I believe in it as in a general direction but to me, the path towards it can vary. Basically, I believe everyone and everything has a place where they truly belong, that's what's determined as soon as one exists (or maybe even before that) but there's some wiggle room when it comes to the journey towards it. If that makes sense lol. I believe All will reach their true place eventually because one always ends up longing and seeking for it (or maybe not) at some point or another... Anyway...
But I guess it could all just be determined and one just thinks they're somewhat in control when really they aren't, so... And I guess it also depends on what else exists at the same time and in each particular moment because that could influence the path... But I think one can encompass everything that is and was and figure out what will happen or could happen based on everything that exists and has existed. But one would need to be all-seeing, all-knowing, etc... But believing whether this is possible or not or trying this, is up to each individual.
In conclusion, it is what it is and if that's the case, then, it doesn't matter and nothing can be done about it lol. Except for searching for clues, answers and truths about what one is seeking for, based on what is and what was, maybe. And making decisions based on that... It can be scary and frustrating but it can be beautiful as well, in my opinion. It sometimes makes surrendering quite enjoyable on top of being peaceful.
And I guess the journey of self-discovery is nice and fun and very interesting, too, sometimes.
I actually feel best when I discover or rediscover and bask in my true self and my true natural habitat... And it can be extremely painful to not be able to be one's true self freely, depending on the environment or other variables.
But being my true self and finding the things, people and places that truly resonate with, match me and where I perfectly fit in, in that state, is one of the most if not the most fulfilling thing to me.
Finding one's true self is the easy part, in my opinion. It starts with going within and sincerely listening to one's true self, either with or without taking whatever is "outside" into consideration. Your true self is there, it always has been and it will always be there. You can find it, always. And it will definitely answer. You can find comfort in this.
The hard and painful part is when you have found your true self but when you come out of the zone, it seems none of the things, people and places in reality or the outside world, match you perfectly lol or it may also be that you know where you truly belong isn't anywhere close to this reality and/or world or it may even be non-existence, only you know.
It takes patience, devotion, focus, strength, commitment but also a lot of acceptance, trust and surrendering to find and reach all that you truly match with and perfectly fit in. It can be done, I believe. And they exist if you exist, somewhere, in some way, inevitably. Just like there can't be 2 without 1 (lmao what kind of example is that). Just release expectations and keep an open but focused mind, heart and soul.
Anyways.
Sometimes, you find your true self when you find something or someone in reality or the outside world that resonates with you on a deep level, that's an indication that you're going in the right direction.
So, as a final word, the process may not be instantaneous or quick or stable but it's a beautiful unfolding and uncovering. And it always feels good to find or re-find your true self. And down the line, the rewards far outweigh any pains, in my opinion but that may be just me lol.
Not sure why I shared all of this here but I hope it can be helpful in some way, to one or some who might stumble accross this.
I'll stop rambling and go back to reading my mangas now.
