I've pretty much come to the conclusion that therapy won't help me.
It's up to whether meds help me enough or not. Still waiting on results... But even if I get better idk if I want to live life.
I mean we all die eventually and there are way more bad times then good for me at least.
This is making me kind of give up on recovering.
Though I haven't died yet because I'm just scared of the pain I'll bring my parents, family dogs, brother, and the uncertainty of what happens after death. I'm scared of being alone.
When I die will I be able to see my parents/dogs/brother again? Will it be a void where nothing matters as I'm not conscious so I wouldn't know the difference? Is it reincarnation? Etc etc...
I also don't have a relatively peaceful or instant/quick way to die.
If I could press a button and instantly die I'd be gone though. I'm not even at the worse I've been and I feel just done. Completely exhausted with life.
It's up to whether meds help me enough or not. Still waiting on results... But even if I get better idk if I want to live life.
I mean we all die eventually and there are way more bad times then good for me at least.
This is making me kind of give up on recovering.
Though I haven't died yet because I'm just scared of the pain I'll bring my parents, family dogs, brother, and the uncertainty of what happens after death. I'm scared of being alone.
When I die will I be able to see my parents/dogs/brother again? Will it be a void where nothing matters as I'm not conscious so I wouldn't know the difference? Is it reincarnation? Etc etc...
I also don't have a relatively peaceful or instant/quick way to die.
If I could press a button and instantly die I'd be gone though. I'm not even at the worse I've been and I feel just done. Completely exhausted with life.
