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Açucarzinho583

Açucarzinho583

com café!
Sep 14, 2023
86
Dear Emptiness,

I wake up every day, but it's not a choice; it's a routine, an automatic repetition. The days pass by so quickly. There are no plans, no goals, just the void of an existence that follows the path others have set.

My life is like a river, without a current, flowing towards the sea. I don't swim against the tide; I just wait to reach the end. The choices I make—if I can even call them choices—are dictated by circumstances, by external pressures.

I am merely a passive observer, a spectator of this empty existence. I work because I have to work, and I sleep because that's what one does at the end of the day. The emotions I feel are vague, as if I can't express them properly. I can't remember the last time something made me truly happy or deeply sad.

I have no expectations for the future. Death doesn't scare me; it's just the final destination, the inevitable endpoint. I don't long for it, but I don't fear it either.
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
1,918
Dear Emptiness,

I wake up every day, but it's not a choice; it's a routine, an automatic repetition. The days pass by so quickly. There are no plans, no goals, just the void of an existence that follows the path others have set.

My life is like a river, without a current, flowing towards the sea. I don't swim against the tide; I just wait to reach the end. The choices I make—if I can even call them choices—are dictated by circumstances, by external pressures.

I am merely a passive observer, a spectator of this empty existence. I work because I have to work, and I sleep because that's what one does at the end of the day. The emotions I feel are vague, as if I can't express them properly. I can't remember the last time something made me truly happy or deeply sad.

I have no expectations for the future. Death doesn't scare me; it's just the final destination, the inevitable endpoint. I don't long for it, but I don't fear it either.
I think you did a great job of expressing your emotions.
I sincerely hope you feel better.
I hope you are able to find some measure of peace🌹💔
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,409
I Live, but I never Learn.
 
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Themogger

Themogger

Why so serious?
Jul 23, 2024
241
Dear Emptiness,

I wake up every day, but it's not a choice; it's a routine, an automatic repetition. The days pass by so quickly. There are no plans, no goals, just the void of an existence that follows the path others have set.

My life is like a river, without a current, flowing towards the sea. I don't swim against the tide; I just wait to reach the end. The choices I make—if I can even call them choices—are dictated by circumstances, by external pressures.

I am merely a passive observer, a spectator of this empty existence. I work because I have to work, and I sleep because that's what one does at the end of the day. The emotions I feel are vague, as if I can't express them properly. I can't remember the last time something made me truly happy or deeply sad.

I have no expectations for the future. Death doesn't scare me; it's just the final destination, the inevitable endpoint. I don't long for it, but I don't fear it either.
This is really beautiful and poetic
 
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emptyenvelopes

emptyenvelopes

Student
Jun 15, 2024
103
Thank you for sharing, this is a beautiful way to express yourself
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,218
Mostly living, some existing. Depends on the day and what it brings.
 
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hereornot

hereornot

Freedom
May 16, 2024
274
I stopped living 11 years ago. In that gap there is just a big void.
 
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Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
633
Maybe I did live until I was 16, but from then on, I only exist.
 
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ham and potatoes

ham and potatoes

Just some hillbilly
Mar 27, 2024
470
I used to live.
Anymore i just exist on autopilot
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,343
Just existing
 
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davidtorez

davidtorez

Warlock
Mar 8, 2024
772
Existing. Hamster on a hamster wheel until I drop dead (sooner than later hopefully)
 
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Kurai

Kurai

Suffering
Jul 23, 2023
241
Existing in this torment
 
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Whydaddy

Whydaddy

You can ask what you want to the satellite
May 6, 2024
78
Way too apathetic. But I get it
 
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kyhoti

kyhoti

Looking for fair winds and following seas
May 27, 2024
294
Just sucking air. I have a date planned, but lately my brain keeps asking me why I'm bothering to wait.
 
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BasilThePlant

BasilThePlant

Member
Aug 13, 2024
41
For me, I simply exist. To others, I live more than most. Like many people, I am a perfectionist, and want others to love me. So I try to excel in everything I do, and I have many friends. It may look like I am living my best life, that I am going out with my friends and having fun, but this has become such a part of my day-to-day life, that it's just me existing. I am able to exist with a permanent smile on my face, even though I feel sad. I am able to keep friends, even though I know I will someday leave them, and that I constantly feel guilty hanging around such great and perfect people. I am able to stay on top of everything I do, even though I know that it comes naturally to me, and that I don't deserve it, and that others should be where I am. This may seem emo, but I am being truthful. Sending love <3
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,978
Just barely exist, for 2.5 years now
 
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Marishku

Marishku

life is pain
Oct 8, 2023
79
only exist
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I merely survive. I believe that 99% of humans are merely surviving just like how I'm merely surviving too. The only people who I see are truly living life are the billionaires and the neets
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,361
I'm alive but my life is living without me. Yet my life isn't that bad that I would say I'm only existing anymore.
 
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strngpass

Member
Aug 10, 2024
22
Once you have constant ideation life becomes a dread for sure
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,344
I only exist to suffer get old and risk even more unbearable pain for no reason
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,164
Certainly just existing and I'm so tired of suffering in this terrible, torturous existence that only ever caused me pain, I'd never wish to exist no matter what and the fact that I cannot just have a death like never waking again causes me to suffer so much. It terrifies me how this existence could continue for so long just for one to die in agony from old age in this reality where there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented, I'll always be so tired of existing.
 
SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Nothing Like The Looks « ❤️‍🩹 »
Nov 13, 2023
583
My existence can be easily described as surviving rather than living.
 

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