No lmfao why the damn fuck do I fcking have to 'feel' ""bAd""? Its literally what i precisely want/want to want and always will NO 'matter' what. And what's the """pRoBlEm""" with that lmao why tf do i yes or fcking yes have to nOt WaNt tO dIE ""uNlEsS i SaY i WaNt tO bEcAuSe Of ThIs aNd Or ThAt rEaSoN""????!!!! 'who' the fuck INVENTED that fucking garbage shit?


I literally just can't fcking 'understand' why tf cant i simply just want to simply just die and just not exist at all and NOT "be" ANYTHING/ANYONE/ANYWHERE ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL and just NOT 'experience' etc ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF IT IS/CAN BE ETC OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM/KIND ETCETC NOR ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL ETCETC AND A LOOOOONG ETC. BASICALLY ANYTHING AT ALL AND THAT'S IT THATS LITERALLY BASICALLY SIMPLY IT WITHOUT ABSOLUTELY ANY GODDAMN REASON AT ALL OF ANY TYPE ETC IN GENERAL AT DAMN ALL.
To die/just not exist AT ALL is the ONLY "thing" Ive always wanted/wished and wanted to want and what ill LITERALLY always *"'want'/'wish'/'desire'/'crave'/want to 'want'/'wish'/'desire'/'crave' AND THAT'S IT AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY DAMN REASON AT ALL. NEITHER "DEPRESSION" NOR "APATHY" NOR "SUFFERING"/"PAIN" NOR "lOw sElfEsTeEm" NOR "sElF hAtReD" NOR "NIHILISM"/"ANTINATALISM"/"EFILISM" NOR "BAD LIFE" NOR "BAD FAMILY" NOR "hOpEleSsnESs" NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANY. OTHER. REASON/CAUSE ETC. IN. GENERA. AT. ALL. OF. ANY. TYPE. **or whatever tf those 'verbs'/'words' mean lol those 'verbs'/'words' are ONLY 'APPLICABLE' or whatever the fck that means TO DEATH/ABSOLUTE TOTAL PLAIN PURE LITERAL ENDLESS LIMITLESS COMPLETE ABSOLUTE INFINITE NOTHINGNESS/NON-EXISTENCE. I COULDNT GIVE ANY LESS OF A DAMN GODDAMN FUCK SHIT ABOUT LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL no fcking 'matter' what/how tf it is/can be, neither what type/way etcetc nor basically anything else in general at all etcetc and thats fkcing it JESUS FUCKING DAMN CHRIST



IVE NEVER at all "felt" """bAd""" about LITERALLY JUST SIMPLY WANT TO DIE/JUST NOT EXIST AT ALL and NEVER at all ever fcking will no 'matter' what etc. AND I SHOULD HAVE THE ABSOLUTE TOTAL RIGHT TO DIE/DISAPPEAR/NOT EXIST AT ALL WHENEVER/ANYTIME I WANT IF I SIMPLY WANT TO WITHOUT FCKING HAVE TO FCKING BE ANY GODDAMN REASONS IN GENERAL AT ALL FOR FUCKS SAKE. I SIMPLY JUST DONT FCKING WANT ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL NO 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW THE DAMN FCK IT IS/CAN BE NEITHER WHAT TYPE/WAY ETCETCEC IT IS/CAN BE, NEITHER WHAT/WHERE ANYTHING/EVERYTHING IN GENERAL WHATEVER TF IT IS WHATEVER TYPE IT IS ETC ITS FROM/ABOUT/RELATED TO/IN/OF/ASSOCIATED WITH NOR ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL NOR WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK IN GENERAL. THAT'S. FCKING. IT. I. SIMPLY. JUST. DONT. AND. THERE. ARENT. ANY. GODDAMN. REASONS. AT. ALL
The 'reason' i 'feel' "bad" (cant "help" it lol, the fucking 'inevitable' ""gUiLt"" that i cant fucking help but "feeling" because i WoUlD lEaVe ThEm bEhInD aNd mAkE tHeM 'sUfFeR'/'cRy' and blahblah) about wanting to die (NOT BECAUSE OF ANY REASON AT ALL) is lEaViNg mY 'parents'/'family' bEhInD. If you refer to that then yes. I cant fucking "help it" and that's basically why im still "here" instead of SIMPLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY BASICALLY NOWHERE AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY FORM/TYPE/KIND/WAY ETC. because i know that they'll be absolutely/extremely 'devastated'/'hurt' and 'traumatized'/'shocked' and will have an 'impact' or whatever tf that means on 'them' for the 'rest' of their 'lives' and bla bla bla all that. and well, also the 'fact' that