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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Gallow Rose
Jan 5, 2025
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The question goings through my mind every few days , and I honestly don't know how to answer it. Life is difficult and death is enviable .... it's also unknown so do we give up all that we know for a chance at something new or do we keep going on suffering until the day comes that we die ?

Is waiting worth it or is all of this for nothing?
 
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LastNite

LastNite

Hello World
Mar 31, 2025
497
Both in reality. I'd like to die and I'm afraid if I do live that I'll keep suffering.
 
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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Gallow Rose
Jan 5, 2025
1,664
Both in reality. I'd like to die and I'm afraid if I do live that I'll keep suffering.
Life is a big gamble... it fucking sucks
 
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Britney Spears

Britney Spears

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
543
When life becomes unbearable due to a chronic illness, that's not life, and you don't want to continue like that, especially when there's no cure. Before, we might fear death, but at that point of pain and suffering, we don't fear it; we just want to stop suffering. Since there's no magic cure, it's our last option and our last resort. We prefer to die rather than endure the existing pain. That's how I feel
 
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iplayedmyself

Member
May 11, 2025
12
Waiting to die naturally would be worth it if you have unrealized potential
 
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apearl

apearl

mitski fan
Sep 25, 2023
198
Afraid to live, I know I can't be someone who makes my family proud, and I also can't be happy surviving in this world, so it scares me to think of hanging around for another 60ish years
 
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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Gallow Rose
Jan 5, 2025
1,664
When life becomes unbearable due to a chronic illness, that's not life, and you don't want to continue like that, especially when there's no cure. Before, we might fear death, but at that point of pain and suffering, we don't fear it; we just want to stop suffering. Since there's no magic cure, it's our last option and our last resort. We prefer to die rather than endure the existing pain. That's how I feel
I've been to that level so many times. I have a chronic illness and it makes everything so much harder for me...
 
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VoidButterfly

VoidButterfly

Flitterby
May 17, 2025
131
I think my problem is I've run out of ways to live. I did everything that was an option in my life, there's nothing left now. There's no future, no living to be had, just riding out existence.

I wish I could spend more time with my friends I guess, but there's no more space for me in the world to do that. But ever if the world wasn't going to hell I wouldn't have anything to live for anymore, so I think I'd have still continued declining but maybe just at a slower pace.

I guess my final answer is a bit of a cop out, I wish there was another option besides dying but there isn't, and I'm not afraid to live but I've nothing to live for. So neither but of the two, yes, I want to die.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,676
Afraid to live
 
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Britney Spears

Britney Spears

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
543
I've been to that level so many times. I have a chronic illness and it makes everything so much harder for me...
I'm so sorry, honey. I'm always at that point, and I can't stand it anymore. I never get down from there. No matter how much help we get, sometimes there are people who have no solution. Do we want to die? Yes. Do we want to commit suicide? No. I wish there was euthanasia for all of us who suffer
 
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martinso67

All human rights are important
Feb 5, 2021
362
I am in my bed now and going to sleep now.
I wish I could swallow some pill, that makes me sleep immediately and not wake up anymore.

Unaliving one's self in my case with my anxiety, lack of motivation and limited options is a real headache.

Living in a democracy and people keep telling you are free and responsible for you life. Ok, then why I am not really allowed actually to die by my own terms. Killing one's self is not a crime. It's my body and I am not a minor and above 30 years old.
 
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be or not to be

Student
Oct 21, 2024
122
Cuando la vida se vuelve insoportable debido a una enfermedad crónica, eso no es vida, y no quieres seguir así, sobre todo cuando no hay cura. Antes, podíamos temer a la muerte, pero en ese punto de dolor y sufrimiento, ya no la tememos; solo queremos dejar de sufrir. Como no hay una cura mágica, es nuestra última opción y nuestro último recurso. Preferimos morir antes que soportar el dolor existente. Así me siento.
Cuando la vida se vuelve insoportable debido a una enfermedad crónica, eso no es vida, y no quieres seguir así, sobre todo cuando no hay cura. Antes, podíamos temer a la muerte, pero en ese punto de dolor y sufrimiento, ya no la tememos; solo queremos dejar de sufrir. Como no hay una cura mágica, es nuestra última opción y nuestro último recurso. Preferimos morir antes que soportar el dolor existente. Así me siento.
This
 
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RoseGirl

RoseGirl

痛い痛い痛い
May 8, 2025
233
For me it's like... Once I'm ready to die I'll be able to die. So I don't really worry about the choice because, I don't think it's mine to make
 
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Warlord's Pulse

Warlord's Pulse

Time to end this endless war
May 27, 2024
241
"Afraid" is not the right word for my case, I would say "tired"
 
