I was very active in making and showing art, from about 2011 till my mental health got worse and physical health problems started in 2019. I even had a bonafide art studio in a studio complex. Now, with being more depressed and overwhelmed with mental and physical health issues, I look back on all that art and having the studio, and think "What was the point? What did I prove?" I do have some of my favorite art I have done, framed and decorating my little apartment. So that's good. I have made many videos too, and have a YouTube channel. But I hardly ever make videos now, if I do, they're very short, like 15 to 60 seconds only. My heart just isn't into anything like it used to be, and I'm not going to force it if I don't genuinely feel like doing the hobby, whatever it is.
I did too, for a while since Covid, I became a "covid cook" or "quarantine kitchen" where a lot of people, with all the restaurants closed, they took up cooking enthusiastically. My heart was in that for a while, but not right now. Just seems now, like so much WORK.
When I am not depressed and am in a good mood these days, I just enjoy my environment and peace inside my little apartment. I try to have hope that this feeling of my heart not being into anything, will pass. But as of now, it has not.