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tired93

tired93

Member
Mar 27, 2026
13
... with all the pain and violence it carries
I feel so. That's one of the reasons because I want to end things
 
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imgonesoondontworry

imgonesoondontworry

Member
Nov 7, 2024
11
definitely. im a pitiful loser. im just lazy and unmotivated. im completely selfish and worthless. im too weak to deal with life or maybe i just dont want to. im a huge loser
 
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catgirlfailure

catgirlfailure

Member
Jun 4, 2026
10
Yes, it's all too much. I'm not cut out for life.
 
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ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

Member
May 5, 2026
96
Yes, and I've tried, really, really hard. I've always wanted to be strong so I could defend myself and no one would dare to mess with me. I started working out but wasn't getting anywhere with it, and I hated being a girl. Finally I got my hands on injectable testosterone eventually, and finally I made steep progress with my workout and I became physically very strong. I was still always alone. Until I met a clan of adorable creatures and they became my family, they were nutrias living at a local park. Happy end? It could have been, all the things that could have been... Then they all got murdered. And I, physically strong and warriorlike as I am, wasn't able to do anything to save them. The criminal city officials, the criminal police thugs, and obviously the criminal hired mass murderers, and the entire injustice system standing against me, and against the most innocent little creatures in this world.
So the only thing left now is some bus for me to catch, to hopefully be with my family again.
 
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cheesedout

cheesedout

Member
Dec 2, 2025
9
Oh, absolutely. I haven't had a bad life or anything, I just can't deal with any amount of hardship without it making me totally miserable. If I could just keep living in, like, stasis, not having to do anything or worry about things getting worse, I probably wouldn't want to CTB so bad. But as it is, with all the responsibilities and decisions and passing of time, I just can't take it. I ain't built for this.
 
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Tautochrome

Tautochrome

Exploder
Nov 22, 2025
117
I wish I could be a detached observer, maybe a guardian a angel. Acting outside the rules, with no ego, no identity to maintain, no bullshit future to care about
 
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iwkmsssb

iwkmsssb

what is it that i am?
Jun 8, 2026
115
i am weak, sure you can say my life is objectively better than others. but i can't take it anymore. it's hurts too much to be alive.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,746
society is a vile abomination,
people have always been too cruel for me
 
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memo

Member
Nov 18, 2025
13
Oh all the time, this shits not for the weak bro and I'm one of the weak
 
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Oiled Sandwich

Oiled Sandwich

Lazy Aspiring Demonolator
Jun 10, 2026
82
I just hate how overly complex everything is. There are multiple layers to everything, and so many hoops to jump through.
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

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Jun 4, 2026
314
... with all the pain and violence it carries
I feel so. That's one of the reasons because I want to end things
I dont feel weak

If i was weak i would already be dead
 
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DeadnDusted

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Jun 17, 2026
14
I feel like I have a lack of some mental filter that would allow me to be positive or see a silver lining in my situation because its been genuinely traumatic for me and I absolutely hate everything about it.

I wouldnt really call it being weak in a traditional derogatory sense, but in the "I dont have the necessary cope armor to deal with my reality in any meaningful way".
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

Member
Jun 4, 2026
314
I feel like I have a lack of some mental filter that would allow me to be positive or see a silver lining in my situation because its been genuinely traumatic for me and I absolutely hate everything about it.

I wouldnt really call it being weak in a traditional derogatory sense, but in the "I dont have the necessary cope armor to deal with my reality in any meaningful way".
Cope armor? No my friend. The right word is delusion, insanity. Trust me i would know
 
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WiltedDreams

WiltedDreams

Until the very last sparks burn away
Feb 2, 2026
15
I feel as if I am not built for the adult life. Time is flying too fast for me to handle and I dissociate all the time whenever I'm not at my job or playing video games. Trying to get into a hobby at my age is giant hill and a half. This world circulates on hate and greed, the empathetic and compassionate get stomped into the dirt and rot all for the sake of making another dollar, euro or whichever currency is used. I'm not strong enough to traverse through it all. They say failure is the greatest teacher, I am the worst student.
 
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ryo the frog

ryo the frog

I'm in your house
Jun 27, 2022
79
definitely. im a pitiful loser. im just lazy and unmotivated. im completely selfish and worthless. im too weak to deal with life or maybe i just dont want to. im a huge loser
I literally wrote this. with the bottom of my heart I wish you the best. đź«‚
I was gonna refer to you by name but it's not really nicknameable.
 
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EndlessRage

EndlessRage

Member
Aug 30, 2025
94
... with all the pain and violence it carries
I feel so. That's one of the reasons because I want to end things
Not weak, I'm tired of fighting everything. That's why I've started avoiding things that bother me and spend my time more comfortably.
 
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dirkw83

Student
Mar 4, 2026
101
Yes, even having to buy a new phone (only coz my previous one stops to be supported) overwhelms me, having to reinstall all the apps and stuff. I struggle with basic every day life pretty much.
 
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bloodmoonhypothesis

Member
Jun 1, 2026
9
I wish I could be a detached observer, maybe a guardian a angel. Acting outside the rules, with no ego, no identity to maintain, no bullshit future to care about
me too, i wish that i just didnt have any desires, just spend my whole life protecting some person who has a much more robust sanity than mine. Maybe without my own ego I would have been better, both for myself and the world. I wish i could just put an off button to any desire i have perhaps just become a robot
 
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ZeroRedz02

ZeroRedz02

Waiting GTA 6 constantly but my choice is to leave
May 21, 2026
146
... with all the pain and violence it carries
I feel so. That's one of the reasons because I want to end things
Never wanted to exist, this life expect to do by myself the impossible.
 
violetforever

violetforever

Enlightened
Dec 24, 2025
1,014
only every second of my existence
 
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charlieee

charlieee

Chronically online
Jun 3, 2026
37
Absolutely.
I remember vividly being as young as 11 and feeling like I needed to rip my skin off because of the feeling of entrapment once I realized that the pain was everywhere and that their wasn't really an end to it.
We, as a species, could have done better than the shithole we've made for ourselves.
I am not gonna live in this because some mf were thirsty for money and power making society a living hell.
But I realized that most people did wrap their heads around it in their teens, and never really felt as strong as me about it.
I simply can't ignore it or bring myself to get over it like others.
definitely. im a pitiful loser. im just lazy and unmotivated. im completely selfish and worthless. im too weak to deal with life or maybe i just dont want to. im a huge loser
Damn I feel you
 
hurts2b

hurts2b

Wasting my time
Jun 11, 2026
73
Yes. I'm unfit to be a living person.
 
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midstarscream

midstarscream

Life is a sexually transmitted terminal disease.
Nov 1, 2024
41
Yes I do… my mom was diagnosed with cancer, and it's really the tipping point, too weak for anything now
 

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