I've distracted lately by sleeping a lot, yesterday I got escape by sleeping in the middle of the day, for five hours. After waking up I did some art for the first time in six months, posted it to social media, got zero responses as per protocol so often, and went into worse depression. For years and years the distracting has also been buying things, spending money, now, with depression turning suicidal again...I have tried buying things, and within a couple of hours the "rush" or content feelings from that distraction are long gone, and I know it. Like a suicidal kid sitting in the middle of their many toys and nothing can be done to uplift them.