Maybe yes, because sometimes no matter how hard you try to make things change or improve, they just get worse and keep pushing you closer to the point of no return. As if all your actions were in vain, since you cannot change your destiny no matter what you do. It's overwhelming when you feel so fucked up. It's hard to answer. It's possible that I no longer need to be here, and that's not just "bad luck" or a personal impression. The reality is very palpable.
Well, actually, I shouldn't be here, since I was the result of an unwanted pregnancy. I didn't come into this world in the best possible way.