haibane
Reki
- Sep 27, 2023
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Idk if thats the good place to ask that but i dream about killing myself really often (multiple times a week) and i wanted to know if it also happens to other people here.
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Exactly, after ctbing i always have some second's where i feel extremely peaceful and calm. Its so comforting. Tysm for answering!So you know how in your dreams, when you die, you immediately wake up? I haven't really had dreams of CTB since I am depressed and actively suicidal, but I've had dreams where I died (earthquake, car wreck, plane crash, end of the world, etc.). And something's changed recently. Nowadays when I die in my dreams, I feel an overwhelming sense of calmness and peace. I do not wake up in a jolt and sweating, oh no. It actually takes me anywhere between 5 to 10 seconds to die in my dream, and then I wake up after everything fades. In less than a couple of seconds, the reality that it was just a dream and I am very much alive sets in...
My reaction pre-depression used to be: *wake up sweating* "Phew, fuck that...". Now it's more like: *wake up calm and happy, realize it was a dream* "Man... fuck this".
No it's more common I dream of running to or from somewhere. Usually nightmares. Generally though I don't dream.Idk if thats the good place to ask that but i dream about killing myself really often (multiple times a week) and i wanted to know if it also happens to other people here.
Not too long ago i dreamt that i was trying to ctb with sn by sniffing it haha. Even in my dream it failed thoI dreamt that I was eating SN in handfuls as powder. Depression aside it's kinda funny.