KleinerWolf

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Venting for whatever reason.

Didn't get the job that I interviewed for.

Also lost $580 today on online gambling.
Not that it's life changing even if I won.

I'm actually complaining right now,
when you lose every single battle in life,
how the f are you supposed to keep your chin up and still going?

No citizenship, no job, not even minor luck on my side?

I'm gonna attempt to order SN from Australia later this week.

Life is comparable to gambling,
consecutive losses knock you out.

Life had always been about winning for me,
and I've just been losing and losing.
 
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summers

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It took me about 5 months and almost 400 indeed applications to get my current job. That's with 10 years of experience and a number of measurable outcomes in my previous positions. The job market is real shit right now, especially with covid.

Keep at it. Best advice I can give is get ready to make 50% or less of what you made last time. I was ready to drive/deliver for Amazon as a stop gap until I got something I was really interested in. The pay isn't terrible if you are cool with driving and physical work.
 
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I actually am deeply unhappy with my life situation,
there's hardwork factor for sure,
I don't have problem with that,

but I don't know how long I can keep going like this,
it's been a while without having prominent hope or any major progress.

It must be incredibly hard to convince someone that thinks their life is not worth it,
based on the progress they are making.
 
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Job market is so competitive. Company advertises 1 position, and there's over 500 applicants all vying for that 1 position, then you realize that none of those 500 people get a chance because they hired someone else internal. So they waste your time and give your hopes up.
 
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Job market is so competitive. Company advertises 1 position, and there's over 500 applicants all vying for that 1 position, then you realize that none of those 500 people get a chance because they hired someone else internal. So they waste your time and give your hopes up.

Very true, especially for jobs on Indeed, LinkedIn, or ZipRecruiter where they offer the quick apply. Still, imagine a job only recives 10 qualified, external applicants. You still need to beat out 9 other people who may as or more qualified than you. On top of that, you are competing against the other applicants' appearances, ages, sex, and some other intangibles.
 
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Very true, especially for jobs on Indeed, LinkedIn, or ZipRecruiter where they offer the quick apply. Still, imagine a job only recives 10 qualified, external applicants. You still need to beat out 9 other people who may as or more qualified than you. On top of that, you are competing against the other applicants' appearances, ages, sex, and some other intangibles.

as a chinaman working in new zealand as a cook,
if I was a new zealand employer I would hire a new zealander every time,

not because Im racist but because they have work rights and it's less drama when it comes to visa and whatnot.
 
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Job market is so competitive. Company advertises 1 position, and there's over 500 applicants all vying for that 1 position, then you realize that none of those 500 people get a chance because they hired someone else internal. So they waste your time and give your hopes up.
That's soo true, it's literally always like that.
 
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as a chinaman working in new zealand as a cook,
if I was a new zealand employer I would hire a new zealander every time,

not because Im racist but because they have work rights and it's less drama when it comes to visa and whatnot.

I did not know this was the case in New Zealand. I'd welcome you to my multi-cultural city in Canada if I could where maybe your chances fair better.

Covid is not helping the employment numbers. Please remember we are under unusual circumstances that last happened over 100 years ago and we happen to be part of the generation that has to do it this time. Remember *everything* is more challenging because of Covid, I'm sure.
 
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I didn't get the job I interviewed for a week ago. Despite my issues and anxiety, I was actually excited to work that one. I'm still putting in applications, even though my motivation is probably at it's lowest now.
 
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I didn't get the job I interviewed for a week ago. Despite my issues and anxiety, I was actually excited to work that one. I'm still putting in applications, even though my motivation is probably at it's lowest now.
What about applying for a job that you are guaranteed to get. It may be a good morale boost, as well as a chance to practice interview skills?

Amazon delivery/warehouse. UPS warehouse/driver helper are almost guaranteed unless you are disabled.
 
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That's soo true, it's literally always like that.
Not always every country is like in recession there are ques outside social welfare that reminded me of the 2010 property crash in Europe. There's people I know who had businesses closed down. There are businesses forced to close due to lockdown.

