do any of you want to film their ctb

[renold]

I do and I don't know why I wont cause I don't want the family/bf to see that but i have the desire to record it like why I feel weird about it

 

[AstralMadness]

I'd like to maybe it'd be interesting lol

 

[Blueberry Panic]

Most people on here don't but no one is going to stop you from doing it yourself.

 

[martyrdom]

Mine will be recorded whether I like it or not because we have cameras in the house that I don't control.

 

[leloyon]

I used to want to livestream it, but no longer have any desire to do so.

 

[onmywaytothebusstop]

No desire to become an eternal meme

 

[socksnsandles]

absolutely not.

 

[SymphonyOfSuffering]

Why tho

 

[BlueberryDeer]

No, for a few reasons :
- I don't want that people took my recording as an act of vengeance, because the decision of dying is from my inner core and doesn't have a direct person who influenced the last step.
- I don't want to fuel the transphobic id***s who could use the material for their absurd memetic trope of "hahaha another (Insert trans slur here), 40% hahaha".
- I don't want to break the heart of another Trans sisters, since again, my decision isn't directly from the transphobia, but someone could take as is, even if I clarify.
- If it leaks to a gore website, I was there and I read a series of abhorrent comments against Suicidal people, so it could be counter productive.

 

[tiltedcompass]

Sometimes I fantasize about it but I wouldn't do it because my family would eventually see it and because no one would actually find and watch my livestream lol

 

[ilovenewyork]

I would if I could source SN or N. Just so others can learn from my experience

 

[Praestat_Mori]

No. I don't want to end up on gore sites.

 

[SmokingCivet]

Don't think a video of a ctb Nembutal death is available online. I'll likely do it on a video call that they can upload as they wish.

 

[вечный сон]

I saw a kid on WPD cut his veins, drink poison, put a noose around his neck while sitting on a cliff then shooting himself in the head while holding a Grenadade. Craziest suicide in the history probably

 

[Lost Impact]

i've watched a few recordings like that from people that mostly just wanted to preserve their own death on camera or record the process for others to... enjoy...
i've no interest in doing it myself since i already don't want to be looked at in life and i despise cameras.
but it's interesting i guess? to see just how much abuse the human body is capable of.

 

[kuroshimi]

That would be interesting, but probably no.

 

[braintorture]

I did think about doing it while masked but then I realized I'm not really looking for attention anymore I'm just looking for peace.

 

[badatparties]

I don't think that's a dignified thing to do or put out into the world.

 

[Chemi]

No. It would feel very humiliating knowing people see me like that. I don't expect to look super pretty. Don't want to be remembered by the world as a pale blue corpse. I would be happy for it to be documented to educate people, but definitely without pics or videos of me.

 

[psychosis]

i would rather be missed then bouncing around wpd when i die but thats just me

 

[BillyBob]

Don't think a video of a ctb Nembutal death is available online. I'll likely do it on a video call that they can upload as they wish.

There are a few online. One is on Terry Pratchets documentary on the right too die. Forgot the other ones but there are about 3-5 if I recall. But the more the better to show people how much more peaceful it is compared to other methods.

 

[littlecutecorpse]

would rather not. i'd rather not feed the atrocious people on gore sites, should it end up in such a place. nor would i want to unintentionally support anyone's argument that i'm 'attention-seeking' for my suicidality.

 

[renold]

Why tho

literally no clue was hoping other people did and might have an explanation cause idfk

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

Nope.

 

[renold]

No desire to become an eternal meme

fair

 

[Claymore7274]

Hell no i don't want to be in gore sites like wpd

 

[renold]

Don't think a video of a ctb Nembutal death is available online. I'll likely do it on a video call that they can upload as they wish.

https://watchpeopledie.tv/h/social/post/1753/the-assisted-suicide-of-peter-smedley

this is doc about the process if you like

 

[MrsT-800]

I wouldn't film it because it simply doesn't matter. I'm nobody. It's as uneventful as getting mail delivered or taking a walk around the block. Just another happening.

But in theory, I hate myself so much, that I wouldn't mind people seeing it and mocking it after I die. In fact, I'd almost hope for snide comments after it

 

[scharlachrotsan]

I saw a kid on WPD cut his veins, drink poison, put a noose around his neck while sitting on a cliff then shooting himself in the head while holding a Grenadade. Craziest suicide in the history probably

iirc that was a comedy video with no actual death

 

[blooming]

No. I don't like the idea of traumatizing friends and family further. It's hard enough for me to know that I'll inevitably CTB and people around me will have to pick up the pieces as it is.