I neither 'see' nor 'not see' a 'point' in 'life'. I couldnt give any less of a fck that there is or there isnt a 'point' in 'life', lol.
I couldn't care any less if there's a "point" in 'life' (or whatever it is called) or not. I don't give a shit if it's "pointless" or "meaningless" or "valueless" (or whatever that means lol) or whatever. I dont care if it's whatever/any """"positive"""" 'way' and dont care if it's whatever/any """"negative"""" 'way', it's completely indifferent to me lol. Couldnt care any less, never had cared and never will. I literally just dont want to live /do/experience 'life' regardless how it is neither what I can experience in it neither what there is about/from it etc. I just dont care about anything never cared and never will, and I will never want to care. The question is why the f*ck do "I" have to? Why is existence obligatory? i want an explanation for this. Its so fucking frustrating to have no choice but pretend every single fucking day that I'm "interested" in 'life' and 'planet earth'/'the world' and things in general "eVEn iF iTs jUsT oNe tHinG" to not be suspicious at all and not have people assume I'm "depressed" and taken to a psychiatrist/psychologist and force me to take meds and attend 'therapy' or whatever tf that is that i neither want nor need and NEVER will, nothing "bad" fcking happens to 'me'/'in my life' lmao it would be absurd to take me there, for absolutely no reason at all. but well, this is literally invaded by pro-lifers (and even non pro-lifers will never understand/comprehend/believe this and see it as something totally normal and possible, not "iRrAtIoNaL" or whatever that means lol) and it'll always be assumed that if you dont want to live life[however the fck it is, and dont give a sht if it's "meaningless" or "meaningful" or whatever the fck]/dont care about 'life'/'the world'/'planet earth' however it is etc nor literally anything in general at all whatever/however it is and aren't "interested" in anything is because of a 'reason' like 'bad life'/'trauma'/'depression'/' bad experiences'/'bad situation'/'low self-esteem'/'bad circumstances'/'bad family'/abuse'/'bullying'/'emptiness'/'loneliness'/'homelessness'/'existencial|identity crisis'[wtf does that even 'mean' lmao]/'anhedonia'/'apathy'/'loss of interest' and motivation'/'suffering' or whatever other 'reason' or because I'm "nihilist" and/or have a "chemical imbalance in the brain", lol. I literally just have no "interest" (or whatever the fuck "interest", "being 'interested'" means. Why the fuck do "I" have to be 'interested' and want to be 'interested' in 'something'? Why cant I just not give a shit about/not want/not care about any single thing without it being "bEcAuSe oF a ReAsOn" "bEcAuSe oF dEprEsSiOn, ApAtHy aNd lOsS oF iNtErEsT", "bEcAuSe lIfE iS a WaY tHat yOu dOnT lIkE iT" "bEcAuSe yOuRe cOnFuSeD oR bOreD oR sUfFeRiNg" "bEcAuSe yOuR liFe iS bAd aNd pAinFuL aNd yOu dOnT wAnT tO lIvE lIkE tHat" or whatever other 'reason'. I'm not suffering, my life is 'good'/'great' however you wanna call it and I 'have it all' and I don't give a shit. There's just nothing that I "want"/"need"/"like"/"care about"/"wish"/"hope for"/"have 'interest' for" nor any other thing like that. Why do "I" have to? That's my fucking question. I'll never understand why is all of this obligatory, why being part of/participating in 'existence'/'life'/'human life'/'the world'/'planet earth' or whatever its names are, is obligatory and I have to want it yes or yes and if I say I don't "iTs bEcAuSe sOmEthInG bAd hApPeNs tO yOu" "yOuRe sUfFeRiNg tHaTs wHy" "yOur LiFe iS bAd ANd pAinFuL aNd iTS nOt tHe lIfE yOu WaNt aNd lIVe" "bEcAuSe iTs a cHeMiCaL iMbAlAnCe" "bEcAuSe oF dEpReSsIoN" "yoU doNt wAnT tO lIvE iN wHatEvEr siTuATioN yOu cUrReNtLy aRe iN aNd yOu dOnT wAnT tO lIvE a BaD lIfE, iTs nOt tHat yOu jUsT dOnT wAnT tO lIvE lIfe iN gENeRaL nO mATtEr hOw iT iS fOr nO rEaSoN aT aLl tHaTs iMpOssIblE tHeReS sOmE cHeMicAl imBaLaNcEs iN yOuR bRaIn" (as if I gave a fucking shit what happens to a thing called 'brain' and how the fuck a 'brain' is lol I don't want to use nor have any fucking type of 'brain'/'mind' nor 'human body' nor any other type of thing, why can't I just not want to be anything at all?) I simply just don't give a shit about 'life' in a very general term and I simply just don't want to experience/live/do it (very generally, not