I wish.

 

[astro]

Well, I'm afraid of dying when going to bed but only when I'm not currently suicidal. Whenever I'm suicidal I wish to die when going to bed.

 

[oxymoron]

Well, I'm afraid of dying when going to bed but only when I'm not currently suicidal. Whenever I'm suicidal I wish to die when going to bed.

If you're not suicidal anymore, please don't be anymore. Turn your life around and work on yourself, don't use this site if you will.

 

[faust]

I thought about that today when was going to bed. Because if I die now, who will clean all the mess in my room...

 

[braketimez]

I used to, but then every night I had a "ritual" where I would surrender and fully accept the possibility.
I would say, "Yup. I could die tonight." And I would reflect on my life, thank the universe for all I had, and then lay down.
It really helped.

 

[voyager]

I wouldn't want to die in my sleep, because I'm a control freak who wants to choose the moment himself with my affairs put in order. Doesn't worry me as such though. Interestingly, around 2004 I had my thyroid medication set way too high. Hadn't been on the meds too long and didn't know the symptoms yet. For me it's my heart acting up, almost like a heart attack. My heart also felt so bloody juicy at times.

Anyway, everytime I was drifting off into sleep I felt asthough my heart stopped, would wake up in fear and clasp my chest. So many fucking times, could hardly sleep anymore. Almost like insomnia.

 

[SugarbushMtn]

Sounds perfect

 

[PDAnnie2610]

No.. I wish I wouldn't wake up.

 

[I’mDone]

No. I cherish the idea of falling asleep and never waking up again.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

For me, dying while sleeping is the best death anyone can have. No suffering. You don't know it's happening. Everytime I go to bed I wish I didn't wake up.

 

[mesohappy]

I like the falling asleep part,its just the dreams and panic that disturb the precious sleep that bothers me.

For me waking up to face another day is the worst and most terrifying.Ive learned to rouse myself out of bed by using anger.But anger can be toxic as well,so I dont know how long I can keep it up.

 

[Empty Smile]

I'd rather die in my sleep. Saves me the time of having to get set up to ctb. Even though I'd still rather be in the woods when my time comes.

 

[LMLN]

Not at all. It is my main wish! Although, sadly, I know it's not going to be without me making it happen.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

No I'm more pissed I woke up

 

[Suez]

I had a really weird waking up kind of experience a few months ago. I had accidentally O'Ded on opiates. I was at home at the time and it was pure chance that i was found. I hadnt been in contact with my mental health team for a couple of weeks and they were worried so sent the Police out to do a welfare check. When i didnt answer the door they broke in and found me unconscious with a needle still in my arm. On the way to the hospital they gave me a shot of naloxone (it reverses the effects of opiates), and i "woke up" breifly but went straight out again. I remember at some point after receiving the naloxone, feeling like something was wrong, like maybe i was having a bad reaction to the naloxone and i vividly remember trying to tell the paramedics that there was something wrong, but i couldnt talk and i also remember trying to move my arms or legs & they wouldnt move either. It was like my brain was conscious and willing, but the rest of my body was unconscious. Like being a vegetable, aware of things around me and voices but totally unable to respond. It was the worst feeling. I cant even describe how bad that feeling was. Feeling like maybe this is it. When this was happening to me I also could feel my breathing getting weaker&weaker and knowing that very soon i will be taking my last breathe. I even remember hearing someone say, "were losing her". Then i remember my arm falling like a dead weight off the trolley and taking my last breathe. I wasnt scared thinking i was taking my last breathe, in fact i was talking to my mum and saying to her, Im coming mum, ill be with you soon. What scared me was the very real feeling that i was actually a vegetable and that the naloxone they gave me had some kind of bad effect on me and now i was going to be in this vegetative state. When i did eventually "wake up" in resus i was told that i had stopped breathing a couple of times and they had to resusitate me. Part of me was sad for waking up but also glad i didnt wake up as a vegetable. Ive spoke to several people since and im aware that people can go into bad withdrawal on being given Naloxone but i dont think thats what happened to me. I belivee i had some weird reaction to the Naloxone. Never again, thats all i know.

 

[LastRide]

Sorry, but I cannot relate at all to that feeling..on the contrary, I feel happy when I go to sleep and think "oh wouldn't it be great not to wake up ever again?" And then when I do wake up I feel sad and frustrated because I did....

 

[Lisa]

It's interesting because when I'm awake I constantly want to die. It's all I want. So much so that I fantasize about it when I'm going to bed.

But then right before I fall asleep I start picturing my corpse being buried, or rotting, or my body flailing around in a motel room, and it scares the shit out of me. It's enough to make me not want to CTB, but then as soon as I wake up I'm back to my normal suicidal self.

I just open my eyes and suddenly those things don't scare me at all.

Is anyone else like this?

Yes I'm like this too

 

[Remember to forget]

Afraid??? The best thing that could happen to me would be to fall asleep and never wake EVER AGAIN!

Couldn't agree more, it's what I wish for every night before I drift off. I detest being woken up every morning.

 

[sadgirl2002]

I would love to die in my sleep, it's painless, quick and peaceful. I would prefer to die in my sleep than anything else, when I'm dreaming about my true love. That way, I could stay in that happy state... forever.

 

[orangepotato]

Dying in my sleep would be a wish come true. A nice pain free guilt free death. I would love to sleep and never have to wake up to another day in this horrible God forsaken shit hole of a world.

 

[Didymus]

To die in my sleep would be the most beautiful death.

 

[darkhorse256]

I wish I could die in my sleep. That would be amazing. I don't fear death as much as I just hope to die while I sleep.

 

[BabyYoda]

Dying in my sleep unexpectedly would be ideal, honestly. No need to feel the fear before it.