I'm happy ganja helps you make it to see another day. For me I anytime I have some weed I get anxiety. Everyone around me can smell it and the cops are going to come and interrogate me to find out I'm suicidal then I'm getting arrested for drugs and suicidal ideation. I was smoking every day for a few years but the first smoke made me want to live.
offtopic but in (most) of where I live cops don't give af about weed, I mean smoking in front of them might be a slap on the wrists and confiscation but thats about it (for personal use)
i know exactly where your coming from. At times when ive got something on my mind from my past or something really hard going on in my head, the desire to, as you say, just put a gun to your head and blow your brains out, is SOOOOO INTENSE. At that moment i feel so consumed with the idea of killing myself. The only way that i can feel i can actually get through it without getting a gun is to do something else to myself. On a couple of occassions i punched a brick wall. Yeh i know...stupid...but it was totally impulsive. Broke several bones in my hand each time but it stopped my thoughts tho, so it worked. I dont reccommend this tho , esp as brick walls dont bounce back.
I'm so sorry. For me xanax is the thing that keeps away the "suicide now" urge. Its miserable isn't it?
i take klonopin too. my abusive relationship i was having panic attacks at least twice a day or more so me and klonopin have been good friends.
Hi, I was interested in finding out more about Gender Dysphoria and what it actually means? I certainly do not want to upset you in anyway and if you dont wish to answer my question thats fine i absolutely would understand. I just dont know anything about it and was wanting to understand what it was? I really hope you dont take any offence by my wanting to understand?
No worries, I'm glad to help. Gender dysphoria affects everyone differently so it's hard to give a straight answer to. For me the basics are wanting to remove what shouldn't be there and grow what isn't to put it as bluntly as possible. my mirrors are covered up because the person looking back isn't me and makes me very uncomfortable. but it wasn't until I came to terms with being transgendered that the dysphoria really became a problem. I guess it's like how when people get stabbed they might not notice right away as long as it's a smooth cut.
Thankyou for being so bravely honest with me. When you came to terms with being transgender I thought you might have started to feel more like yourself? What is the liklihood that you can get the surgery you need to be who your really are? I think its so sad that you feel like your life isnt worth living, but I couldnt begin to understand what your going through. I know just in talks with friends about being transgender that it must be the hardest thing to deal with, to feel like your not in the right body. My god, that must be so incredibly difficult for you. Are you connected with the trans community? Do you get much in the way of support through the trans community? I can only so what an amazingly brave person you are to even come to terms with being trans, to get that far is a massive feat. What an incredible person you are.
