Venting Diphenhydramine Addiction is going to kill me

[Kyotospade]

I know it's a dumb addiction but I'm only so addicted because I know it's hurting me and causing me brain damage. With each dosage I'm getting worse and worse and worse and all I can do is watch myself slowly kill myself.

It makes my mental health so much worse and all I do when I can't have it is try to end my life.

The shadows and hallucinations I see bring me comfort even if it hurts to see them .
I took 3000mg and died from this and yet I'm still addicted to it , what the fuck is wrong with me !
I feel so alone .... all the time and the only thing that can stop my brain from ending itself is drugs , any drug it doesn't matter .
I'm so pathetic .
I hope my addiction kills me like it has so many other people . Add me to the statistic I don't fucking care.

 

[manicstreetbeeper]

Diph is one hell of a drug. i've been misusing it a lot too and it frightens me as well. you're not alone.

 

[Kyotospade]

Diph is one hell of a drug. i've been misusing it a lot too and it frightens me as well. you're not alone.

Thank you

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

I know people trip on it but didn't now people got hooked. How often do you take it?

When you said you died, do you mean metaphorically or literally? What happened?

 

[Languish]

Isn't that what's in sleeping pills? I was going to hook up with a friend and try somno, but didn't want to be woken up while she touched me. I tried 50mg, plus half a cup of nyquil, and it made me feel very groggy and tired, but I did not manage a second of sleep that night, so the plans were undone. I still want to try somno with her, but I don't know how to make myself sleep and stay asleep (without risking death) - I am suicidal but I need to live a while longer for personal reasons. I can't believe you took 3000mg, that is insane to me. One pill was 50, so by that metric you took 60 of the pills that only one of had wrecked me. I wish it made me sleep. Does it help you sleep? Or do you just get tired/groggy/brain fog/pain?

I was worried I might overdose from just two, but you make 100mg seem safe. How much would you recommend I try, if I wanted to fall asleep and stay asleep to try somno? Without.. overly risking my health of course.

 

[Kyotospade]

I know people trip on it but didn't now people got hooked. How often do you take it?

When you said you died, do you mean metaphorically or literally? What happened?

Yeah you can addicted to it.

I flatlined for about 15 seconds when overdosed on it