I FUCKING UNFORTUNATELY (or whatever tf "unfortunately" means, couldnt care any less) just dont have any way out (yet) are the only reasons I haven't *"ctb" yet and what "holds me back" INSTEAD OF FINALLY SIMPLY DOING IT ALREADY, although well i cant really do it already nor anytime soon, it's just so fucking risky and hard to do here in their 'house' and well theyd be the first ones who find/see the dead body/corpse, thatd 'traumatize'/'shock' them a lot and bLahBlaHBlaH all that crap. Sigh. IF FUCKING ONLY IT WAS EASY TO DIE AND FINALLY JUST NOT EXIST AT FUCKING ALL. IF FUCKING ONLY. (*"catch" the "bus" to eternal absolute total plain literal endless infinite NOTHINGNESS/NONEXISTENCE. not to any fucking "something"/"afterlife" at all in general of any type/kind/way/form nor absolutely anything else in general at all)
If it wasn't for them and because finding a reliable way out to FINALLY DIE and because its so fucking hard and risky to die, I would've ctb/died many many many years ago/'ages' ago and wouldve 100% been more than gone/dead already, *or probably not but because of my 'parents'/'family' (and well my 'parents' also 'adopted' a 'cat' some years ago that loves me a lot and all that and well, 'she' would be 'sad' and 'lost' or whatever the fuck that means lol without me but well, that also
DOESNT mean that ill never ctb and finally have what i precisely truly actually 'want'/'wish'/'desire'/'crave' or whatever tf all those 'words'/'verbs' fucking mean, that is DEATH/NOTHINGNESS/NON-EXISTENCE AND SIMPLY JUST NOT EXIST AT ALL AND NOT 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE ETC AT DAMN ALL IN FCKING GENERAL AND LITERALLY SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT 'EXPERIENCE' ETC ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT FUCKING ALL) to not 'dEvAsTaTe'/'hUrT'/'tRaUmAtIZe'/'sHoCk'/'rUiN' them and also because it's just too hard and risky to do here anyway, so fucking risky and difficult or whatever tf that means too. Its SO FUCKING FRUSTRATING to have to fucking 'admit' this but if I want to not have to fucking 'worry' about any 'risks'/'worries' like not having enough time to attempt/FINALLY DIE, getting caught/being found, fucking 'psych ward' or whatever the fuck that garbage crap is/means, ending up on/under 'sUiCiDe WaTcH' and without any more opportunities to attempt again at least for a FUCKING long time until they completely forget and "don't suspect" anymore, getting 'brain damage' (which i really just dont give a goddamn fuck about and has never/doesn't/never will """aFfEcT"""/"""wOrRy""" "me" at all lmaooooo i couldnt give any less of a shit about a/the "brain"/"mind" in general no fcking 'matter' how tf it is/can be neither what type of "brain"/"mind" and or whatever the damn fck it is, neither if it's """""fUnCtIoNaL"""""/"""""uSeFuL"""""/"""""hEaLtHy"""""" or whatever tf all that crap means and or any/whatever other """""pOsItIvE""""" 'way'/'adjective'/tYpE oF "bRaIn"/"mInD" and or whatever tf in general lmao i simply just dont give a fuck for fucks sake!!!!!) 'traumatizing'/'shocking' my 'parents'/'family' nor 'worry' about any other 'risk'/'worry' in general that id have no fucking choice but to fcking deal with if I attempted here in this 'house', I literally just have no fucking damn choice but to do it outside ("outside" where ffs where the fuck would i fucking go, it's just too suspicious/risky and its even harder now because of the "pandemic"/"covid"/"restrictions"/"curfew"/"lockdown" or whatever tf all that mean/is lol i couldnt give a shit lmaooooooo that doenst """aFfEcT"""/"""wOrRy""" me at all AND IT'S ALSO NOT THE """rEaSoN wHy I wAnT tO dIE""", NO FFS JESUS FCKING CHRIST ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY GODDAMN REASON IN GENERAL AT ALL IT SIMPLY JUST FCKING ISN'T BECAUSE OF ANY) and risk being found