Do you think about any users on here who did it?

[CatLove56]

Once in awhile, I think about a person I saw on here I want to say sometime after this website opened. I remember the parts that said "I don't want anyone here to be sad for me, I have made my peace with my decision and I have accepted that life is not for me. I'm going to go out in beautiful nature" and all this other stuff and it pisses me off to this day because this person sounded like such a nice guy/girl and life fucked them over. That's why I don't really look at posts like that I just get so angry that they were made to feel like that was the only option and I hate having emotions.

 

[ham and potatoes]

i agree with ya. lots of nice people on here who have just been dealt a shitty hand in life.
its depressing that we live in a world where a site like this even needs to exist

 

[heliophobic]

Yes. I think of puffyclouds quite a bit. I don't have a computer, just my phone, so I have to go out of my way to see if I have a private message. Well, I only just discovered a few days ago that she had sent me a private message the night she died when I tried everything I could to get her to stay, a lot of people did. At first it seemed like she changed her mind...then not. But seeing that message was extremely hard for me because it brought me back to 2000 when my best friend ctb and I felt like I failed him.

 

[absolutelyyou]

Yeah there are a good few I think about. Venin was just a wonderful person to chat to and seemed like an all around nice guy. Hi-okbye, Lra, was an incredibly thoughtful human with a wonderful artistic talent. ItsJustMiMi/Mi Mi was a beautiful soul who spoke so eloquently abut her struggle and was always kind in every interaction I saw of her. The world got a little dimmer each time one of them left but I'm grateful they are free of pain.

 

[Talvikki]

Yes, very often.

 

[willitpass]

There's only one person I can name specifically that I grew fond of who is unconfirmed. They were really struggling though, so if they are gone I truly hope they finally have some peace. I stopped looking at goodbye threads a long time ago as it is just too difficult. Way back around the time I joined I used to read and interact with them and there were a couple people who started to panic or regret midway through and it was heartbreaking.

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

I think a lot about users that have left. They remind me of the weight and reality of ctb.

 

[nir]

MistyMoo and I were talking up until they ctb recently. I miss them. The more we talked, the more it seemed we could have been could friends - we even lived close to each other.

I also think of 2ndme because her death was so sad. She seemed so sweet.

 

[whywere]

I agree and am the same as @willitpass, as it is way too difficult for me to read goodbye threads. If I can make it, I always will leave a message of support and say that I am around if one wants to talk or anything of that nature.

We are ALL family here and looking out for each other is what makes this site so human.

I always wish the very best for everyone where that may lead, as I am 100% pro-choice. Let each and every soul make their own path without ANY outside influence ever.

Lots of thoughtful well wishes and kindness to each and every soul on this site.

Walter

 

[DefinitelyReady]

Yeah there are a good few I think about. Venin was just a wonderful person to chat to and seemed like an all around nice guy. Hi-okbye, Lra, was an incredibly thoughtful human with a wonderful artistic talent. ItsJustMiMi/Mi Mi was a beautiful soul who spoke so eloquently abut her struggle and was always kind in every interaction I saw of her. The world got a little dimmer each time one of them left but I'm grateful they are free of pain.

Yeah Mi Mi personally helped me greatly... gave me a great gift. I'm really thankful for her kindness and generosity. I'm sorry for her struggle. It's really sad... She was so sweet and genuine

 

[Silent_cries]

Yes I do, I lost one of my closest friends on the forum and I still miss her everyday. I get angry because it was very preventable if the mental system had just taken her seriously. I know she would've rather gone for recovery if she was able, instead they pushed her over the limit...

 

[absolutelyyou]

Yeah Mi Mi personally helped me greatly... gave me a great gift. I'm really thankful for her kindness and generosity. I'm sorry for her struggle. It's really sad... She was so sweet and genuine

Mi Mi will live in our hearts forever and knowing her I do think she'd be moved to tears at the idea. I will carry her spirit as long as I'm here cause the world needs her spirit.

 

[iamanavalanche]

i was friends with someone who passed. i think about him every single day. he was the sweetest soul and i loved him very dearly.

 

[imsotired35]

I followed a girl on tiktok who cbt'd and it was later said that she took a SN. searching that lead me to this site and I guess she was probably on here. I think about her a lot.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I still think about a lady I chatted with a fair bit two years ago who CTB. I expect I'll always think about them. I feel so sad but then, I know I need to feel relieved for them too. They were sure they wanted to go.

Others who have either left the forum or, I simply don't know what happened. That's been difficult. Worse in a way- the not knowing.

 

[MasterOfDisguise]

Once in awhile, I think about a person I saw on here I want to say sometime after this website opened. I remember the parts that said "I don't want anyone here to be sad for me, I have made my peace with my decision and I have accepted that life is not for me. I'm going to go out in beautiful nature" and all this other stuff and it pisses me off to this day because this person sounded like such a nice guy/girl and life fucked them over. That's why I don't really look at posts like that I just get so angry that they were made to feel like that was the only option and I hate having emotions.

I do, there's plenty of people who I've talked to on this site who seemed like such nice people. I still cry when it think about those who took their own lives just cause they had been dealt a shitty hand in life.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, I don't really give a shit about people. Perhaps it's because autism makes me heartless but I don't really have it in me to care about people that much

 

[wCvML2]

Because of the subject matter of the site, I avoid befriending or getting attached to anyone for the fear of being affected by their possible departure. But even though I try practicing detachment, goodbye threads are still tragic and difficult to read due to their real life consequences and real life weight. Sometimes I hope it is fake or it was a failed attempt without any damage and they simply moved on from the site in pursuit of recovery but unfortunately that's rarely the case. There are some people that I still think of from time to time even if I never interacted with them.

 

[cal_staysthesame]

I havent been here long but Ive read through a few goodbye threads and they sort of scared me out of an attempt. the world is so unfair, its heartbreaking

 

[Silent_cries]

I still think about a lady I chatted with a fair bit two years ago who CTB. I expect I'll always think about them. I feel so sad but then, I know I need to feel relieved for them too. They were sure they wanted to go.

Others who have either left the forum or, I simply don't know what happened. That's been difficult. Worse in a way- the not knowing.

I feel that. My bff that dissapeared is unconfirmed and I hate not knowing! She's been idle for so long now that it's unfortunately very likely that she is gone now. I miss her so much!

 

[maniac116]

Yes, I think of all the people who have transitioned all the time.
Though I am very "pro choice" it still hurts me knowing the pain others go through that leads people to CTB. I know that pain well & don't wish it for anyone else!
We all deserve peace & freedom from pain. Some types of pain don't respond to pills