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batmanreal

batmanreal

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Sep 9, 2025
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(specifically thoughts of harming other people, animals, or objects, not just yourself.)

i've always had thoughts of hurting others and committing violent acts, even when i was kid. i'd never follow through with these thoughts, though. they just pop up in my mind, go away, then i feel immense guilt for thinking about those things. i won't go into detail about the specific thoughts. there are too many scenarios that i've thought of, and diving into each gorey detail is just pointless (not to mention, kinda cringe). it's annoying, the thoughts come regardless of how i'm feeling. of course, they're especially intense when i'm really angry; but they still pop up when i'm feeling calm. gruesome, violent fantasies are just passive thoughts.
i used to be scared of myself and the possibility that i would eventually act on my thoughts, but i'm not really scared anymore. i know i won't do anything bad, but i still feel so much guilt.
i'm aware that it's very common for mentally ill people to deal with this, but it's still frustrating.
 
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famouslastwords

famouslastwords

asleep or dead
Sep 15, 2025
15
I do have a lot of those thoughts, they usually appear when i'm sad or angry, or even randomly. I never proceed with them either and feel bad about thinking about it. I dont know why they happen tbh
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

I’ll do it whenever I stop being a coward
Mar 15, 2025
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I used to have a lot and still kind of do just not as much as last year. Especially when I was angry. I'd even write violent stories just for fun. But now they somewhat come and go but I've never felt out of control or that I would actually enact violence.
 
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technicallyAlive

technicallyAlive

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Nov 29, 2023
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I used to deal with violent fantasies a ton when i was kid/teen. I'm pretty sure it was due to the fact that i consumed a lot of gorey content tho. I used to be a really sensitive kid and most people hated me for it since I'd break down over the littlest things, so I thought watching horror movies and graphic yt videos would help (it didn't.) I don't watch that stuff anymore though and the thoughts went away since I stopped. I'm sorry that you have these thoughts regardless of whats going on though, that sounds hard. hope ur doing okay
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
120
I have these thoughts during flashbacks of abuse, and then I think of ways to hurt my abusers back. But I'd never actually do it. It's just a coping mechanism, nothing more.
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The masochist who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
474
I've straight up had thoughts of becoming a serial killer for years now. Like I'll be in the shower and I'll be thinking of what my Netflix documentary name would be.
 
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AuraByte

AuraByte

If I'm lost, please don't find me.
Jun 24, 2025
73
Never animals.

Certain people, yes. But only as I got older, more jaded and lost patience.
 
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