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- Jul 27, 2024
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I've accomplished so much. In spite of my depression and anxiety, I got through university, I went on a fun international trip, I've made friends who say I'm great, I got a bunch of academic scholarships, and I seriously graduated with uni with the highest distinction possible. I have a job now and my coworkers say I'm super reliable and helpful and they wouldn't know what to do without me. I have a good relationship with my family.
But despite it all, at the end of the day I'm still sitting here with depression. I can't escape it. It followed me for nearly a decade, and now my negative emotions have manifested into permanent physical symptoms. Now I feel pain every day because of it.
I don't know if I did anything wrong or if I was just born like this. I feel that recovery is longer possible for me. It's been too long, and my body is too old, too wrecked and pained. I'll never be happy again. I'm only in my mid-20s, do I really need to wait decades for death?
But despite it all, at the end of the day I'm still sitting here with depression. I can't escape it. It followed me for nearly a decade, and now my negative emotions have manifested into permanent physical symptoms. Now I feel pain every day because of it.
I don't know if I did anything wrong or if I was just born like this. I feel that recovery is longer possible for me. It's been too long, and my body is too old, too wrecked and pained. I'll never be happy again. I'm only in my mid-20s, do I really need to wait decades for death?