Discussion Does anyone else feel apprehensive about ctb during this pandemic?

[LonelyGhostDreamer]

I'd like to hear your thoughts on ctb during lockdown. I personally don't want my family finding me, it's going to be distressing enough when I do leave, is anyone else waiting until lockdown is over before doing it?

 

[ohhgeeitsme]

Yes, I'm trying to. I'm also waiting for this to be over so I can ctb without my father having to be the one to find me. I honestly don't know if I'll be able to make it, but I am going to try.

 

[Kmoposse]

I told myself I wouldn't even do further planning at this point.

 

[LonelyGhostDreamer]

I told myself I wouldn't even do further planning at this point.

I've been planning, mostly sorting out my will, my workplace offer a death benefit if I pass away whilst working for them so I've got that being paid out to my daughter, it'll come in handy for when she starts uni. Planning keeps me sane at the moment, it brings me a bit of peace.

 

[RedVioletBleeds]

I suppose the real reason I'm not doing it is just the possibility ot won't work. I dont want to have to go into the hospital as the staff already have so much pressure on them. So I just feel guilty bait doing it

 

[qwerty32]

Some days I think about it. Some days I get lucky and feel ok and not thinking of CTB.
Personally being on SS keeps me mentally busy though I am planning my CTB. But best case scenario for me is hopefully when this pandemic is over I'll be fine and I'll put my ctb plans on hold or not think of it. Some days I just want it to end now and some days I tell myself I still have a chance.

 

[flower]

ideally I would wait until this is over, but lockdown for us has just been extended another 3 weeks and I'm nearly at my breaking point to start with. I don't want to add extra stress to my family right now but I really don't see how I can make it much longer

 

[oneofthoseyoudontwan]

This lockdown looks like a neverending one, i prefer to wait till it ends and do it, i will die at home, but i want to be alone when i do it.

 

[The Dark Chaos]

I'd like to hear your thoughts on ctb during lockdown. I personally don't want my family finding me, it's going to be distressing enough when I do leave, is anyone else waiting until lockdown is over before doing it?

Yeahh and I think the chances of beung caught midway are more during lockdown, when everyones's around.

 

[AnnonyBox]

At the moment I feel like it would be irresponsible of me to off myself, considering that the pandemic is running rampant, and the medical professionals and all are overrun as it is. But then, society never did a good thing for me, so I don't know why I feel like I owe it to anyone to hang on until this pandemic passes.

 

[Steve Vermont]

Well, it PROBABLY kept me from getting involuntarily committed. I had another "episode" about three weeks ago with booze and clonzepam. This time, instead of taking me to the hospital and forcing me to stay in the ITU for a week, they let me stay at home and recover. It took two whole days. The reasoning was that they needed to keep ICU beds open at all costs and they couldn't commit me before taking me to the hospital. I don't live in the U.S. so I am not sure what would happen there (or anywhere else for that matter), but here... this seems like it might be the best time to kill oneself.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

If I fail I don't want to end up in a hospital surrounded by the disease

 

[Oh so tired]

I am waiting until after the worst of the pandemic has passed as if I'm unsuccessful I don't want to put added pressure on NHS staff. That being said I'm finding the wait really hard and might end up doing it anyway.

 

[Fish Face]

I am waiting until it's over, until my money runs out, until I get a will written leaving it all to charities, until the NHS and undertakers can cope. That is all I have to look forward to now. Beachey Head September.

 

[TJuk]

I feel like this would be the best time for me, I don't live with anyone, no one randomly knocks on door at the moment