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Nitlott

Nitlott

Father's gun, it's a real one
Feb 17, 2026
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I'm genuinely interested! Hope I worded it right. It can be both from real life or internet.

If I were to recall a little thing: I was watching one video (little essay/analysis of the Heathers film) and it was cool, there were various tracks for background which were really fun to recognise too. And at some point they used a Yakui The Maid track, In Affliction, and it made me really happy for the rest of the day. Yakui's music has a special place in my heart and it's really wholesome for me to hear his music, just like recognising sounds from LISA and Postal series (also media that I have a special...connection? with)

And about stuff I do, I hope I'm wording this right, but I love seeing humans being humans. You know, seeing a group of friends climbing a little hill to the sidewalk and helping eachother while doing so. Or seeing through the school's window how the younger kids are sliding down the snow slide after school we have in our... backyard? Don't know how to call it.

What I also do is snap a picture of every little text, note or a drawing I see on the street or anywhere else, even in the bathroom or on an old desk. I really like it, when you're looking at it it's like you're peeking into some form of life you never had an idea of, you know? Like, I always think to myself where's the person who wrote it now and how are they. I also just snap pictures of stuff happening. From recent, I have a picture of a little snowman the kids built at my old daycare I pass by on my way home everyday. Unfortunately it's melted already, but it was really cute. It was really small, just the height of a 5-6 y.o. kid, with eyes and a smile.
Not always they're a happy thing, too. I also have a pic from the same day of a kid's shovel in a trash bin near a bus station. I don't know why I did, hope it just broke or something.
Sometimes they're completely random. One day in summer I was walking to a supermarket and on the way there, for some reason someone placed or forgot a book about psychology (or something on the topic, didn't read the small text there) in ukrainian, it was a A6 format too. And it just read "PSYCHOLOGY" on the cover in big yellow letters on the blue background. It was right next to a door for the employees where they have their trucks unload with products. It's been my wallpaper on the phone for 1,5 years if not more, I like it.
I also snap the regular kind of pictures. You know, the sky, the scenery... Usually with my phone, but if lucky I bring my camera with me

Sorry if it got too long, I'm kinda a yapper on this topic...Oh and one last thing:
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Cool, right?
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,343
No, I don't believe in such a thing as happiness, existing is torture and I'll always see it as a mistake to exist, I'll only be glad to never suffer again, to me being burdened with this existence is the most terrible, undeserved punishment especially as there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture can get, this existence should never had been imposed.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I love the smell in the air after it rains. I love rainbows. I love all things watery- the sea, waterfalls, rivers, lakes. Seeing wild animals makes me happy.

There are still lots of experiences in life I appreciate. Games, music, films, TV, comedy. I appreciate most art forms. I love food too.

I also appreciate free art- the same as you OP. Anything quirky. There was a cement sand castle on the top of one of the buildings where I used to live. Obviously, the builders having a laugh.

There are definitely still moments that lift my spirits. Just not really enough to compensate though- if I'm honest.
 
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dreaming

sleepy
Feb 11, 2026
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For me, drawing mainly.
Its one of the main few things I think I truly still enjoy as of right now.
Its just difficult to bring myself to actually do it most days.
Also brushing my hair is a wonderful sensation, I love how that feels.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
186
theatre!!!!!
trains
godzilla and king kong of course
noah kahan music
my house mate's cat
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,249
I need to kill myself. but I haven't because pleasure addictions stole all my time

the meaningless fleeting pleasurable addictions are what stole all my time which I could have used to decide and determine the best method to kill myself. and then kill myself. then I wouldn't be in this hell now

so I hate any pleasurable or enjoyable thought or act the most. these are just meaningless fleeting addictions implanted by evolution ( like eating food) and others by society culture other people
 
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interna

Gone Tomorrow, Here Today
Dec 1, 2025
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music and creating, although i simultaneously resent those things.
 
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gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
373
Drawing, writing, petting my cat and watching birds keeps me distracted from my thoughts at times.
 
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YourLocalSadGirly

God’s least favorite
May 6, 2024
131
A good hot latte or mocha always makes me happy.
 
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ctwc

Chasing a certain happiness that can never be
Jun 17, 2022
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I can never feel happy, but there are certainly little packets of joy every now and then that I appreciate. Not enough to make me actively want to go on, but hey better enjoy our time while we still can.

What's the difference between "happy" and "joy"?
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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There is a house with beautiful rose bushes out front and each spring I go by and look at them. Each year they are there and make me smile.
 
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Nitlott

Father's gun, it's a real one
Feb 17, 2026
6
There is a house with beautiful rose bushes out front and each spring I go by and look at them. Each year they are there and make me smile.
That sounds really nice. I even envy you a little, in a good way of course
 
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