Do you think about how people might remember you once your gone

[End.of.the.line]

Do any of you worry how people think about might remember you and how they might talk about you after you CTB?

I don't want to be remembered as the guy that was to weak too live so he took his own life, i really don't want to be that guy. you might be thinking "you'll be dead so what do you care" but i cant help but care, not to mention the shame i will bring to my family. because of that, I would much rather die by letting some else do it or some quick accident or at the very least make it look like an accident.

Any ideas or advice?

 

[Candour]

I used to but now I don't care, only advice I can give is you won't care once you're gone so just try & think like that. This is what worked for me, though I know it might not for you.

 

[Maravillosa]

Oh yes, I do care about my posthumous reputation, silly as that may seem. Yes, I'll be dead, but I believe that I would be able to know (and care) in the hereafter what is going on among the living.

 

[Sayo]

I don't know if I'll be aware of it after I'm dead, but I'm certainly able to anticipate while I'm alive and capable of taking actions (or inaction) that will influence it, and that causes me a lot of grief.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

dont worry

outside of yout family you will be sooner forgotten than you think

 

[jaemus12]

Although my family will probably be infuriated by my death, I really hope they'll remember me for the positive things. I really do care about them and I love them. But I need to ctb for their benefit and mine.

And maybe three other people I am close with. That's about it.

I secretly wish you guys at Sanctioned Suicide will remember me. I just feel comfortable here.

 

[polyswarm]

I don't view people who ctb as too weak to live, but I can imagine where you're coming from.
That's how I view myself very often, as too weak to live, because I haven't done well at all for myself in live so far.

The fact that you're worrying about bring shame to your family makes me think you live in the Middle East, since that is one of the places where family honor is very important afaik.

I can understand that letting that idea go must be really hard, especially if that's the culture you live in.

 

[Kev]

I used to care and think about it a lot. I still think about it since I spend so much time thinking about suicide that the topic is bound to come up in my mind. When I was first depressed and suicidal, my thoughts were somewhat fueled by resentment of the world and others. My suicidality was not as rational or dark, it was more like my brain was no longer able to bottle up all the emotions and expelled them over the course of a year or two.

Now, my thoughts have become more calm, measured, rational, yet darker and more insidious. I let go of the resentment and mostly was just tired of existing and suffering. I no longer care about what people will think of me posthumously. One, I'll be dead so why should I give a shit? Two, all memories of me will vanish in the blink of an eye on the cosmic timescale.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

you guys need to understand that people are busy with their own life

nobody will put too much thought into your suicide except your family, especially if youre socially not well connected

 

[MEoDP]

Honestly,just trying to get the job done in a world that doesn't respect the right to die is hard enough already without adding the extra challenge of keeping up an image with your death.

I mean no disrespect,I get why you're concerned,but if you truly want to be gone,you may have to make the difficult choice of being willing to sacrifice your image to get the job done. I know,not easy,but its either that or you continue living. (You could possibly try and hire someone from the dark web to kill you,but that exposes you to a ton of risk,and police will try to investigate and may eventually discover that you tried to hire that someone to do you in)

 

[MEoDP]

As for me,I can't say I'm immune to the desire to keep up an image. I have a diary(wish I did online from the start),and I'm thinking of destroying it before ever choosing to CTB because I don't want people to read it. however,if some people look down on me for a suicide,I'll willingly accept that price.

 

[Morning Angel]

The first six months of my suicidality, I seemed to care quite a lot about how people would view me after death, but I seem to have let go any worry. Even crap talking is fine with me, as I generally accept that people who kill themselves are seen as fundamentally flawed anyway. Time will wipe away the worst of it before it all fades away completely. No matter what anyone says about you, they will die one day too.

 

[Euryale]

Tbh i can't help but think what psychological damage ill give to my parents after seeing my body(they dont deserve that posttrauma), even though dying early than to leech their good will for the rest of their lives(which they dont deserve either) seems the more rational choice.

As my college prof once said: Once someone you know dies, regardless of rep, part of you dies with them cause that's the end of your memories spent with them.

I'm okay having people grieve over my death, but the person they would recall as "me" as this "good person" just to satisfy their grievance, that I cannot acknowledge

 

[LibertyRevolutionary]

Nobody will care, and those who care will forget really soon.

