Help Do you ever feel like you don't have good/enough reasons to commit suicide?

[Reflection]

Not really, while I've lived with this pain enough and know that a lot of people will think it's stupid (heartbreak)...I know for sure that I cannot do this anymore, I'd rather be called dumb than keep living like this with no resolution in sight.

 

[demitriusmigsysvotf]

yeah, ive been told a lot of times that i live "good" comparing to some other people and that i am really weak.

 

[TenThousandTrees]

I have a lot of conflicting feelings around my suicidality. By appearances my life isn't too bad, and I think a lot of people would say that I have a lot to live for. But I think this really just makes my despair feel all the more unfixable. I coped with my depression for years by setting aims for the future, then constantly moved the goal posts further and further out as I satisfied them. Now I have no more milestones to look forward to. I have come to accept that there is just some deep incurable brokenness in my spirit, and I have no choice but to live with it or CTB.

 

[asa]

All the time. I definitely can fix my situation if I want to, but I'm too unmotivated for that. Other people have faced much worse challenges and managed to overcome them, and maybe I should take inspiration from them, but this constant feeling of anxiety just won't go away. My reasons are too superficial and I feel ungrateful for not trying hard enough and valuing my life.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

Same here. I always knew I was on the weak side. And I had no motivation in life. A breakup a million years ago made me start to consider ctb.Then when I read the horror stories here I almost feel guilty. But I have also learned here that your problems are your problems. Some people can handle more than others. I know I can't handle a lot and there is tons in the future. I don't want to handle. But I now have a lot more empathy seeing how so many people here got a raw deal in life. I hate seeing all the people chronically ill. I have a lot of respect for them and others who have been through so so much. You are all very strong in my opinion.