Do you feel like you want to get killed?

[darkest]

For me, yes. I always hope I die in my sleep; I even die a lot in my dreams, but sadly I think it's rare to die in your sleep unless you have some sort of condition (like a heart condition or something I don't know) so that it would be more possible that you die in your sleep, maybe.

The closest thing to that would be hoping some accident happens or that I get killed. it's funny that I used to fear these things a lot when I was a kid and now, I truly hope for it more than anything.

does anyone hope the same things? even better, do you think you'd prefer to get killed over CTB?

I would, not that I don't want to cause damage if I CTB or whatever, it's that I truly think I deserve it.

 

[death_bed221]

Yea someone killing would be awesome. My mom wouldn't blame herself and I die. Win/win situation

 

[dontwakemeup]

At this point, I'd gladly accept murder! Maybe I'll get out of this life faster that way!

 

[SadRatQueen]

For the most part I'm passively suicidal. What does that mean? It means that I don't take extra precautions when trying to protect myself from harm, such as not looking when crossing the street or ignoring an oncoming train and crossing the tracks. Being murdered is also appealing to me, but I wouldn't feel pleased if my supposed hero got in trouble just because their victim just so happened to also want to die.

When things get really bad though, I find myself looking up suicide success rate statistics, trying to determine the best method for when I truly become numb.

 

[nuclearnebula]

For me, yes. I always hope I die in my sleep; I even die a lot in my dreams, but sadly I think it's rare to die in your sleep unless you have some sort of condition (like a heart condition or something I don't know) so that it would be more possible that you die in your sleep, maybe.

The closest thing to that would be hoping some accident happens or that I get killed. it's funny that I used to fear these things a lot when I was a kid and now, I truly hope for it more than anything.

does anyone hope the same things? even better, do you think you'd prefer to get killed over CTB?

I would, not that I don't want to cause damage if I CTB or whatever, it's that I truly think I deserve it.

Perfect death, albeit rare, would be me pushing someone out of the way of a car or truck and me being hit. I save someone, I die a hero, I go to heaven, It would be wonderful

 

[Namelesa]

I do sometimes hope to be murdered or accidentally killed as that would make dying a lot easier. Suicide is so difficult with lack of effective methods and SI. SI can't stop me if someone is doing it for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, in an existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering where I'm just waiting to die anyway, ceasing to exist truly would be the only relief for me, it's all that could bring me peace, I'd certainly be relieved to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering of existing continues with me just hoping and wishing to be gone. To me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering and as long as I exist I'll only be hoping to never suffer ever again, the peace of non-existence truly is all I've ever hoped for but of course more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yeah, it'd be better if I was murdered quickly so that I no longer have to suffer. I wouldn't want to get killed horrifically though

 

[divinemistress36]

Someone shooting me in the head is my dream!

 

[Daxter777]

No, i would fear the pain. I would personally just drink n and sleep. Unfortunately that isn't an option.

 

[HereWeGo!]

Yeah! Either murder, die in sleep or to die in some kind of accident. There are full of deadly accidents everyday. Why can't it be me?

 

[SA1994EC]

Assuming it guarantees an instant death without pain or agony, I will certainly sign up for it. Also, I do not want to know when it happens.

 

[lonergirl_26]

I do! It's so messed up but i would love to be killed by a partner. Only if they say the love word plus if they do it to me they won't be able to do it to someone else.

 

[TinyGuy]

Yes I do want to get killed. I hope someone comes to rob me and shoot me in my head that way they go to prison and I die its a win win as long as they dont decide to make it painful before they shoot me.

 

[Santana Idaho]

Dying for me is more about having one method of control over my own life. I've always been controlled by others, and I struggled with have NO power in my childhood. The only thing that would save me was CTB. In adulthood, this is still my instant reaction to emotional pain. But I have a lot of anxiety about being attacked. Part of being socialphobic/agoraphobic in the past was the fear of being vulnerable outside of the house. I have a huge fear of home invasion. Not having control over my death is frightening.

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

It would be a fuckin' miracle!

Shoot me in the head 16x!
Smother me with a pillow!
Drug me unconscious and throw me from a great height!

 

[nomoredolor]

does anyone hope the same things? even better, do you think you'd prefer to get killed over CTB?

I would be so grateful to anyone who murdered me. I would try to thank them before my survival instinct kicked in and I struggled.

I need to die. But I want the decision taken out of my hands so I don't have feel the enormous weight of guilt of doing this to my loved ones who have literally begged me to stay alive since my last attempt.

And maybe if someone murdered me my death would have more meaning. Ideally I would die saving another's life. But since that is highly unlikely I will settle for my death giving someone else pleasure. That is why autassassinophilia is so attractive to me. Imagining someone taking away my pain AND they get pleasure from taking my life?

I would, not that I don't want to cause damage if I CTB or whatever, it's that I truly think I deserve it.

I think I deserve it too. Even if it included light torture.

I wish someone would hold my hand in the end, murdered or no. I had someone agree to die with me and they said they would hold me in the end. But they backed out and ctb alone.

I am trying to resign myself to the fact that I will die alone and that I am the only one who is going to end my suffering. I just have to suck it up and do it.

Love to you,

Anna

 

[LukaParrot]

When we reach the limit that a person can stand, sure. Suicide is a pain process, research for your own death, buy stuff to kill yourself, that sucks... a lot! Even if you a deep depressed.

I used to want be robbed and be cold shot. Just was going to be in the statistics but like the risks of suicide, even that can lead you to worst.

In my teenage, I used to like to see tv novels, internet and computers was not available as today, an male actor very famous was robbed and he react, took a shot in the head but didnt die, he end up in a almost vegetative way.

Well..... i stopped wishing this.... wearing dippers in a chair, it's a rough life.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I want to die, but I'm a wimp so only if it's painless. Maybe a meteorite could hit me in the head. Or I could die in a plane crash. I'd be open to gunshot to the head as long as the shooter knew exactly where to aim.

 

[bleeding_heart_show]

Only if my murder is too mundane for youtube users to use for content, haha.

 

[sickgirlzis]

maybe. id probably be scared and pissed off in my last moments that I couldn't defend myself. however, i wouldn't have to pay any hospital bills after being injured. and, id be dead!
my anxiety makes it so im scared everyone is gonna kill me or leave me with some long lasting trauma though, so honestly I'd rather just die in my sleep.

 

[princexhhn]

As long as they kill me in one go.

 

[Nexvyr]

I would gladly be murdered or even tortured to death by someone. Yet I don't know who would even want to kill me. I kinda would just like someone to acknowledge my existence and have feelings for me, regardless if those feelings are good or bad.

 

[foreverlanguish]

I've tried it before, tried to offer myself as bait so someone can kill me. As sick as I am for saying this, I resent murdered people sometimes. I just really wish it were easier to CTB.

 

[wanttodie]

I do sometimes hope to be murdered by being shoot

 

[chasingfireflies]

Yes I often wish I could die without having to ctb. I worry about the damage I'd do to the people that love me. If I got killed by someone or got into a fatal road accident I wouldn't feel any guilt in my last moments. I just hope my survival instincts won't kick in and try to save myself