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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Gallow Rose
Jan 5, 2025
1,664
I'm so sorry, honey. I'm always at that point, and I can't stand it anymore. I never get down from there. No matter how much help we get, sometimes there are people who have no solution. Do we want to die? Yes. Do we want to commit suicide? No. I wish there was euthanasia for all of us who suffer
If only the world was better suited to help others instead of just letting them suffer.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Enlightened
May 7, 2025
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I guess I don't "want" to die for dying sake. I'm just tired of the pain of existence and with no end in sight, death seems the best option on the table for me.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,081
i really want to die asap . and i'm afraid to live also.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,926
Afraid is not quite the right word, Depressed and Defeated are better ones
 
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Ijustcantanymore

Ijustcantanymore

Experienced
Nov 22, 2024
237
I want to die. And a lot of that is because I don't want to live here amongst humans anymore. I am afraid of them. And for good reasons *gestures all around us*
 
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kotonearisato

kotonearisato

memento mori
Feb 13, 2024
118
It's both for me. I want everything to be done, I'm so exhausted, and the world around us has become so awful I don't want to be a part of it anymore. But living is hard, and it is scary. I'm not so great at dealing with change, and having to live with things possibly changing for the worse scares me more than I can express.
 
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Fall_Apart

Fall_Apart

Student
May 22, 2023
159
That's a good question. I actually wanna die because I've simply realized that more negative things await me than positive things. Then secondarily, I'm afraid of living because I've realized that existence is based on an evil plan that I don't belong to. At this point, postponing an inevitable problem is no longer worth it. My life has sucked and I can't go back for another chance, which means that the most logical thing left for me is to die as soon as possible, avoiding unnecessary suffering.
 
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raindrops

raindrops

Someday, eventually
Mar 29, 2020
484
The question goings through my mind every few days , and I honestly don't know how to answer it. Life is difficult and death is enviable .... it's also unknown so do we give up all that we know for a chance at something new or do we keep going on suffering until the day comes that we die ?

Is waiting worth it or is all of this for nothing?
I might stick around unless he does it with his bare hands.
 
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Anne Alias

Anne Alias

tired.
Feb 11, 2025
39
More than anything else, I'm just tired. Living is exhausting
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
889
I'm not afraid to live, I already have as I am 55 years old. I'm afraid to die even though I'm ready.
 
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rembleeds

Member
Feb 12, 2024
18
I wouldn't say I'm afraid to live, but rather I'm tired of it. I have a running joke of sorts with my therapist that something bad happens every week, so consistently that I haven't been able to get through my childhood trauma. I am so exhausted from going through this garbage life that I seek an end.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
756
Ï'm afraid to live because I'm afraid of the future. I just want to go back to the time as a kid when I didn't have to worry about all the responsibilities.
 
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Freedombus'25

Freedombus'25

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
1,799
When life becomes unbearable due to a chronic illness, that's not life, and you don't want to continue like that, especially when there's no cure. Before, we might fear death, but at that point of pain and suffering, we don't fear it; we just want to stop suffering. Since there's no magic cure, it's our last option and our last resort. We prefer to die rather than endure the existing pain. That's how I feel
This. For me it just got to a point with all the chronic health issues. Im not living. Im barly managing. This isn't a life.

Im afraid of messing up an attempt to ctb more than anything & that's what keeps me here. Hopefully not for too much longer though.
 
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

fading away 消失
Mar 28, 2025
710
This. For me it just got to a point with all the chronic health issues. Im not living. Im barly managing. This isn't a life.

Im afraid of messing up an attempt to ctb more than anything & that's what keeps me here. Hopefully not for too much longer though.
Yeah, with all the health stuff I have, I don't see where the point of continuing to suffer and be in pain :(
When life becomes unbearable due to a chronic illness, that's not life, and you don't want to continue like that, especially when there's no cure. Before, we might fear death, but at that point of pain and suffering, we don't fear it; we just want to stop suffering. Since there's no magic cure, it's our last option and our last resort. We prefer to die rather than endure the existing pain. That's how I feel
this comment made me cry because that is how I feel. Either chronic pain 24/7 and chronic illnesses with no cures that are progressive. I don't really see the point of being alive.

I still take it day-by-day and I'm trying to stay but CTB is always there because it's the only escape from the pain and suffering
 
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cme-dme

cme-dme

wants to sleep forever
Feb 1, 2025
512
Both but yes, I see no hope in my future and I am very scared of it :( I don't think I can ever work 40-50 hours a week I just do not have the mental fortitude for it with my autism and isolation. With the housing crisis this means I either work a lot and make my life absolutely miserable or rely on my parents which obviously cannot last forever >.< It seems like it is in the best interest of both me and my family for me to die...
 
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