astro
recovery gang
- Dec 19, 2019
- 89
I have plenty people who care about me but I can't imagine anybody being pro-choice.
SlackJim
Nothing lasts, but nothing is lost
- Sep 30, 2019
- 226
My brother said to me "if I wanted to die, I would want the freedom to do it" which is pretty good, by no means does he support my plan, but that was pretty open minded compared to most people
No, whenever i say that I want to die, the only replies are - you're selfish, you're a coward, you're not even trying blabla.
But honestly, I've gotten to a point where i don't care
But honestly, I've gotten to a point where i don't care
SnowStroller
Member
- Dec 23, 2019
- 52
One of my parents actually said they don't want me to, but that they'd understand if I do. I realize that this is a common fantasy among suicidal people, but it didn't actually make me feel that much better lol
Just realizing more and more that the world is too fucked up to begin with. We aren't meant to be here
Just realizing more and more that the world is too fucked up to begin with. We aren't meant to be here
Lotus1818
Experienced
- Nov 4, 2019
- 248
My fiance knows I wanna die. She doesn't really like to think about it. But she listens to me allot about it and supports me allot in life
Last Caress
You need to relax..
- Dec 25, 2019
- 49
Hello there,
No one in the world who knows me got an idea about my desire to die, and the thing is I am so ashamed to let anyone know I want to die. It's just too hard for me to communicate with someone who knows me about it. Too shy for psychologist. But still looking for someone over the internet to talk to.
Love,
Last Caress.
No one in the world who knows me got an idea about my desire to die, and the thing is I am so ashamed to let anyone know I want to die. It's just too hard for me to communicate with someone who knows me about it. Too shy for psychologist. But still looking for someone over the internet to talk to.
Love,
Last Caress.
That's actually nice. For a long time i was working on getting forgiveness and acceptance from my family but I've totally given up on that. And then again, maybe it's better this way
Flume
Villain
- Oct 28, 2019
- 300
No, not a single one I've ever meet.
Yeah me whole family knows and supports me. But they want me to go with euthanasia so thats bit hard and stressful because i am in between doing it myself and euthanasia.
awfullife
Arcanist
- Nov 16, 2019
- 435
My really good buddy was actually very cool about it. He started off by saying that it is everyone's own decision to make and he would understand if I did it. He then closed by saying he doesn't want to lose me as a friend and would be terribly hurt. I thought that was a pretty cool way to phrase it.
chris8000
Experienced
- Dec 10, 2019
- 231
I haven't told anyone. It is a pretty serious situation I am in here so I think they will understand although it will be understandably very upsetting for them. I'd go for euthanasia in the EU if it wasn't for my inability to travel much due to pain.
Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,704
My only relative and my SO know. They understand without really supporting my decision. One of the advantages of having a progressive debilitating illness
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Nope, absolutely not. My best friend will listen. He knows, like basically everything. But he also does things to try and stop me horrible attempt at it lol.
Seriously though, actual conversation I had with him:
me: My plans!
him: no
m: but... my plans...my perfect plans
h: NO
m: but.
h: no no no!!!
m: my plans though
h: NO!
An actual conversation. And I'm not joking.... it's happened like 5-10 times this past week.
Seriously though, actual conversation I had with him:
me: My plans!
him: no
m: but... my plans...my perfect plans
h: NO
m: but.
h: no no no!!!
m: my plans though
h: NO!
An actual conversation. And I'm not joking.... it's happened like 5-10 times this past week.
Shero
Experienced
- Dec 19, 2019
- 274
Kind off, i would even take it a step further. Im handicaped (from my mental illness), and im thankful that my mother is providing all materialistic needs for me in order to survive. Yet she makes it as emotionally excrutiating as possible. Seems like she wants me to die impulsivly, which provides failure and as a result agony. She will fulfill her narcisstic desires in achieving compassion from other people and punishing me for my tainted existence.
RealLostSoul
once rock bottom, always rock bottom
- Oct 11, 2019
- 211
my mother supports me with my plans for surgery. This is legit the only thing that I keep living for. If this wouldn't exist I'ma just blast myself without hesitation tbh
OreoWellington
Ready To Die
- Sep 28, 2019
- 123
I think often that being pro-choice comes from some form of personal tragedy or emotional depth
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Glad it made you laugh ! It makes me laugh/smile. But you know, not like in a would stop me.