by the fucking police and or fucking 'buy'/'have' an "oWn HoUsE"/"oWn PlAcE"/"oWn aPaRmEnT" or whatever tf that is and do it there "without any" risks/worries/interruptions/'problems' or whatever tf all that fucking means and to finally have as much time as I want/need or whatever tf those 'verbs'/'words' mean to "reliably"/"successfully"/"safely" attempt and FINALLY DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR ENTIRELY COMPLETELY LITERALLY TOTALLY ETERNALLY and not have to fucking 'worry' or whatever tf that means about 'someone'/'people' around finding 'me' and fcking sending me to a fcking 'psych ward' or whatever the damn fck that crap means/is nor about any other 'risks' in general. BUT FOR FUCKS SAKE NO I LITERALLY JUST SIMPLY FUCKING DONT WANT TO HAVE TO FUCKING 'WORK'/'GET'|'HAVE' A FCKING GODDAMN FCKING 'JOB' OR WHATEVER TF THAT GARBAGE TRASH BULLSHIT IS/MEANS AND THEN HAVE TO FCKING WAIT FOR WHO THE FCK 'KNOWS' HOW MANY FCKING YEARS UNTIL I FINALLY HAVE 'ENOUGH' FCKING 'MONEY' OR WHATEVER TF THAT SHIT IS/MEANS TO FINALLY FCKING 'BUY' A FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' OR WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK THAT IS/MEANS AND AND FINALLY HAVE ONE TO FINALLY BE FCKING FINALLY 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/"CTB"/DIE/DISAPPEAR/NOT EXIST AT ALL "SUCCESSFULLY" or whatever the fuck that crap shit means lmfao/'100%' 'GUARANTEED'/"SAFELY"/"RELIABLY" AND "WITHOUT ANY" RISKS AT ALL. Id IMMEDIATELY RIGHT AWAY do it just right after 'entering' the 'house' that's for sure without any fucking "doubt" nor any "indecision"/"hesitation" or whatever tf that means lmao. for that to FINALLY FUCKING HAPPEN I'd fcking have to fcking 'work' and all that garbage shit and wouldve had to fcking force myself to fcking "hAvE" "mOtIvAtIoN"/"wIlL"/"eNeRgY"/"sTrEnGtH"/"dEdIcAtIoN"/"iNtErEsT" or whatever tf all that """pOsItIvE""" bullshit crap means lmao and or any/whatever other """""pOsItIvE"""""" shit like that and or in general, EEEEWWWWW lmao. and would have also have to fucking wait for a long long fucking time. sigh

It's fucking either do it here and risk it a lot/risk many things or have to fcking wOrK or whatever tf that shit fucking means/is and wait for so many fucking years until I finally have the fucking house/apartment TO FUCKING FINALLY CAN BE 'ABLE' TO "RELIABLY"/"SUCCESSFULLY" ATTEMPT/"CTB"/DIE AND NOT RISK ANYTHING. SIGH. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKK WHY IS IT SO FCKING HARD TO DIE FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can i "rent" or whatever tf that means 'houses'/'apartments'? Because im thinking of just doing that instead of having to fucking wait for who the goddamn fucking knows until i finally have fucking 'money' enough to fcking 'buy' a fcking 'house' AND FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/FINALLY DIE. Im guessing that "renting" is "cheaper" or whatever tf that means than "buying" so if itll fucking take less time for the waiting I guess ill fucking force myself to fcking make the fcking effort/sacrifice or whatever tf that means to fucking 'work' and wait for AT LEAST LESS THAN IF I TRY TO FCKING 'BUY' A 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' but jfc I SIMPLY JUST DONT WANT TO FFKING 'WORK' [NOR LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL/ANY OTHER 'ACTION'|'VERB' ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL] ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY TYPE/WAY AT ALL ANY FCKING "JOB"/"PROFESSION" NOR LITERALLY BASICALLY ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE BULLSHIT TRASH CRAP LIKE THAT/IN GENERAL AT ALL NO FCKING 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW THE DAMN FCK IT IS/CAN BE ETC AND A LONG ETC FFS I SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT!!!!!!!!!!!
