Do you feel guilty over leaving someone behind when you ctb?

[rozeske]

I don't really feel guilty over those I'll be leaving behind. I mean I'm not completely indifferent and I'm not in a vengeance, let them feel the pain, mind set either. It is what it is, things have played out the way they were meant to be (hopefully) and i don't wish them to suffer over it though i know it sure would suck to be them but guilt? No, i don't feel guilty for deciding to catch that bus. Except this one person, God! So much guilt that I haven't had the courage to look them in the eye lately....anyways do you feel guilt over leaving anyone behind? Or are you in a f*ck 'em kinda state?

 

[Dark Window]

Nah. Im just concentrating on blissful non-existence. They'll inherit a good deal of cash to set them up.

 

[Ash]

My dog. It's not that I don't care, it's just that I don't have any space left. Everything else is too overwhelming.

 

[LowLevelChimp]

I would feel guilty about my wife and dog, though they will be so much better off when the time comes, I have a problem that could affect my mobility in the long term so I have limited time to make a decision on a time. I stopped all my medication so I'm clear in my mind and can put measures in place.

 

[devils~advocate]

No and Yes
No..... there are some that I want my actions to cause chaos, grief, despair.... current/past work colleagues, former spouse, current spouse, some relatives, etc
Yes......then there are others that I feel immense guilt about how this would make them feel.....my parents and a few friends

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

Yes. This is my main thing holding me back. I don't want to hurt my partner like that. I could care less about my family and friends.

 

[random_user]

For me personally the guilt is the main thing holding me back. I know that it will hurt a lot of people and 99% of them don't deserve it.

 

[tankapi]

I feel overwhelmingly guilty.

 

[Com4tablyNumb.]

Very mixed emotions, the adults will understand hopefully, my grandchildren will in time I hope. I have discussed my time to ctb with close family which has helped for me. Our reasons all differ , for me my illness will dictate but I will try to make those I leave behind understand.

 

[lost_ange1]

For me there will always be sone kind of guilt. There are still people out there who helped me or who tried to help, people I consider as friends. But they can't change my life to the better or my mind to the better.

Maybe if they would live your life or live one day out of our miserable view they would understand.

 

[Tony24]

I don't want to hurt the people who care about me after I go, so yeah, I feel a ton of guilt.

 

[wljourney]

My dog and my sister.

However my dog is now 18 and quite sick. He has dementia and today I made the decision to let him go this week.
He has had a long and happy life, but the last 2 years have been rough and he has more bad than good days (like me).

So, once he goes, I'll go.

 

[outrider567]

No, nobody's left but my stepmother

 

[bed]

yes I do. I could never ctb if i was in a relationship or had children. i dont think it's fair to either of them personally.

 

[ItsyBitsyWeetard]

100%

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Not a shred

 

[Anon1337]

Not at all. I really don't care how my relatives or anyone feels.

 

[VoidedExistence]

yes, i will feel guilty for leaving mom to suffer alone

 

[Traveller12724]

I thought I didn't for the most part, but then I see friends and I am like "oh shit this will affect them because it will be out of the blue", but they have families and other friends, they will move on in time.

 

[thinvy]

my cat, mostly. my little sister too. we don't talk anymore, but her life is already so hard. I'm scared to talk to her now, and get close with her again, then scar her when I leave. it's why I'm honestly kind of scared to visit my family when I go home to die.

 

[heavyeyes]

It depends on the day honestly. I know in my heart my death will be especially painful for my father. I'm scared of what will happen to him. I don't want him to suffer. All I can do is hope my brother will step up to be there for him when the time comes

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes. So much so that I want to wait for my Dad to go first. Beyond that though- it's still not a nice feeling but, I feel like I will be able to put my own needs first at that point. Very few people are around in my life now. Hopefully, that separation would make it easier.

 

[madoka]

my cats, it makes me cry so much
theyre like my babies, i love them so much