He and I actually have that type of joking/funny/twisted relationship too lol. We both are honest, well anymore, but we totally cover things with dark humor (especially me). If I say "plans", "s" or "s word", or even "stopping any of my meds", some other related things--he's instantly on the NO! and series of no's. You know... It just hit me, we joke about it him and I. He knows I'm serious. He's never told my mom.... he says it because he's thinking of her mental state, but I almost am wondering now....
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
BabyYoda
F*ck this sh!t I'm out
- Dec 30, 2019
- 552
*reads all the comments* Wait....what?
So far I have told two people about my suicidal thoughts in detail. One of them is someone I care for deeply, and the other is another person who was willing to help at first but shamed me at the end. When I told the former, he was really calm. For some reason I asked him if he could help me CTB and he said "no because I am too scared to do it myself" but it seems that he made no efforts to interfere with my plans, if I ever had any. The latter though DID listen to me about it but he eventually got tired of being patient with me, as I stated in my comments posted in other threads.
For the rest of my friends they'll just bombard me with the same pro life shit over and over again and they'll try their best to keep me alive. So yeah only one person IRL seems to be pretty chill about it.
So far I have told two people about my suicidal thoughts in detail. One of them is someone I care for deeply, and the other is another person who was willing to help at first but shamed me at the end. When I told the former, he was really calm. For some reason I asked him if he could help me CTB and he said "no because I am too scared to do it myself" but it seems that he made no efforts to interfere with my plans, if I ever had any. The latter though DID listen to me about it but he eventually got tired of being patient with me, as I stated in my comments posted in other threads.
For the rest of my friends they'll just bombard me with the same pro life shit over and over again and they'll try their best to keep me alive. So yeah only one person IRL seems to be pretty chill about it.
AlreadyGone
Taking it day by day
- Jan 11, 2020
- 917
I haven't told anyone because I know they would not support my plans and I do not want anyone to interfere with my plans.
Tempeste
Member
- Jan 11, 2020
- 60
No and I'm not going to tell them or give any clues. No notes, no giving things away, no cryptic statements, no personality changes (I got very quiet and peaceful last time bc I'd made a decision and I felt good about it)
My husband watches me like a hawk and I think he's caught on something is going on again. I'm getting texts from him edging around the subject.
He will call someone on me. Says he'd rather have me alive and mad at him than gone.
My husband watches me like a hawk and I think he's caught on something is going on again. I'm getting texts from him edging around the subject.
He will call someone on me. Says he'd rather have me alive and mad at him than gone.
AlreadyGone
Taking it day by day
- Jan 11, 2020
- 917
This. I simply do not see the point in informing other people of your plans unless you are actively trying to access how they will respond to it. Ultimately, I just feel it will sabotage your plans in the long run.
Crushed_Innocence
Hungry Ghost
- Oct 16, 2019
- 423
I met someone here on SS, who while they would prefer I don't die, have decided to support me to the very end. A true champ indeed. I am so grateful.
amnotreal
Student
- Oct 20, 2019
- 137
no. in my life the people who know will be very very angry someday when i ctb. they will not understand. part of why i hold off is my kids but i also have a friend i love very much and i think we both feel this way a lot and agree to hang on for one another. if she ctb i probably will not long after and if i ctb first she probably will too.
i can't talk about it much because everyone freaks out and thinks it is selfish and bad and wrong and like a crime. i just want relief. i just want to stop hurting.
i can't talk about it much because everyone freaks out and thinks it is selfish and bad and wrong and like a crime. i just want relief. i just want to stop hurting.
I don't have even a single person in this world who would care about me.
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,819
No, I haven't. Just about all the people I know in real life are pro-life, anti-choice, anti-suicide, and a fair bit are also religious. The ones that are secular, are still pro-life humanists and what not. It's really sad that no one really is on board with me, and I'd always have to hide, lie about my (true) thoughts, and secretly plan and hope that I get everything right when the time comes. 
It's also too risky in today's world to come out as suicidal or depressed. The consequences can include social ostracization, bullying and judgment, forced intervention (depending on the case), busy-bodies who won't keep their nose out of my life, and more. It's awful and I'm basically alone IRL. I come into this world without my consent and alone (not counting parents) and I will likely die alone, secluded.
It's also too risky in today's world to come out as suicidal or depressed. The consequences can include social ostracization, bullying and judgment, forced intervention (depending on the case), busy-bodies who won't keep their nose out of my life, and more. It's awful and I'm basically alone IRL. I come into this world without my consent and alone (not counting parents) and I will likely die alone, secluded.
