Discussion Do you feel shame when u visit this site

[zadig777]

every time i visit this site i feel shame and regret reading and thinking about this
but i also feel the same shame and regret-even more when i go in the world outside knowing that the way i see it now-my reality is just a fragment of what i was just a few months ago
both ways i feel stupid and fooled and fucked up by myself every day and feel quilt,shame and regret about it
even friends when we are outside are asking me whats wrong with u,i guess i just have that hopeless look in me which i never had :/

 

[weedoge]

Mildly yes I think so. But I don't feel a lot in general so not really, I continue forward with this odd emptiness.

Sorry that even your friends are picking up on it. Tbh I discuss feelings here to come to terms with then and relate with other people, it helps with the shame if anything.

 

[wagram]

No.
I found some good advice here.
Just make sure my family or friends dont find out.

 

[QueenEtna]

Nope, it's a social platform for me. And whenever I'm crying and depressed looking up methods makes me feel so much better.. Now where did I place my necktie..

 

[blueming]

No, this site actually calms me when I'm upset and feeling down because there are so many like-minded people here and in a way it makes me feel less alone. I do understand what you mean, but I hope you know that you have nothing to be ashamed of :)

 

[Susannah]

No shame at all. On the contrary, I feel less alone when visiting this forum. Nobody knows me here. Makes me feel safe. When being really down, a visit here, reading and commenting thoughts you guys writes, calms me down.

 

[Kim]

No. It helps me a lot to talk to other people with the same thoughts. I can talk here about everything... that's a big different to the real world outside.... O_o

 

[MEoDP]

No,people have the right to discuss this and by extension,the right to die. Something that simply isn't respect by the prison we live in called "society"

 

[RacilyDank]

Yes and no. I don't feel any personal shame for having these thoughts and sharing them with other people. When I get my phone out in public though I grimace at the thought of anyone seeing this on my browser.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

No, only people who understand me and dont judge

 

[Anubiscan]

Not at all. I know im not alone

 

[Jerryman]

It makes me feel less lonely, it's good being in contact with people who understand. I sometimes find it calming.

 

[Going Home]

No I do not feel shame. This site provides great resources and from reading the posts I know that I'm not alone.

 

[Sun Stealer]

Not at all. If you feel so bad to ctb no one is going to understand that apart from someone else in same position. All I get from doctor now is are you suicidal

 

[Ben]

I don't feel shame. I love this place.

one thing I can feel while I visit this place though, Is uncertainty. Am I spending my last days correctly? Am I helping or hurting people with my words? It's such a sensitive subject...I told myself when I joined, I'm going to be among people who want to die. They have the right to choose death to escape the pain, because I have that right too. When a user successfully KTB, I have to belive that it was a "good" thing. They escaped their pain and they are finally at peace. If I'm to support pro-choice, this is how I have to look at it. Otherwise this site would be a great source for more heartbreak over lost connections for me.

I've made what I consider friends here. It's going to really really suck when and if the day comes I never get to talk to them again, but I will be at peace with their decision...because the joy I got out of their interactions with me, doesn't hold a candle to the pain they interact with their life. It would be selfish to want to them to stay.

I've said it once and I'll say it again, if you don't want to die, say so, and you will be helped!

Otherwise, it's not my place to try and save anyone. It's up to the user to request it. it's not my business, or want, to go around convincing people who want to die that they should live. I'll save that energy for people who want it.

 

[Sun Stealer]

Well said Ben. It's good to be with friends who understand. I don't want anyone to ctb but understand that sometimes people feel it's their only choice and I respect that

 

[Ben]

Well said Ben. It's good to be with friends who understand. I don't want anyone to ctb but understand that sometimes people feel it's their only choice and I respect that

I only want people to KTB who say they need to. If they say they are ready, I won't question them. But If they have questions, so do I hah

 

[Qwsapoik]

Not shame so much.
More a slight feeling of embarrassment? Not quite the right word I'm looking for.
I've read how many of you struggle with mental and physical health problems. I have neither of these yet still find myself resenting the fact I have to wake up and go through the charade of life.

 

[s_girl]

Yes, definitely. I'm just waiting until my time comes... But I'm glad to hear that this site provides so much for those who need it.

 

[Merseymike]

Not at all. Just need some courage....

 

[Lost]

Not at all. It's good to have people to talk about your feelings about ctb without being told that I am selfish and dumb and all will get better. Nowhere else I can talk about how I feel on the inside

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I don't feel shame, but this site has become a guilty pleasure for me to keep coming back to 'in secret'

 

[Ccre]

Nope, no shame no guilt, tired is the only thing I feel without fail.

 

[Fucking loving it]

Nope. I'm so happy I found this site. I can finally be myself.

 

[Trashcan]

No. I couldn't be more grateful for my site and the mods are amazing.

 

[Maravillosa]

I don't feel shame, but this site has become a guilty pleasure for me to keep coming back to 'in secret'

This. Also, my laptop is in the bedroom that my mother and I share. I don't want her to look just past the TV and see the "Sanctioned Suicide" logo. She would get on my case and tell me not to come to SS again. Eh bien!

 

[Ccre]

No. I couldn't be more grateful for my site and the mods are amazing.

This site helps me feel a bit less of an abomination

 

[CentreMid]

Not at all. I feel welcomed and accepted here. I don't really mind if someone from the outside sees me here, they won't care about me anyways.

 

[wanttodie]

Not at all

 

[Ryukil93]

No, why should I?