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Wakawaka

Wakawaka

Student
Dec 10, 2020
154
I've always thought that i was disassociated from my life/emotions but what do i honestly know. i remember crying alot, feeling overwhelmed, my anxiety was so bad, i contemplated suicide several times and even attempted once, then one week i could feel my emotions fading, it was scary, it was like things just stopped bothering me, i had to make myself feel bad about how awful my life was, and now, i cant say im happy but i just dont feel as extreme as i used to do, i still feel empty but i guess i dont cry over it anymore, or maybe i dont care

i started saying this was my new normal, is this normal?
 
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kader

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Jul 13, 2021
7
It sounds better than being in pain. I don't know if it's normal but it's preferable.
 
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Scribble Fan

Scribble Fan

I'm out!
May 30, 2019
815
I feel empty and cold most of the time. I don't know how normal this is but I much prefer this to always being sad or in pain.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,843
For me just being alive is painful. I never stop feeling pain. Life is suffering and I want nothing to do with life. The pain will only end when I die.
 
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HiImPaul

HiImPaul

Student
Nov 5, 2021
125
There are short moments where I feel "normal" again. Like right now I'm kinda feeling that way. But it typically passes quickly and I'm back to dreading even being awake. At first when this would happen I would be hopeful that I could get better, but now I know I always ends. But maybe it'll be different for you. I'm glad the pain is gone for you at least, it could be a good step to recovery!
 
Wakawaka

Wakawaka

Student
Dec 10, 2020
154
It sounds better than being in pain. I don't know if it's normal but it's preferable.
its weird but i miss feeling, it reminds me that im alive
There are short moments where I feel "normal" again. Like right now I'm kinda feeling that way. But it typically passes quickly and I'm back to dreading even being awake. At first when this would happen I would be hopeful that I could get better, but now I know I always ends. But maybe it'll be different for you. I'm glad the pain is gone for you at least, it could be a good step to recovery!
yeah ive been thinking that maybe this is my time to get things right in my life, while im sane
 
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kader

Member
Jul 13, 2021
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its weird but i miss feeling, it reminds me that im alive

yeah ive been thinking that maybe this is my time to get things right in my life, while im sane
I don't know how functional you are, but I think this situation can be a beginning point for healing. I wish you the best.
 
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darkwater

Experienced
Apr 17, 2021
247
All emotional states are just a product of our brain it is possible to shut them down. That is what meditation does.
 
ascetic_

ascetic_

Metaphysically Homeless
Aug 28, 2021
83
Numbness. I've never personally experienced it, but I've heard of others feeling numb.

I wish I could just turn my shit off, honestly.
 
miserableforever

miserableforever

Arcanist
Oct 23, 2020
488
I've always thought that i was disassociated from my life/emotions but what do i honestly know. i remember crying alot, feeling overwhelmed, my anxiety was so bad, i contemplated suicide several times and even attempted once, then one week i could feel my emotions fading, it was scary, it was like things just stopped bothering me, i had to make myself feel bad about how awful my life was, and now, i cant say im happy but i just dont feel as extreme as i used to do, i still feel empty but i guess i dont cry over it anymore, or maybe i dont care

i started saying this was my new normal, is this normal?
No.
I have ok moments but they never last longer than a few hours.
 
Aeathelina

Aeathelina

Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
307
I don't know if I feel pain but there's just a icy yet burning constricting knot in my chest.
 

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