Discussion Do you think others can tell?

[nothingspecial]

Do you think others around you can tell that you're actively or passively suicidal? Is there anything you're doing to try to hide it from others? Or are you trying to give hints as a cry for help?

I personally think I'm doing a very good job at hiding it, but there are definetely some obvious signs others will look back on when I pass. I think my suicide will be very shocking to others because I seem to be doing very well right now, though I think everyone would agree that I was going to die by suicide at some point, just not this soon.

When I was younger and suicidal, it was very obvious. I would tell myself that I didn't want anyone else to know, but I would leave out my diary full of suicidal thoughts in an open space for my parents to look through. I think I was subconsciously making it obvious as a cry for help. I didn't really want to die, I just wanted to escape from my problems. This time around, I actually want to die and be sucessful with it, so I'm being as careful as possible to make sure it happens. I'm acting normal, joyful, talking about plans for the future, etc.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't think that my family knows that I'm suicidal per se as I'm too stupid to ever attempt such a thing and they don't have it in them to conclude that I'm suicidal without me explicitly telling them (which I wont ever do because I'm not willing to stay alive for longer than I have to). It's obvious to them that I'm depressed though but all I get in response is platitudes like "just be happy" and "you can't complain about god's system"

 

[fallingleaves]

Everyone around me knows but that's basically two people who also know that I'll never forgive them if they call the authorities on me.

 

[LostLily]

Nope I'm fooling everyone

 

[Nobodi]

Do you think others around you can tell that you're actively or passively suicidal? Is there anything you're doing to try to hide it from others? Or are you trying to give hints as a cry for help?

I personally think I'm doing a very good job at hiding it, but there are definetely some obvious signs others will look back on when I pass. I think my suicide will be very shocking to others because I seem to be doing very well right now, though I think everyone would agree that I was going to die by suicide at some point, just not this soon.

When I was younger and suicidal, it was very obvious. I would tell myself that I didn't want anyone else to know, but I would leave out my diary full of suicidal thoughts in an open space for my parents to look through. I think I was subconsciously making it obvious as a cry for help. I didn't really want to die, I just wanted to escape from my problems. This time around, I actually want to die and be sucessful with it, so I'm being as careful as possible to make sure it happens. I'm acting normal, joyful, talking about plans for the future, etc.

I feel like even if they can tell or not they wouldn't care. I'm over it all of it I just want to sleep and not wake up. I honestly don't think anyone can tell they just like whatever.

 

[Emeralds]

I'm certain that no one would guess that I'm suicidal unless I tell them. I'm not trying to hide it or go out of my way to drop hints. I'm just being myself.

Most people wouldn't guess that someone is suicidal unless you tell them. This is because the most people aren't suicidal themselves so it doesn't cross their minds other people might be. If you want help, you should ask for help directly. You shouldn't assume that other people will guess that you are suicidal and need help. You could tell someone you trust that you feel suicidal. If you don't want to do that , you can talk to them about what the underlying problem is and ask them for advice or ask them for practical help if they are able to do it.

 

[Lo$t95]

Nobody can know your intentions if you systematically remove them from your life, work from home and stay silent as much as possible. Fly under the radar of life like a ghost. Soon ill be a memory for some but nothing at all by the time they find my body.

Sincerest apologies to the person that happens to be.

 

[skyflame]

I spend most of my time alone so no one really knows how I'm doing "normally" anyway. I have had moments when I've crossed the road without looking and thought "shit, a normal person would have looked whoops".

I don't know how to say goodbyes/thank yous without being obvious… Maybe I'm overthinking it.

 

[imnotsurewhy]

I dont think about other people knowing because it makes me feel anxious if i think someone realizes

 

[tranquil]

I'm in a similar-y situation. I believe I am doing a good job at hiding that I'm suicidal from people. I still want to hope for a little longer though, I'm trying to cling to whatever I have, but by the way things are looking I wouldn't give myself more than a year. I did give some people hints at some point as a cry for help, yes. I was somewhat scared I made them too obvious, but since nobody acted on them, they either didn't give them much thought, either didn't know how or want to act on them.

 

[Broken247]

It gets harder to hide, the closer I get to doing it. If I don't ctb, I'm gonna get locked up for sure. I don't want to go to a mental hospital again. I just want to ctb bravely before losing it so much that I get arrested. I've been losing my temper more often. I've been being alone much more and behaving out of character. Yeah, people can tell who are close.

 

[TragedyBornCrimson]

People don't really care or take you seriously if your passively suicidal. They suddenly care deeply when you ctb completely. That's how people are, people don't want to fix or work with problems that could last a life time. Yet they prevent peaceful methods of ctb. People are ok if you are passively suicidal as long as it doesn't affect them

 

[CantDoIt]

They know, I used to sort of tell people as a cry for help but it didn't get better so I decided I will pretend to be sort of ok except in therapy ig

 

[Invisible23]

No I don't think anyone knows . I'm either really good at hiding it or no one cares

 

[CatLvr]

Nope I'm fooling everyone

This. No one has a clue.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Nobody can tell. I have a pretty morbid sense of humor anyway, so when I literally tell people that I will ctb at some point, they think I am joking.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Suicidal? I doubt it. But I'm sure people can tell that there's something off about me.

 

[Z-A]

Not emphatically, unless you talk or show any signs.

 

[LostLily]

I bet most people would be surprised that I'm depressed, let alone suicidal.

 

[ScaredOfMachines]

I think people know, I'm extremely bad at hiding my emotions and I'm a very readable person in general. I don't think anyone cares enough to mention it, though.

 

[mangotango0249]

I feel you exactly. Back in my teenage years, I would post depressing emo shit online and self harm and post etc. I was definitely depressed but deep down I knew that I wanted to live, I just needed someone to help.

But now that I'm 24, no family, no friends, no job, no passion, no money, I'm just acting normal around people. If anything I probably seem happier than usual. I've been doing my bestest to make sure I leave the best last impressions on people. I'm leaving in less than 24 hours..

 

[Mayfly]

Not at all lol it'll be a big surprise

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I think people know, I'm extremely bad at hiding my emotions and I'm a very readable person in general. I don't think anyone cares enough to mention it, though.

Same, I can't mask for the life of me so it's pretty obvious to pretty much anyone I encounter that I'm depressed (though maybe not so obvious that I'm suicidal).

Unrelated but @nothingspecial what's your profile pic from? I love it!

 

[nothingspecial]

Unrelated but @nothingspecial what's your profile pic from? I love it!

Thank you so much! It's a painting of St. Catherine of Siena by Giovanni Battista Tiepolo! St. Catherine of Siena is my confirmation saint and my biggest inspiration