Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
I often fall passionately in love, and I really mean passionately, but now I feel dead inside. I hope I will fall in love with someone again. It's more important to me than being loved.
 
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UninformedLover

UninformedLover

If you see me active on here...its gotten worse...
Nov 12, 2019
265
Yes, I'm still inlove - with my ex-friend from highschool. She was everything I could ever want in a woman. I don't think I will ever get over her and what could of been. She was the only girl I ever felt so strongly about and made me realize I was really a lesbian.

Besides that I do love my grandma (on my mother's side). Unfortunately she passed away when I was 10. The way I've been acting and what I've become.. I'm sure she doesn't love me anymore anyway.
 
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Vanity

Vanity

complete Imbecile
Dec 2, 2019
27
I love no one but my dad and myself.
 
MelancholyPie

MelancholyPie

Member
Nov 29, 2019
28
Oh, do I? Love and lust have always been my downfall.

I don't have any pet to love — I've always wanted to have a kitten but with my mental state I never felt I could handle the responsibilities of owning a pet (also, I'm broke, and would never want my pet to suffer because I can't take them to a vet)

Now, humans are a complicated matter. I think I do love my granny, my mother and my sisters, but I always longed for romantic love — to be in a relationship with someone else.

There are many candidates — I find myself attracted to many folks. I *like* some of them, because they are nice. Love, well, currently there's this guy who's my friend and I like him very much. He's very nice to me, and I try to do the same. He doesn't know I like him, because I was always afraid to tell him and risk ruining our friendship. The main reason I never told him I like him is because as far as everyone's concerned he's straight, and probably sees me as a boy (I'm trans). So he probably would say something like "You're my pal, it's a shame I'm not gay"

I think he is the one person I'd perhaps be able to say I love.
 
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MelancholyPie

MelancholyPie

Member
Nov 29, 2019
28
As pathetic as it is, I was rewatching one of my favorite animes, and the quote was: "You have no choice...If you have love in your life then you have to keep on living."

It is not pathetic to feel moved by anime, it is very common to relate to this kind of things. I was quoting anime too in my emo posts during my teenhood. Besides, from everything I've seen of you since I joined, you seem to be a very sweet person.


I'm currently in love with someone who doesn't feel the same way. I mean in the beginning he did, then it slowly faded away. It really does suck.

I can relate. Also, it's kinda off-topic but I was wondering because of your username — do you by any chance speak portuguese?
 
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lizinha

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Feb 6, 2019
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It is not pathetic to feel moved by anime, it is very common to relate to this kind of things. I was quoting anime too in my emo posts during my teenhood. Besides, from everything I've seen of you since I joined, you seem to be a very sweet person.




I can relate. Also, it's kinda off-topic but I was wondering because of your username — do you by any chance speak portuguese?
No I do not sorry.
 
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CuriousAboutThis

Uncertainty in life uncertainty for the next life
Dec 30, 2018
533
I often fall passionately in love, and I really mean passionately, but now I feel dead inside. I hope I will fall in love with someone again. It's more important to me than being loved.
Honestly I miss both
 
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Anathema

Member
Dec 2, 2019
62
Romantically, never, which isn't a surprise considering I never talk to anyone. I do love my family though. My mom especially is a saint.
 
melonhead88

melonhead88

Member
Sep 21, 2019
19
i'm in love with a boy who cheated on me. he says he loves me but he's very distant and confusing and it makes me so sad i feel so useless to him
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
I've realized I've been too selfish and self involved to ever really love anyone. Plus if you don't know what love feels like from within then never be able to give without.
Times I thought I loved.. just stemmed from neediness.
 
Conker

Conker

Specialist
Oct 22, 2019
351
My me has amnesia so it's hard to say for certain whether or not any true love was ever felt for anyone. Even then, this world is a vampire so I rather return to formlessness in order to escape out of this hell.
 
