Do not have time or ability for exit bag

[NeedyAphrodite]

Hello,

I have been struggling with an incurable, extremely painful disease for a long time now and I am unable to procure the items for an exit bag as was my original intent for my ctb on 1/5. I have been losing the use of my limbs. My life has been unbearable for a long time and i gave myself 3 more months to try my best to find reasons to hang on. I cannot any longer. I have wanted to die as long as i have been alive.
Suggestions on a relatively quick painless way I can research and do asap? This is torture, and has been for a long time. I have watched the rationality of suicide videos as well. If i were an animal they would have euthanized me already.

 

[TheHolySword]

I can't think of much that wouldn't require some amount of prep or ability. SN would require time and money to acquire but is fairly easy to do after that. Firearms also require money and the ability to purchase. N and other substances would usually require use of dark web or other illegal channels. It sounds like partial or full suspension may be difficult for you to achieve as well based on your situation but maybe that's something you could look into? It may be the most viable.

I would recommend looking into some of the method megathreads on this forum, there may be something that would be reasonable for you. I'm so sorry that you are suffering and in so much pain, I hope that you are able to find your peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered so unbearably in this existence, it's horrific to me how there's all this agony and torture yet the option of euthanasia is denied, I really wish for the option to just simply die in peace and never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you are looking for.