Do you want to achieve anything before you ctb

[barelyholdingon]

My goal before I ctb is to graduate a union apprenticeship and become an ironworker. That way I can leave this world having at least one impressive achievement that I worked for. I also want to leave behind at least $100,000 for my family. I'm just going to live simply so I can save as much money as possible during my final years. Do any of you have goals you want to accomplish?

 

[FoxSauce]

Prob life away from my mom and spend time with my sisters and dad but ctb happens impulsively sometimes so I dunno.

 

[TAW122]

Nothing in particular and for my nearly three and a half decades of sentience in this world, I've done most of the things I wanted at least to some of my standards... I realized I can't win it all, and ultimately, I look at the long term future and I don't like the future that I'm facing as well as continually dealing with the shit-sandwich of life itself... I think once the right time and circumstance comes, I'll just check out without too much of a fuss (after planning and preparing thoroughly).

 

[Hollowman]

No

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

no nothing except my suicide very soon. to me nothing matters except me avoiding unbearable pain or extreme suffering and getting my suicide ready to go asap and doing it asap. my suicide is killing myself, killing this bag of 30 trillion cells I'm trapped in they call a human body , killing this monstrous brain that can cause unending constant unbearable pain

 

[tears and vomit]

That's exactly what I'm doing right now. I don't want to die a complete failure, so I'm holding off on my CTB attempt for this reason and also because I don't have the right tools or place right now. I still kind of feel like I'm doing this for nothing, but I'll get through it with a ton of Xanax and Prozac.

 

[FuneralCry]

All I want is to cease existing painlessly so finally I can be free from this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result. I'd never wish for anything to do with the abomination of existence, all I want to achieve is true permanent peace where this existence is all gone and forgotten but of course all I truly want is to erase this existence, I want it to be like this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured was never imposed at all.