Even if i havent done it ("ctb") any of these years because of 'fear' or whatever tf that means of getting caught/being found in the 'middle' of the attempt and to not 'traumatize'/'shock' my 'parents'/'family, I 1000% know that someday i YES or YES will finally attempt/"CTB" and FINALLY leave/get rid of/get out of/ditch the 'meat sheath'/'flesh' that prevents me from FINALLY NOT EXISTING AT ALL/NOT 'BEING' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE ANY DAMN WAY AT ALL ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL. I'm 100% sure that someday I will even if i haven't done it all these years because of the 'inevitable' fucking ""guilt"" and for cant 'help' but to 'feel' "bad"/"sad" for them, and will FINALLY have what/the ONLY "thing" ive always wanted/wanted to want, want and want to want and will literally always want to want and 'wish'/'desire'/'crave' or whatever tf all those 'words'/'verbs' mean lmao so much no fucking 'matter' what etc, that is, DIE/JUSTNOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR ENTIRELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY DEFINITELY LITERALLY ETERNALLY FOREVER AND EVER/NOT 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING ANYONE ANYWHERE ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL. *But that
DOESNT mean ill never ctb lmao of course I will thats for sure, there's absolutely no "doubt" of that and I cant fcking wait for that 'day' to finally come. Im "sorry" or whatever tf that means for them because i know that they'll 'suffer'/'cry' and will be extremely 'affected' and bla bla bla all that. But 'this' (NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL WHATEVER HOWEVER THE DAMN FCK IT IS, WHATEVER TYPE/WAY/KIND/FORM ETC AND OR WHATEVER TF IT IS, WHATEVER/WHEREVER THE FCK ITS FROM ETCETC)
SHOULDNT be a fucking obligation/obligatory thing that i yes or fucking yes have to want/care about/be 'interested' in/want to 'like'/'experience'/'do'/'participate' in/'be part of'/'explore'/'enjoy'/'live'/'inhabit'/'discover'/'know' 'about'/'learn' 'about'/'belong to'/'perceive' and or blahblahetcetc whatever/any other 'verb'/'action' etc in general """"""""uNlEsS i DoNt WaNt To bEcAuSe Of 'hOw'/tHe 'wAy'/tHe 'sTaTe' oF/tHe 'sItUaTiOn' 'oF'|'iN' 'lIfE'/'tHe WoRlD'/'pLaNeT eArTh'/'eXiStEnCe'/'hUmAnItY'/'sOcIetY'/tHe 'sYsTeM'/'hUmAn RaCe'/'cOnScIoUSneSs' bLaHbLahEtCeTc aNd Or WhAtEvEr ThE dAmN fUcK iN gEnErAl 'iS'/'iSnT'/'cAn Be'/'wIlL bE' aNd Or bEcAuSe Of WhAT 'hApPeNs' iN 'lIfE' 'iTsElF' iN gEnErAl aNd Or iN 'mY lIfE' aNd Or 'wHoEvEr ThE fUcKs lIfE' aNd Or iN 'pEoPlEs' 'lIvEs' iN gEnErAl aNd Or iN 'tHe WoRlD' aNd Or 'pLaNeT eArTh' aNd Or 'eXiStEnCe'/'cOnScIoUSneSs' iN gEnErAl aNd Or WhAtEvEr/wHeReVeR tHe fUcK, aNd Or bEcAuSe oF "sUfFeRiNg"/"pAiN" iN gEnErAl/"mEnTaL" aNd Or "pHySiCaL" aNd Or AnY oThEr tYpE oF "pAiN"|"sUfFeRiNg", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "dEpReSsIoN" aNd Or AnY/wHaTeVeR oThEr "mEnTaL iLlNeSsEs" iN gEnErAl oF aNy oThEr tYpE, aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "aPaThY" aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "bAd LiFe" aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "cHeMicAl iMbAlAnCe iN tHe BrAiN", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "bOrEdOm", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "eMpTiNeSs", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "sAdNeSs", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "dEsPaIr", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "aNgUiSh"/"dIsTrEsS", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "hOpEleSsnESs", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "dISapPoIntMent", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "sHaMe", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "gUiLt", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "rEgReT", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "lOw sElFeSteEm", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "sElF hAtReD"/"sElF lOaThInG", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "bAd FaMiLy", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "nIhIlIsM", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "aNtInAtAlIsM"/"eFiLiSm", ANd Or bEcAuSe Of ""fEeLiNg lIkE a "fAiLuRe""" *(as if i gave a goddamn fucking damn garbage fuck shit if "Im" a """"fAiLuRe"""" or whatever the fuck that """""nEgAtIvE""""" 'thing' fucking means or not LMFAAAAAAAAAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IT FUCKING DOESN'T FUCKINF """"""aFfEcT""""""/""""""wOrRy""""""" "ME" AND NEVER AT FUCKING DAMN FCKING ALL EVER FUCKING WILL LMFAOOOOOOO WHY THE FUVKING GODDAMN FUCK IT FUCKINF HAS TO LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOL IVE LITERALLY BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY SIMPLY NEVER AT FUCKING ALL EVER FUCKINF WANTED/WANTED TO WANT TO 'BE' ANY FUCKING GODDAMN """""""pOsItIvE"""""""" 'WAY'/'ADJECTIVE'/'TRAIT'/'QUALITY'/'THING'/TYPE OF 'pErSoN' or whatever tf all that crap fucking means and whatever tf to fucking call that crap lmfaooooo NOR BLAHBLAHETCETC ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER CRAP LIKE THAT/IN GENERAL AT ALL AND LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY BASICALLY SIMPLY NEVER AT FUCKING ALL EVER FUCKING WILL NO FCKING 'MATTER' FUCKING WHAT LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHY THE FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING FUCK DO I FUCKINF HAVE TO FOR FUCKS DAMN SAKE!!!!!!! I SIMPLY JUST FUCKING DONT AND SIMPLY JUST DONT FUCKINF WANT TO FUCKING WANT TO AND IF ITS NOT BELIEVED/UNDERSTOOD/COMPREHENDED I LITERALLY JUST COULDN'T FUCKING GIVE ANY FCKIMG GODDAMN LESS OF A FCKING DAMN GODDAMN FUCK SHIT LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO) *aNd Or bEcAuSe oF "uNsAtIsFaCtIoN"/"uNfUlFiLlMeNt" (why the goddamn fuck shit do i yes or fucking yes have to want "sAtIsFaCtIoN"/"fUlFiLlMeNt" or whatever the fuck that fucking """pOsItIvE""" garbage bullshit crap shit fucking means lmfaoooo I dont give a damn shit and or any other """"pOsItIvE"""" fucking garbage bullshit trash crap like that/in general LMFAAAAAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO why the fuck can't I just don't fucking give a goddamn fucking garbage fuck shit and thats FUCKING IT WITHOUT FUCKING BEING BECAUSE OF A FUCKING REASON/REASONS FOR FUCKS SAKE ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY FUCKING GODDAMN REASON AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ABSOLUTELY ANY FUCKING TYPE IN GENERAL AT FUCKING ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) And Or bEcAuSe Of "aBuSe" aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "tRaUmA", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of "bUlLyInG", aNd Or bEcAuSe Of AnY/wHaTeVeR oThEr 'rEaSoN'/'rEaSoNs'/'cAuSe'/'cAuSeS' iN gEnErAl bUt bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN wHy YeS oR yEs wHaTeVer It Is wHaTeVeR tYpE iT iS wHaTeVeR iTs AbOuT/rElAtEd To bUt bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN iN gEnErAl yEs Or YeS""""""" FOR FUCKS SAKE. THERE FCKING
SHOULDN'T BE A FCKING "REASON WHY" YES OR FCKING YES JUST BECAUSE 'PEOPLE'|'HUMANS' IN GENERAL FCKING SAY SO AND FCKING FEEL LIKE IT AND HAVE FCKING INVENTED that tHeRe HaS tO bE a ReAsOn wHy YeS oR yEs TO WANT TO DIE/JUST SIMPLY NOT WANT TO EXIST AT ALL AND SIMPLY JUST NOT WANT 'EXPERIENCE' ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL AND THAT'S FCKING BASICALLY LITERALLY IT FOR FUCK'S SAKE I FCKING
SHOULDNT BE FCKING OBLIGATED/FORCED TO JUST BECAUSE "I" HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN'/'BE'|'BECOME' 'SOMETHING'/'SOMEONE' AND 'BE' 'BROUGHT' "HERE", JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. IF I SIMPLY JUST BASICALLY LITERALLY DONT/DONT WANT TO WANT TO AT ALL, ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY NEVER AT ALL HAVE HAD AND LITERALLY BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY NEVER AT FCKING ALL EVER FCKING WILL NO FCKING 'MATTER' WHAT, I LITERALLY BASICALLY SIMPLY SERIOUSLY TRULY HONESTLY SINCERELY ABSOLUTELY JUST or whatever tf all those 'words' mean lmao SIMPLY FCKING DONT AND THATS LITERALLY BASICALLY SIMPLY FCKING IT AND I SHOULDN'T BE FCKING FORCED/OBLIGATED/PRESSURED TO!!!!!!! ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ABSOLUTELY ANY GODDAMN REASON AT ALL, AT. ALL. LITERALLY. ANY. DAMN. REASON/CAUSE. OR WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK THAT MEANS. AT. ALL. IN. GENERAL. OF. ANY. TYPE. AND. THATS. IT. WHETHER. ITS. BELIEVED/UNDERSTOOD/COMPREHENDED. OR. NOT. THAT'S. IT. FOR. FUCKS. SAKE. I SHOULD HAVE THE TOTAL ABSOLUTE RIGHT TO DIE ANYTIME/WHENEVER I WANT WITHOUT ANY FCKING """aGe ReStRiCtIoNs""" NOR ANY FCKING """rEaSoNs WhY""" NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE BULLSHIT SHIT LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!