I apologize, my explanation of my situation is a tad rant-y.
I'm a disabled twenty something woman in the USA. I am always in pain and greatly limited in ability (I have to use a wheelchair most days). I have been depressed for my entire life from what I recall. Every year just gets worse. I am also a domestic violence survivor (unfortunately he didn't end me, only severely injured and gave me PTSD.)
It sucks that I am in the USA. If I were in Canada I've heard it is easier to get medical assistance in moving on from this life as a disabled person, is that true? Would it be worth trying to move to Canada for that purpose, despite the process taking years?
Everyone in the USA thinks death (purposeful or otherwise) is a horrible thing. They would rather force me to continue to suffer in pain with no pain medications offered that work and no government assistance to live off of than allow me to ctb in a humane manner.
I'm trying my best to live, I do love some aspects of my life. But I'm really so angry that they don't treat disabled people better in this country, and that they don't allow us to get the things we need, or at the very least, exit our lives in a humane manner.
I think if I do decide to go, I need to save up money as best I can and do a nitrogen exit bag.
On another note, I'm angry that everyone uses the excuse of becoming disabled as why they are afraid to attempt. I know it is valid for them to fear it but it is a slap in the face to people like me who are already disabled. It makes it sound like our lives aren't even worth living and we should all ctb. I know that sounds really hypocritical seeing as I might be trying to ctb eventually, but genuinely there are disabled people who live their lives and are happy, and I have moments of that too. It hurts that people think my life is a date worse than death. It really makes me not even want to try to keep going.
I love someone. I want to have a life together with them. But I feel like it isn't even worthwhile. I don't even have money for food currently, and no one will hire me. How can I ever give them the life they deserve if I can't provide for them?
I wish the USA did a better job of it, the only way you'd get help in catching the bus would be by having a terminal illness that would kill you in six months or less. Otherwise, you're free to starve and be homeless and not get the meds you need for your disabilities and try to figure out how to ctb all on your own with extremely limited funds and even more limited abilities.
I know no one can tell me what I should do in regards to my life. I am primarily curious about how accessible MAID is in Canada, and also if it would even be possible for me to move there seeing as I am disabled. Australia completely prohibits the disabled from moving there so I can't go there. Dunno about the UK.
I guess I keep going day by day until I either die of starvation, die of an injury from not being able to afford meds, or finally ctb. Or maybe things will magically turn around, though I highly doubt it.
I'm a disabled twenty something woman in the USA. I am always in pain and greatly limited in ability (I have to use a wheelchair most days). I have been depressed for my entire life from what I recall. Every year just gets worse. I am also a domestic violence survivor (unfortunately he didn't end me, only severely injured and gave me PTSD.)
It sucks that I am in the USA. If I were in Canada I've heard it is easier to get medical assistance in moving on from this life as a disabled person, is that true? Would it be worth trying to move to Canada for that purpose, despite the process taking years?
Everyone in the USA thinks death (purposeful or otherwise) is a horrible thing. They would rather force me to continue to suffer in pain with no pain medications offered that work and no government assistance to live off of than allow me to ctb in a humane manner.
I'm trying my best to live, I do love some aspects of my life. But I'm really so angry that they don't treat disabled people better in this country, and that they don't allow us to get the things we need, or at the very least, exit our lives in a humane manner.
I think if I do decide to go, I need to save up money as best I can and do a nitrogen exit bag.
On another note, I'm angry that everyone uses the excuse of becoming disabled as why they are afraid to attempt. I know it is valid for them to fear it but it is a slap in the face to people like me who are already disabled. It makes it sound like our lives aren't even worth living and we should all ctb. I know that sounds really hypocritical seeing as I might be trying to ctb eventually, but genuinely there are disabled people who live their lives and are happy, and I have moments of that too. It hurts that people think my life is a date worse than death. It really makes me not even want to try to keep going.
I love someone. I want to have a life together with them. But I feel like it isn't even worthwhile. I don't even have money for food currently, and no one will hire me. How can I ever give them the life they deserve if I can't provide for them?
I wish the USA did a better job of it, the only way you'd get help in catching the bus would be by having a terminal illness that would kill you in six months or less. Otherwise, you're free to starve and be homeless and not get the meds you need for your disabilities and try to figure out how to ctb all on your own with extremely limited funds and even more limited abilities.
I know no one can tell me what I should do in regards to my life. I am primarily curious about how accessible MAID is in Canada, and also if it would even be possible for me to move there seeing as I am disabled. Australia completely prohibits the disabled from moving there so I can't go there. Dunno about the UK.
I guess I keep going day by day until I either die of starvation, die of an injury from not being able to afford meds, or finally ctb. Or maybe things will magically turn around, though I highly doubt it.
