I had this thought recently. In the past when I dated women I always thought there must be something wrong with me when I get rejected so often. Though, when I analyze the cases where I learned about the actual reasons why I was rejected the reasons were different. In many cases the reasons didn't have much to do with what I have done. Our lives just didn't match. The circumstances we lived in. Or there were situational factors that played a role. I also have the feeling I get played a lot. And women realize pretty early that I am easy to deceive and not experienced with women. I don't think this is women thing though. I think men also play with feelings and when they are dating women. Not everyone is open about their motives. It seems like only a minority is. And maybe this has advantages for them.
Why I had the thought in the title. I knew it was weird to post daily on here. There is something that draws me to post on here. And to reflect on my thoughts. This is going on for quite a while. And I don't see myself stopping it. When I was in a short relationship I posted less. The interesting thing is I think posting on here is an autistic special interest of me. And I only realized that 5 years after I started posting. I always considered myself to be self-aware. But I was so ignorant about noticing my autism and how it shapes my thinking fundamentally. My thought was whatdrives people to have a really massive post count on here? Is it temporary relief? Is it communion and empathy? A place to feel less lonely? And well if you are in a lot of pain life can really feel lonely. I felt so disconnected before I found this forum. It was really really rough. It was really horrible. It gives me a valve of my inner tensions. The theory I just had with this question in mind. If you are mass-poster on Sanctioned Suicide and it is part of your everyday life and partly your identity does this make you more likely to be on the autism spectrum?
Why I had the thought in the title. I knew it was weird to post daily on here. There is something that draws me to post on here. And to reflect on my thoughts. This is going on for quite a while. And I don't see myself stopping it. When I was in a short relationship I posted less. The interesting thing is I think posting on here is an autistic special interest of me. And I only realized that 5 years after I started posting. I always considered myself to be self-aware. But I was so ignorant about noticing my autism and how it shapes my thinking fundamentally. My thought was whatdrives people to have a really massive post count on here? Is it temporary relief? Is it communion and empathy? A place to feel less lonely? And well if you are in a lot of pain life can really feel lonely. I felt so disconnected before I found this forum. It was really really rough. It was really horrible. It gives me a valve of my inner tensions. The theory I just had with this question in mind. If you are mass-poster on Sanctioned Suicide and it is part of your everyday life and partly your identity does this make you more likely to be on the autism spectrum?
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