Do you ever feel relieved?

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When you get to the point where your method is all setup and ready to go, do you just feel a huge wave of relief and freedom? I've been building my exit bag now since October and I'm just about finished and I feel freedom and peace. It's exciting knowing there's a way out, you know? It feels like all of life's obligations and burdens have been lifted off of me because I can simply exit out of life. Suicide is not painful for me, I'm not upset. I just don't see life as being livable for me and this is my simple solution. I wish I could wipe your tears away, and say "Hey now! don't be sad, we've got a way out of this mess!"