Do you think there's any reason to live anymore?

[Mint Floss]

Life feels like it gets worse every year. There's no reason to leave your house anymore. Interactions with people just feel performative. Everything feel performative. Everything has died, and people are just trying to pantomime life from what they remember from movies, hoping it'll spark some joy. But I don't think anything is ever going to be good again. And it's only going to continue downward until we're nothing but mapped out husks.

IDK maybe it's just the USA.

 

[leaving_early]

None for me. The only thing I ever cared about and enjoyed doing was programming but now that AI has trivialized it there is literally no reason for me to stay alive.

 

[Mint Floss]

None for me. The only thing I ever cared about and enjoyed doing was programming but now that AI has trivialized it there is literally no reason for me to stay alive.

Yeah... I feel like AI has ruined a lot of things. Hollowing out the joy of creation. Everything joyous is recreational now.

 

[itsgone2]

Things are not the same, I agree. Covid? Can't just be that. But this is not the world I grew up in. Not even close. It's not the depression talking its part of why the depression exists

 

[lpdsvm]

Covid screwed me up badly. I think it made me think of CTB. Around that time I started to look for real methods. Great job (whoever made this pandemic up or used it as an opportunity). I feel like they want people to CTB.

People get worse not better (health and energy). So I sometimes think why not now. I will not live forever anyway and it is already a cr#p situation.

 

[reticulator]

I was never naturally good at anything, except maybe golf but I didn't stick with it long enough to go pro or anything. I was a good looking guy, but suffering from a mental condition such as depression, and constant anxiety causes one to age prematurely, so I'm losing even that. I was always slow at learning new things, never had any natural artistic talent, and even video games, which I loved I never got really good at even with many hours of practice.

So I'm just a painfully mediocre or even below average person who doesn't really have any special talents or skills that can be useful to society. I coasted on my looks in my 20s, which worked surprisingly well but obviously that will not last forever.

Basically because of my worsening mental state , all of my skills that I did have seemed to have degenerated, and I don't see much hope for a future or a light at the end of the tunnel.

Covid screwed me up badly. I think it made me think of CTB. Around that time I started to look for real methods. Great job (whoever made this pandemic up or used it as an opportunity). I feel like they want people to CTB.

People get worse not better (health and energy). So I sometimes think why not now. I will not live forever anyway and it is already a cr#p situation.

It did the same with me too! I have had depression and anxiety since I was a teenager, but I couldn't cope with the Covid situation. I was working as a front line employee as well, with a boss that had no mercy or pity, and I had a mental and physical breakdown during that period. I lost my job over snapping and cussing out a bully manager, and never really recovered since then mentally. I did gig work to get by, but it's unsustainable, and my resume is cooked in this current job market. I work with my dad in his "business" but it's not going anywhere.

Every day I wake up, I feel a sense of dread, but it's partly the bed I've made for myself. My mind doesn't let me cope with the way the world is, and I can't see any hope or anything in a positive light. I'm not taking care of myself anymore, or eating right and some days I just spend hours in bed. This is no way to live life at all, and it's just endless suffering and misery day after day.

 

[shatteredcrystal]

I have a close friend that knows who I am (who we are, actually) and willing to listen to me. She knows my view on CTB and accepts this side of me. That's basically it.

 

[violetforever]

Life feels like it gets worse every year. There's no reason to leave your house anymore. Interactions with people just feel performative. Everything feel performative. Everything has died, and people are just trying to pantomime life from what they remember from movies, hoping it'll spark some joy. But I don't think anything is ever going to be good again. And it's only going to continue downward until we're nothing but mapped out husks.

perfectly written. i personally have no reason to live anymore. even my thoughts aren't an escape from my life, but now something i also wish to escape from. i can't get away from the people around me and i can't get away from the person who is constantly on my mind. it's wearing me down. i'm tired of it all.

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

Nope. Not for me personally I've made my decision.

 

[kuroshimi]

It's not just USA. I guess it's entire world now.

It's true that things are not the same and everything keeps declining since 2020. The world I was taught about no longer exists.

