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noname223
Angelic
- Aug 18, 2020
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LIke developing a hatred towards humankind. You can see that in many mainstream movies with evil characters. Or I think some people who were abused start to develop similar behavior towards other people. This is one reason why I don't want kids. I was abused as a child (violence). And I would be scared to do the same mistakes my parents did or even worse. Maybe I would even be a worse parent. I would probably try to find good and compassionate parents where my children could live. But I could not support them either financially nor emotionally. I think it would better not meeting me and my fucked up life. I think I would never hit my children. But I absolutely don't have energy to care for any other sentient beings. I also include animals. Or even plants.
I was bullied and abused severely in my life. When I was a teenager I did some stupid shit as a reaction to it. It was kind of becoming an asshole period. Insulting people other people online and offline. Being offending to other people. I feel ashamed about that. But it was my way to cope with domestic abuse and severe bullying. I regret that a lot. But I had no ways to cope in a healthy way. Noone knew about my suicidality and I felt so ashamed about it. My reaction was very counterproductive. And I have apologized to some people I have offended.
I think if other people treated me better I would not have been this toxic. But I can say for sure my own bullies were way worse than me. But stil I feel really bad about it.
Do you think there is like a cycle of abuse? Abuse of one person can turn the person into an abuser. The same goes for bullies and bullying.
I think this can be the case but must not happen. I think in general I am a good person. And even for minor things I can get a really bad conscience. I did not become an abuser. But probably my best friends had a huge positive impact on me. Showing me what true friendship means. I think without them I would probably be a worse person. So maybe the cylce might also can go the other way around.
What is your experience with that?
I was bullied and abused severely in my life. When I was a teenager I did some stupid shit as a reaction to it. It was kind of becoming an asshole period. Insulting people other people online and offline. Being offending to other people. I feel ashamed about that. But it was my way to cope with domestic abuse and severe bullying. I regret that a lot. But I had no ways to cope in a healthy way. Noone knew about my suicidality and I felt so ashamed about it. My reaction was very counterproductive. And I have apologized to some people I have offended.
I think if other people treated me better I would not have been this toxic. But I can say for sure my own bullies were way worse than me. But stil I feel really bad about it.
Do you think there is like a cycle of abuse? Abuse of one person can turn the person into an abuser. The same goes for bullies and bullying.
I think this can be the case but must not happen. I think in general I am a good person. And even for minor things I can get a really bad conscience. I did not become an abuser. But probably my best friends had a huge positive impact on me. Showing me what true friendship means. I think without them I would probably be a worse person. So maybe the cylce might also can go the other way around.
What is your experience with that?
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