Discussion Do you ever wish for someone to just do it for you ?

[charlieee]

For so many years i have wished that someone else just decided to end my life, because i never had the information nor the strength to bring myself to do it.
But i have always felt shitty about it.
Killing someone can ruin your life, it can eat your from the inside out and I don't want to be at the source of that kind of pain, but damn if only a psycho would just catch me in a street and end it all, it would all be easier.

 

[marleybarley]

I wish it can be that simple if only...

 

[Tomorrow Is Today]

Yeah. Putting the act in the hands of another person bypasses a lot of the problems I have with doing it myself.

You get to skip over survival instinct if someone just decides to murder you, and having a definite person to blame would be better than loved ones feeling guilty and confused why someone would CTB.

 

[ConstantPain]

Yes, I often have that hope. Even more I wish for a terminal condition or sudden stroke or heart attack. That way, no one would ever suffer any consequences for killing me. But if it's someone's desire to kill, I'd rather they kill me than someone else.

 

[Bishop]

If we want to ctb, that's in our own hands. No one gets to wuss out. It's a disgrace and rather shameful wanting someone else to do your dirty work. By no means am I'm saying that ctb is easy. This place would be empty if it were. I'll be the first to be honest and say that I don't have the constitution to take action.

 

[Echo]

Absolutely not, I'd rather go by my own hands not some psycho.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

Hell no. Death is already terrifying enough. I'd like to be in control of it to at least mitigate those feelings. And I wouldn't want to have to process why they're trying to do it in the first place, in my dying moments, where I probably have no or very little information. Even something like a terminal illness or an accident could just strike at any random time. It'd be a relief but also not because wrong timing.

I'd take the burden of having to initiate on my own and follow through over not having to but having no control over how it happens.

 

[charlieee]

Yes, I often have that hope. Even more I wish for a terminal condition or sudden stroke or heart attack. That way, no one would ever suffer any consequences for killing me. But if it's someone's desire to kill, I'd rather they kill me than someone else.

Exactly, like I don't mind so if you feel like it go ahead.

If we want to ctb, that's in our own hands. No one gets to wuss out. It's a disgrace and rather shameful wanting someone else to do your dirty work. By no means am I'm saying that ctb is easy. This place would be empty if it were. I'll be the first to be honest and say that I don't have the constitution to take action.

I know that's why I am taking the matter into my own hands, there's multiple reasons why I want to ctb, shame from these kind of thoughts being one of them.

Yeah. Putting the act in the hands of another person bypasses a lot of the problems I have with doing it myself.

You get to skip over survival instinct if someone just decides to murder you, and having a definite person to blame would be better than loved ones feeling guilty and confused why someone would CTB.

Yeah, weirdly people react way better when someone else does it. I feel like it's better if you do it yourself.

 

[SASU-KE]

damn if only a psycho would just catch me in a street and end it all

Such a person would be,

Spoiler

 

[Frank Dive]

Yes, every time a large vehicle passes by. Also though, since I was young I was a bit of a hypochondriac, especially with moles or 'lumps' I found on my body and instantly jump to 'ITS CANCER!' and freak out. A tiny mole I've had since then started to hurt a little last year and while I still jumped to conclusions as to the cause, I'm disappointed that it probably isn't. And pre-emptively; I have had many family members who died to cancer and I know full well what it does to a person.

 

[burninghill]

Yes, always. Literally every moment I exist I imagine all the possible unlikely ways that I could die. Ceilings falling, tripping and breaking my neck, being shot.

 

[ConstantPain]

Exactly, like I don't mind so if you feel like it go ahead.

I know that's why I am taking the matter into my own hands, there's multiple reasons why I want to ctb, shame from these kind of thoughts being one of them.

Yeah, weirdly people react way better when someone else does it. I feel like it's better if you do it yourself.

I agree that people take it better if you don't do it yourself. Plus, as long as death was going to be the end result in a reasonable amount of time, I don't care if they hurt and/or torture me first. I feel so numb that I don't think I would care.
It's also true that I struggle with doing it myself or obviously I wouldn't be here.