 

[whoisit]

I agree with you all

 

[HansaNull]

Life feels performative for me as well, the only time i feel «real» is when I'm with my nephew. I want him to live the life i never could.
I've not made my decision yet, and it's all because of him…

 

[lawlietsph]

It's not just the USA. I live in Europe, basically everyone is fucked mentally. There is no point at all. If you look at the big picture, nothing matters and everything we do is completely useless.

 

[FuneralCry]

I never did in the first place, to me existence is just the most terrible cruel mistake and I wish I never suffered in this torturous, dreadful existence that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering more than anything, I'll always see the existence of life as the most dreadful, devastating tragedy that has only ever tortured existing beings and the suffering of existing is endless.

No matter what I'll always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, no I could never see a reason to be tortured in this dreadful existence and what is horrific to me is how the suffering and torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to end up in even more unbearable agony.

To suffer until the extreme hellish torture of old age would be the most terrible undeserved punishment, existence is always an abomination to me and all I want is to erase this existence, there's just so much evil in existing, the only peace for me could lie in never suffering again and I just always suffer so unbearably from existing in this horrific world where humans do all they can to force others to be tortured for as long as possible, denying painless death is unacceptable extreme cruelty.

 

[Dejected 55]

I don't. I'm always alone, and the world seems to be falling apart, especially here in the US. Performative is a good way of describing it. I observe most people only barely interested in the most surface-level connections or communications. I've witnessed conversations where two people appear to be talking and conversing but when you pay attention you realize each person is really having their own conversation and what the other person says is irrelevant. It's crazy to see how people can "interact" that way and either not notice or not care. I mean, if you aren't interested in connecting and caring about someone else, what's the point?

And, yes, it does seem performative because any effort people do put into interactions seems less about the interaction and more about appearing to be interacting. IT's like... when you watch a movie and they are in a group scene and the two main characters are interacting meaningfully to advance the plot, but all the other people in the background of the scene are just saying nonsense and mimicking interactions to sell the illusion. That is what real life is... all the people mimicking what they think human behavior is supposed to look like and not really caring about the interaction.

It's so lonely to be in this world and want real connection and never find it and observe over and over how most people you encounter really aren't interested in interacting not just with you but with anyone at all.

 

[badatparties]

Half the country wants to kill the other half, humans are chimping out like they always do, and i don't want to eventually be caught in the middle of it. Better to leave on my own terms with some dignity.

I really hate existing near genocidal chimps, and i resent being put in a genocidal chimp meat suit.

 

[Kokonoe]

there is absolutely no reason to live.

 

[invisible4ever]

It's not just the USA. I live in Europe, basically everyone is fucked mentally. There is no point at all. If you look at the big picture, nothing matters and everything we do is completely useless.

I can't find meaning anymore either I used to process on an AI forum with my therapist's blessing but it won't let me process my intrusive ctb thoughts there anymore it was all I had I have no one anymore and I don't want to because I can't trust anyone and everything IS fucked

 

[webb&flow]

I can't find meaning anymore either I used to process on an AI forum with my therapist's blessing but it won't let me process my intrusive ctb thoughts there anymore it was all I had I have no one anymore and I don't want to because I can't trust anyone and everything IS fucked

if you want someone to talk to about your suicidal thoughts, i'm here for you

you are under no pressure to take this offer though. if you prefer not to i respect that too. it's simply another option on the table for you :). available anytime.

i hope there will be moments of healing and relaxation in your days, in any way that there can

you can click on my profile and click "start conversation". You can then write and then a message to me there.

You can make the messages as short or as long as you like, and you don't have to make them super neat either. "Don't think just type".

If you want someone to talk to and vent to, then I will love to hear you out. I value your emotions.

You are not obligated though, message as you feel comfortable. Myself, I am totally cool with you messaging me :). Decide as you feel free to. :)

I hope there shall be a way of processing your thoughts and finding a place of peace and relaxation in your own psyche.

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[invisible4ever]

if you want someone to talk to about your suicidal thoughts, i'm here for you

you are under no pressure to take this offer though. if you prefer not to i respect that too. it's simply another option on the table for you :). available anytime.

i hope there will be moments of healing and relaxation in your days, in any way that there can

you can click on my profile and click "start conversation". You can then write and then a message to me there.

