Discussion Do you feel like you have a perfectly good body going to waste? That you're destined for more, but don't want to see it through?

[Chantal]

I have a pretty body and face. Plus, I'm very healthy (except for my mind). I survived an overdose of 6g of propranolol, plus 120mg of clonazepam and 3g of dimenhydrinate. What happened? I woke up 17 hours later unable to move my legs. I did not have activated charcoal gastric lavage and was only hospitalized 3 days after the event. I was then hospitalized for 2 weeks, very swollen and with pain in my left leg, but soon I detached and returned to normal in less than 2 months. My liver goes well, just like the kidneys. The only notable sequel was a circulation problem. This overdose happened in January this year and I'm perfect now, just using the medicine for circulation. Faced with the resilience of my body, I am very afraid of taking SN or N and still surviving, but with more severe sequelae. I wish someone sick but in good mental condition could have my body and my physical health.

 

[Dreamwithinadream]

My body is a defective piece of shit. No great loss.

 

[dandan]

Actually im handsome
Twenty years of depression ended with steroids, dianabol and testosterone, they say there's a relapse after the cycle, my doctor, an hormone specialist says he will manage my condition and level me with different hormones , not all hormones are the same, he knows he's stuff

Therefore, now I'm also building up and hitting the gym
Looking good
Met a girl, but what the fuck?
Should I tell her about my overdoses, my suicide attempts, why I havent grow in my job, why I'm not married, ... ain't easy but hey I feel good and I'm not thinking in killing myself like I used to did

I might buy myself a pennis pump and grow my cock by an inch, or more , why not? It promises stronger eyaculations hahahaha

Feeling good might not last forever
N in the fridge says it will expire on March 2020
Probably it's good till December 2020 or more , who knows?

I'll make the most out of what I got at the moment

Might start an online business soon, I'm programming it, my own sick shit hahaha

 

[Lethe]

I get called handsome all the time, but the great irony is that I want to be a girl.

 

[dandan]

I get called handsome all the time, but the great irony is that I want to be a girl.

I go with a doctor here in Mexico who most of his patients are sex changed persons , perhaps you can fulfill your dream one day... like the beautiful miss Spain, from the beauty contest, that she's a transgender, wow...

 

[Rachel74]

I'm told I'm very pretty (I don't think) and that i have curves in the right place (I'm fat) I know I have the most amazing piercing green eyes and red hair. I have long legs which I hide and a recent breast reduction as given me amazing boobs but I feel far from beautiful. I have an amazing mind and have done amazing in my career and have a masters in Modern world history but it's all been made bad by bipolar. I think my organs apart from my heart are viable to be donated and I'm looking into it as I'm an organ donor but I've i die on N they won't be viable.

Actually im handsome
Twenty years of depression ended with steroids, dianabol and testosterone, they say there's a relapse after the cycle, my doctor, an hormone specialist says he will manage my condition and level me with different hormones , not all hormones are the same, he knows he's stuff

Therefore, now I'm also building up and hitting the gym
Looking good
Met a girl, but what the fuck?
Should I tell her about my overdoses, my suicide attempts, why I havent grow in my job, why I'm not married, ... ain't easy but hey I feel good and I'm not thinking in killing myself like I used to did

I might buy myself a pennis pump and grow my cock by an inch, or more , why not? It promises stronger eyaculations hahahaha

Feeling good might not last forever
N in the fridge says it will expire on March 2020
Probably it's good till December 2020 or more , who knows?

I'll make the most out of what I got at the moment

Might start an online business soon, I'm programming it, my own sick shit hahaha

Not all girls like big dicks lol

 

[color_me_gone]

Met a girl, but what the fuck?
Should I tell her about my overdoses, my suicide attempts, why I havent grow in my job, why I'm not married, ... ain't easy but hey I feel good and I'm not thinking in killing myself like I used to did

I would tell her everything. If she really likes you, those things will not matter. It will also help her understand you better, and understand your certain actions at times. Could make your relationship stronger. It never pays to hide anything.

If what you tell her affects her in a negative way, then she is not for you anyway. Good luck!

Not all girls like big dicks lol ❤

Yeah, more important is how you use it.

 

[Rachel74]

I told my partner straight away how fucked up I was and he still here after 3 years. As long as they can have a true understanding of your illness then it will work.

 

[dandan]

Some of us , in this forum are due in fact willing to discontinue living , I just listened (read) , that if I havent tried Dianabol and steroids , then I havent tried everything. That fucked up my logic and had to get them, I am only "temporarily" cured. ♡ and yes, not feeling like shit, rocks!

From where I stand, I'm in a very unstable situation, even though I've felt the most stable in the last 12 weeks, I dont know what will happen when my doctor ask to reduce the dosis, or avoid it completely.

From killing myself, to wanting to create a true confident relationship with a fine healthy young successful pretty female, it's a long shot.

I cant lie, that's not in me, but going straight up, opening fully on my 4th or fifth date ain't looking like theres going to be comprehension. Me, personally, I could've fall for a girl in my situation, but I can't see it happening the other way.

And if my depression comes back harder and the doctor cant help me , I'm still not willing to live like I did, however the doctor knows it and he's confident that won't happen.

Thanks for sharing

 

[I screwed up]

Yeah. I was a serious athlete not long ago, tall-ish and handsome too. Also: high IQ, good test scores, supportive parents.

I think the problem is that I developed a sense of superiority when I was very young. This led to stupid and shameful decisions in adolescence because I thought I was "above it all" and would cruise to success without effort and without respecting other people.

I have a spare tire now and haven't really lifted in a year. I'm 30. Still, yes, my death would be a waste of a good body. Wish I could give it to some disabled person.

Thought u were talking abt me there for a moment.. Only diff being I am 42 not 30