 

[IronicFail]

I don't care what they think of me. I do care about what they think about themselves. I need certain people to know it wasn't their fault. Of course we know those that hurt us truly will never feel responsible and those that weren't, feel that they are.

 

[Nlnp2]

I'm proud of being lazy and weak.

 

[lostinthedream]

aye I think of it, and hope on balance that i've made a more positive impact on those who have been in my life than negative.. although as others have mentioned, there is no forever, we're all ultimately forgotten and so it is as its meant to be..

 

[Third88]

I don't care about looking weak but I don't want people to think it was because of them. I've found peace in knowing my days are numbered I just need to find the right place. I don't want my daughter to grow up and think she was the reason or wasn't enough to keep me alive so I wrote a note that I add to everyday explaining why I am ready to die. Hopefully I find the right method and location soon. I am so ready to die now but I'm at peace knowing I made the right decision.

 

[agreement]

I don't care.

 

[Forgotten Farewell]

Do any of you worry how people think about might remember you and how they might talk about you after you CTB?

I don't want to be remembered as the guy that was to weak too live so he took his own life, i really don't want to be that guy. you might be thinking "you'll be dead so what do you care" but i cant help but care, not to mention the shame i will bring to my family. because of that, I would much rather die by letting some else do it or some quick accident or at the very least make it look like an accident.

Any ideas or advice?

People will spit when they say my name the same as they have always done. My family hasn't spoken to me in over 5 years. I wish I knew how to get in contact with a. How How do I go about that?

 

[windingdown]

Do any of you worry how people think about might remember you and how they might talk about you after you CTB?

I don't want to be remembered as the guy that was to weak too live so he took his own life, i really don't want to be that guy. you might be thinking "you'll be dead so what do you care" but i cant help but care, not to mention the shame i will bring to my family. because of that, I would much rather die by letting some else do it or some quick accident or at the very least make it look like an accident.

Any ideas or advice?

I thought I didn't care, since I won't be here, but as I consider some things regarding my suicide note, I realize that I do care how I am remembered.

I think a note is a good way to gain some control over how you are remembered. You can clear some things up, ask your family to share things with friends or other family members, etc.

 

[Taylored]

Tiny little news article about some Teen dying from suicide and how It's the Internet's fault is pretty much gonna be it. Then forgotten in a day

 

[bigj75]

I don't care. Suffering is subjective. They may think I'm going because I was too wreak to live. I don't care at all when all I know is that my suffering stopping is the most important thing to me.

 

[Trashcan]

I won't be remembered positively and I've accepted that.

 

[Avicii]

Do any of you worry how people think about might remember you and how they might talk about you after you CTB?

I don't want to be remembered as the guy that was to weak too live so he took his own life, i really don't want to be that guy. you might be thinking "you'll be dead so what do you care" but i cant help but care, not to mention the shame i will bring to my family. because of that, I would much rather die by letting some else do it or some quick accident or at the very least make it look like an accident.

Any ideas or advice?

100 years time none of us will be remembered

 

[Maravillosa]

100 years time none of us will be remembered

I want to be remembered! That is why I want to have at least one novel completed and published before I die. Perhaps somebody will write my biography and 100 years later, people will still be reading my novel and my biography. How vain I am!

 

[-Link-]

I don't want to be remembered as the guy that was to weak too live so he took his own life, i really don't want to be that guy.

Anyone who equates suicide with weakness is either too stupid or too ignorant for me to care what they think.

outside of yout family you will be sooner forgotten than you think

Yeah, basically.

How often do you think about specific people other than those who are in your immediate circle? How about the ones who are dead? For me, the answer is not very often, and when I do, it's usually a fleeting thought.

For those who have passed, I don't really think about their deaths so much as I think about memories of them in life. If someone thinks about you and they're so focused on the manner of death, then that sounds more like a problem for them rather than you.

 

[throwaway123]

Yes, more than I'd like to admit.

 

[Dani Paradox]

I'll be remembered as "the hippie." Everyone knows me lol I always look like I just came out of a time machine. I see myself as a huge fiery comet. Everyone stops, points up and gasps "oh look at that!" Then, whoosh- and I'm gone. And they'll never see anything like it ever again...and they won't be able to forget me...ever.

 

[Abel]

No one outside of my immediate family even remembers me now, there's no chance in hell they'll remember me when I'm dead. But that's alright - we'll all be forgotten eventually, what difference does it make if I'm forgotten a little earlier?