Due to my very deep heartbreak that has effected me for years (and a huge reason I want to CTB) I have now developed a very horrible habit of disassociating. I suppose it's a way that I cope but I'm not sure. I'm bipolar so I always disassociated but when I became severely heartbroken it became extremely bad. I have disassociated to the point I will zoom through entire days and not realize what day it is. I've done this to the point I have missed work thinking that it was still the weekend. Has anyone else struggled with this type of thing? It's gotten so bad for me and I feel it's out of my control
