Do you will kill yourself randomly or planned?

[spectraltease]

Do you will kill yourself randomly (set everything up but no date, just die if it feels right) or planned? (date, time, planned every aspect, etc.)

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that for me it would be better to die when it feels right rather than trying to set a date. If someone sets a date in advance then something could get in the way of plans as after all, life is unpredictable. As long as someone has a method plan and everything is set up then they can exit when they know it's the right time and this is certainly for the best.

 

[Hirokami]

If I went through with it, it'll be planned. I know I'd somehow fuck it all up if I did it spontaneously. I'd keep the date to myself and tell no one irl. My life is stressful, though it's mundane enough not to have anything interfere with those plans.

 

[makethepainstop]

Oh no bro, I shall examine every bit of data pertaining to the SN method!

 

[NoLightRemains]

I'm trying to stick to dates. Something about sticking to a set date would let me feel like it is what I truly wanted and it is the right time for me to go. In contrast, I have everything set up and could leave impulsively when things are bad, but it's not my plan because I feel like I'd probably regret it in my final moments.

 

[lifeORdeath]

Planned method, random chaotic time

 

[farakini]

For me, things could go either way. I already have everything planned but knowing how dramatic I can be when things don't go my way, I could just say Fuck it and drink the poison…. But then again, I eventually calm down, so I have to just choose a date. If the day comes and I'm not ready, then I'll keep postponing…..I mean, I've been suicidal since I was a kid…. I'm 28 now…. I've been waiting my whole life.

 

[SarRy]

Planned randomly. I will have a well thought plan with reason made as to why I should end my life. Then, when I randomly find the time to be right and appropriate, I think I will choose to go through with my plan. I do not know when, but I think I know how. If that makes sense. Sometimes, you're waiting for the right time. Sometimes, you're just waiting for the energy.

 

[HateMyPointlessLife]

I'm not really at my best when acting impulsively. I suppose I would still have a chance at being successful. But havent been so far. But then again every time I try and plan properly it seems to end up falling apart anyway.

 

[EnnuiCat]

Planning for me has to come when the impulse to kill myself is low. When everything is in place I then just have to wait until my emotional instability, desperation, loneliness, and anger at the universe for giving birth to my f'd up existence is causing me so much pain that I act -- which is more and more frequent these days. I have SN but nothing else. So it's partially in place.

 

[Sad_Sack]

It has to be spur of the moment for me. I can't guarantee my fortitude will last if I have a date ticking down. I need to be ready when I'm ready.

 

[sleeps]

i have basically unlimited capacity to put things off - its a big part of why my life is in such a shit place that i need to ctb. i don't know if i'd actually follow through if i set a date.

for me it'd probably be better to have everything in place, ready to go for whenever i feel so bad that i'll do it impulsively.

 

[nootthenoot]

It's a planned date, but I don't know when yet. I still have to plan the miniscule details of the plan, but once I do, there will be a date. I obviously wouldn't tell anyone in real life about this, but I plan to let y'all know about it on here around a day before.