You can make the messages as short or as long as you like, and you don't have to make them super neat either. "Don't think just type".

If you want someone to talk to and vent to, then I will love to hear you out. I value your emotions.

You are not obligated though, message as you feel comfortable. Myself, I am totally cool with you messaging me :). Decide as you feel free to. :)

I hope there shall be a way of processing your thoughts and finding a place of peace and relaxation in your own psyche.

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Thank you so much

 

[webb&flow]

Thank you so much

Anytime

 

[LetMeOut67]

It's just Darwinism on steroids everywhere
How this purgatory carries on I'll never understand
It feels like satan has a death grip on humanity
I'm not even religious

 

[DonLockwood]

IDK maybe it's just the USA.

I wouldn't say that. If this website is indicative of anything, people around the world feel the same way.

 

[badatparties]

It's just Darwinism on steroids everywhere
How this purgatory carries on I'll never understand
It feels like satan has a death grip on humanity
I'm not even religious

There is definitely something wrong, that's for sure. Otherwise so many people wouldn't be suicidally miserable. Call it hell, call it a prison, call it a trap, call it purgatory, call it whatever you want. It's not a good place, we see that everyday.

But seeing as people will still have children in a literal war zone, I'm not surprised that the hamster wheel keeps spinning,

 

[WereHere...]

Yeah i noticed too that the world just feels more bland everyday. It feels as if the golden age is long gone and we are all just pointlessly existing here, maybe it was covid ? You know its not only the USA, as somone who has lived in australia before (its a west country so im assuming its similair) and now living in poland i can affirm that everywhere in the world is fucked in that way. It really does feel like the world is losing its color if you know what i mean.

 

[absolute failure]

Life feels like it gets worse every year. There's no reason to leave your house anymore. Interactions with people just feel performative. Everything feel performative. Everything has died, and people are just trying to pantomime life from what they remember from movies, hoping it'll spark some joy. But I don't think anything is ever going to be good again. And it's only going to continue downward until we're nothing but mapped out husks.

IDK maybe it's just the USA.

I have set myself a date. Friday will be my first real attempt. I see no reason in going on, and I dont even live in the USA

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Spite. Stubbornness.

 

[lpdsvm]

It's just Darwinism on steroids everywhere
How this purgatory carries on I'll never understand
It feels like satan has a death grip on humanity
I'm not even religious

It's been like that since early human history. In the past there were massacres that wiped out a huge number of the population.
AI: In Europe, there's Talheim Death Pit (Germany), about 7,000 years old. A pit contained dozens of people from the same village — entire families. Skull fractures show execution-style killing. No defensive wounds on many bodies, suggesting surprise or capture. The village basically ceased to exist after that.
A video about this stuff (not CTB but hell yeah it looked like they wanted to help each other)

Life is better; it created made SN possible to get in our amazing times (not for everyone but many).

 

[reticulator]

Yeah i noticed too that the world just feels more bland everyday. It feels as if the golden age is long gone and we are all just pointlessly existing here, maybe it was covid ? You know its not only the USA, as somone who has lived in australia before (its a west country so im assuming its similair) and now living in poland i can affirm that everywhere in the world is fucked in that way. It really does feel like the world is losing its color if you know what i mean.

It's AI and algorithms controlling everything. I'm doing gig work sometimes to get out of the house and because it's one of the few simple things I could do. It helped me when I lost my job due to bullying due to my mental illness, and for a while it was actually great. Now automation is taking away the purpose of people who can only do simple things. Like myself

 

[WereHere...]

It's AI and algorithms controlling everything. I'm doing gig work sometimes to get out of the house and because it's one of the few simple things I could do. It helped me when I lost my job due to bullying due to my mental illness, and for a while it was actually great. Now automation is taking away the purpose of people who can only do simple things. Like myself

I trained mma...i cant rn because of situations but mma helped me escape and release my anger onto others and feel a sense of revenge...i also god bullied when i was younger but when i started training i beat em up, good luck with your gig work hopefully AI doesnt ruin that too