FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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I really do. I feel like I've been in this world for far too long and I'm so incredibly tired of it all. I should have left a long time ago but in reality I should had never existed at all. To me it's such a tragic thing how life even has the ability to exist in the first place as I do view non existence to be the most ideal option and always have done.
I so envy those who have their suicide planned out with a reliable method, they are the lucky ones, but sadly suicide involves risks and complications for me personally and it's beyond horrible how the world that we exist in denies us access to peaceful and reliable suicide methods.
I especially think that those who left this world at a very young age were the most lucky ones as I do believe that the more years prevented in this horrific world the better. It's such an awful thing to actually manage to reach 22 years here and I will always hate the fact that I didn't die at a much younger age. Continuing to delay our inevitable fate could never be beneficial and such a thing just leads to unnecessary problems and torment and then we will just inevitably deteriorate.
It's all so tedious as well, and from this point the amount of suffering experienced will only increase and this existence will just torture us more, so of course it fills me with dread the thought of being here for another year. It really is such an incredibly cruel thing to bring life into this world as life itself will always be the true problem no matter what people say. The existence of life is such an incredibly disturbing thing that should had never existed in the first place and I've never wanted anything to do with existing. Even one second in this world is more than enough so of course I will always hate the fact that I still exist. Pretty much every waking moment of mine is spent wishing to die.
I so envy those who have their suicide planned out with a reliable method, they are the lucky ones, but sadly suicide involves risks and complications for me personally and it's beyond horrible how the world that we exist in denies us access to peaceful and reliable suicide methods.
I especially think that those who left this world at a very young age were the most lucky ones as I do believe that the more years prevented in this horrific world the better. It's such an awful thing to actually manage to reach 22 years here and I will always hate the fact that I didn't die at a much younger age. Continuing to delay our inevitable fate could never be beneficial and such a thing just leads to unnecessary problems and torment and then we will just inevitably deteriorate.
It's all so tedious as well, and from this point the amount of suffering experienced will only increase and this existence will just torture us more, so of course it fills me with dread the thought of being here for another year. It really is such an incredibly cruel thing to bring life into this world as life itself will always be the true problem no matter what people say. The existence of life is such an incredibly disturbing thing that should had never existed in the first place and I've never wanted anything to do with existing. Even one second in this world is more than enough so of course I will always hate the fact that I still exist. Pretty much every waking moment of mine is spent wishing to die.