referring to a specific/particular/certain way/type/kind of 'life') I don't care if "there's a point in life" or not nor if "life is worth living" or not or whatever, I don't give a shit about it in general no matter how/what way it is. I don't give a fucking shit if 'life'/'human life' (whatever its name is, couldn't care any less lol) is "meaningful" or "meaningless" or whatever, I dont want anything to have a "meaning" nor a "purpose", nor "value", nor "importance", nor "relevance" nor any other """positive""" crap in general. I will never understand why is wanting/caring about/being "interested" in 'life'/'the world'/'planet earth'/'existence' in general and things whatever it is in general, an obligation. And Ill never understand why the fuck there has to be a reason if I say I JUST don't and never will NO MATTER HOW IT IS or whatever. It's not that ***""""Im suffering and my life is 'bad', 'meaningless' thats why i dont want to live life"""" no lmao that's not the case, my life isnt "bad" at all and I couldnt care any less. And i dont give a single sht if 'my life'/whoever's 'life'/'life in GENERAL' is "meaningless" or "meaningful" or whatever tf that means lmao. It's not because of that nor literally any other 'reason' at all, I just literally simply dont want to, that's it, there's nothing more, theres no 'reason' at all, why there has to be one? why is having a 'reason'//""justified reason""/""valid reason"" or whatever tf that means, obligatory? what the actual fck, 'I' came 'here'/'i' exist against my will and now I even have to have a """justified"""/"""valid""" 'reason' to want to literally just leave/disappear and not exist at all. Why make this an obligatory prison where you cannot escape UnLeSs YouRe sUfFeRIng aNd yOuR lIfE iS 'bAd' aNd 'pAiNfUl' aNd hAvE a 'vAlId ReAsOn'? why cant i literally simply just dont want to (nor anything in general) without it being because of a reason? just because 'human beings'/'people' say so?

(**as if I gave a shit if its 'bad', 'meaningless', 'boring', 'painful' or whatever other """""negative""""" way/type of life lol I simply just dont give a shit about 'life' in a very general way I just dont, never cared and never will, and it's not because of a 'reason', why the fuck there has to be a fucking reason for simply literally just not caring (and not wanting to care no matter what "standard of life" "standardized/designed/structured 'life'" it is neither what it is about neither the way that is etc. No matter what/how it is/can be neither what it is about/can be anout, nor how it works/can work, neither what it happens/can happen, nor what there is/it has/there can be/it can have etc. I simply just don't care and never will and no it's not because of any fucking reason nor "bEcAuSe oF cHeMiCaL iMbAlAnCeS iN mY bRaIn" nor "bEcAuSe iM sUfFeRiNg" nor "bEcAuSe mY lIfE iS 'bAd' aNd 'PaInFuL'" nor literally any other person. I'm not "suffering" about anything in any way, I don't feel "empty" nor "fullfilled" nor any other crap like that. I don't want to be "fullfilled", "significant", "valuable" or whatever the fuck that means nor any other 'way'/'type of thing'. Im not 'saying' Im being 'told' to be this/that, this and or that way, no lol. Thats not the case, no one has ever 'told' 'me'/'tells' 'me' "what"/"how"/"who" 'to be' neither what 'to do' etc, Im just clarifying that i literally simply just dont want to be any fcking 'way', I dont want to be anything/anyone, any damn way, I dont want to be any 'type' of 'person' at all nor have any 'achievements' AT ALL. I just dont, never wanted and never will. I couldnt care less about 'life'/'the world'/'planet earth' however it is not any other thing in general, just dont and there is absolutely no 'reason' behind at all, although there are gonna be 'people' who will assume that tHeReS a ReAsOn yEs Or yEs anyway

I dont give a shit about "fullfilment", "significance", "value", "meaningfulness", "usefulness", "success", "happiness" and other """positive""" things like that that literally everyone else cares about but i just couldnt give any fcking less of a sht lol nor literally any other thing in general at all of any type. So, it is completely indifferent to 'me' and has always been and will always be, if/that there is/there isnt a "point" in 'life' lmao, dont give a sht. Ive disabled notifications so i dont receive any assumptions.