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Throwawaysoul

Throwawaysoul

Wizard
May 14, 2018
606
I love my cats that's it.
 
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seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
I'm not in love with anybody but I guess I do love family. Not really sure how to know it's love or I'm just really really used to them lol. I love my online friend though.
 
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MiserableBastard1995

MiserableBastard1995

Experienced
Mar 17, 2018
291
I did. Once.

Six years on, never again. *rocks in foetal position on floor*
C-PTSD's a riot, LMFAO.
 
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justanotherday

Specialist
Jul 22, 2019
397
I love my dogs if they count. :heart:
Yes, they count.
I am in no shape to even entertain the idea of getting involved in a relationship. I want to leave this crazy world and my life that is unbearable.
 
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enjoy

enjoy

Creature
Dec 20, 2019
337
i once loved a human being.

of course i love my friends, but not how i loved my ex. i don't think i will ever find romantic love again. it's fine.
 
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EmptyArms

EmptyArms

Student
Dec 1, 2019
148
I love my dogs if they count. :heart:
Totally count. :heart: :heart: :heart:
I love alot. My husband, my son, my niece, my dogs, my best friend. I dont know ..maybe that give me all the reasons I need.
 
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charlottewilts

charlottewilts

read Dostoyevsky
Jun 15, 2019
494
I've been seeing this thread around but I was reluctant to answer as i thought that, no, i do not love anyone. i've lost the ability to love; i doubted whether i was ever able to in the first place, despite having been in relationships. but i had a very vivid dream last night, and realised that there is someone i love very, very much after all. i nearly cried when i woke up, i just wanted to go back to that person. i wrote it all down so i can hold it close to my heart these few last days.

i dreamt about my dead cat a few days ago, too. i miss him so. i think my dreaming about the dead recently is a sign that i really will be successful this time and that i'll be gone soon.
 
mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,090
I love my dog and my family. It's not making me reconsider ctb though.
 
hershberger

hershberger

Student
Dec 28, 2019
129
I love my wife and my daughter so much, even though my wife and I are currently separated. I'm still here because there's a hope in my heart I can make things right.
 
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TheEndof

TheEndof

It's getting dark and it's getting cold
Dec 31, 2019
146
Yes, for a very long time. I wish he loved me the same, but that's okay.
 
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TheOA

TheOA

Student
Jan 5, 2020
101
I think I love many people in different ways. I am incapable of loving anyone on this planet completely as in mind, body, spirit.
 
lucid

lucid

antinatalist specialist
Jun 29, 2019
177
I still deeply love my ex, but I shouldn't. I had this same thing with my previous ex, except over a year later I eventually managed to come to terms with what had happened between us not being my fault...this time it was, to the point she had just gradually lost romantic feelings for me.
I just want to have not been such a klutz so that I'd still be with her now. Waking up to her messages was the best feeling, and was one of the few reasons I still had to live.
 
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GinaIsReady

GinaIsReady

Exit Strategist
Mar 29, 2019
995
I love my Yorkie and I love my gorgeous friend, D.
 
Broken Chimera

Broken Chimera

The abyss also gazes into you
May 27, 2019
972
Everyone I loved is dead.
 
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SanitySalvage

SanitySalvage

The Ugliest King
Jan 11, 2020
22
About 6 years ago, I ended my on and off again relationship with a girl I met online when I was a teen. She came back a year ago while I was in a relationship with someone and gushed about still being in love with me even though she was in a relationship while she was drunk. This caused her to feel embarrassment and ran away again. When I tried contacting her about a month or so ago, she told me to never contact her again. I told her not to come back in another five years either.

So, do I love anyone right now? No. Nor do I think I ever will again.
 
lotus11

lotus11

Specialist
May 18, 2019
323
I fell madly in love with my ex. we broke up because I was too fucked up. Now honestly I don't think I am capable of love again. I am a monster. like I'm only able to love once....does anyone else feel like this?
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
Yes. He CTB Dec. 8.
 

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