Like they say :: suicidal ideation never leaves your system. Neither does lithium, love - or (thank the God's :: LSD!)
But the love thing :: in fact all feelings yeah they kinda return. Sometimes at the most mental moments.
Yeah I'm a seven shot a day speedball addict - finctional (ad exec / lover /house n farm and dysfunctional (arrest record /prison rape survivor) but my feelings are always there.
That's what I live (and ironically) am willing to die for. All power to you if you numb on psych meds. My ex was till he wasn't and then shot himself. I'd rather struggle with the ugly visceral truthfull emotions of this some time ugly some time beautiful life. It's the only way we learn...when it really fkn hurts...
☆ The emotional dharma wheelz gonna get you!