I remember back in the day I could just waltz in and out of jobs because supply and demand mechanics were on my side. Now the market is just flooded with unemployed people with loads chasing after few jobs.
 
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What about applying for a job that you are guaranteed to get. It may be a good morale boost, as well as a chance to practice interview skills?

Amazon delivery/warehouse. UPS warehouse/driver helper are almost guaranteed unless you are disabled.

I've been applying everywhere... I'm just unhireable I guess. Can't even get an interview for a McDonald's job ffs.
 
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I've been applying everywhere... I'm just unhireable I guess. Can't even get an interview for a McDonald's job ffs.

There are quite a few trucking companies that will bankroll you getting a CDL, train you, and guarantee you a job with them if you sign a one or two year contract. I have family in trucking. After you get a little experience, you will never be without a job if you have a CDL. Not the job for everyone, but it's decent money. PM me if you want some specifics.
 
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There are quite a few trucking companies that will bankroll you getting a CDL, train you, and guarantee you a job with them if you sign a one or two year contract. I have family in trucking. After you get a little experience, you will never be without a job if you have a CDL. Not the job for everyone, but it's decent money. PM me if you want some specifics.
True it's the golden age for logistics right now my brother got hired by DHL, he's in warehouse but will work to become a driver with them. Covid 19 became a blessing for them.
 
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There are quite a few trucking companies that will bankroll you getting a CDL, train you, and guarantee you a job with them if you sign a one or two year contract. I have family in trucking. After you get a little experience, you will never be without a job if you have a CDL. Not the job for everyone, but it's decent money. PM me if you want some specifics.

I mean,...I'll take the info...but I shouldn't really be on the road, I won't list details, but it would be very irresponsible to trust me with anything bigger than a bicycle. Lol.

edit: I did pm them. I'll take the info, because I'm not trying to sabotage myself further than I already do.
 
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There are quite a few trucking companies that will bankroll you getting a CDL, train you, and guarantee you a job with them if you sign a one or two year contract. I have family in trucking. After you get a little experience, you will never be without a job if you have a CDL. Not the job for everyone, but it's decent money. PM me if you want some specifics.
What is CDL? is it the Square trucks? I have bipolar and need a healthy sleeping pattern is important. Do you think it's possible for me? How much human interaction needed? because of my severe anxiety.
 
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Don't gamble. It's a soul sucking profession, if you're not a professional in the current climate you will lose. It's hardly gambling most of the anymore for a recreational player. Coming from lots of experience in the industry.
 
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Don't gamble. It's a soul sucking profession, if you're not a professional in the current climate you will lose. It's hardly gambling most of the anymore for a recreational player. Coming from lots of experience in the industry.
I'm assuming you meant you work in the industry.
I do appreciate your advice.

But yeah it's a bit problematic for people like me,
Though I've already lost before I first got into gambling.

life got to me first,
What a shame.
 
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We're just born to lose I think. The house really does always win
 
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We're just born to lose I think. The house really does always win
I've seen people win, in life as well as in gambling,
In gambling when you win big, lots of people do lose in the end,
Life is different, it's possible to maintain or even improve it.

but that doesn't change anything for me,
The opportunity wasn't there when I needed it.
just a rip-off and endless bs, I don't even know wtf is going on anymore.

but there's no such thing as born to lose,
Everyone is born to win.

I'll rage quit but I was never born to lose. Never.
 
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What is CDL? is it the Square trucks? I have bipolar and need a healthy sleeping pattern is important. Do you think it's possible for me? How much human interaction needed? because of my severe anxiety.
CDL is a commercial drivers license. It's what you need to drive the bigger box trucks with air brakes and tractor trailers. Most drivers work 50-60 hours per week. Some jobs are regular hours, some not so much.

Human interaction depends on if you do line haul, which is terminal to terminal. Only have to deal with people a couple times a day. Drive a box truck or LTL, and you'll be doing deliveries all day, constantly dealing with people.

It can be a very stressful job for a multitude of reasons. If you want to see how you would feel, rent a 26ft truck from u-haul or penske and the biggest trailer they have and see what it's like to drive that. A full size tractor trailer with a 53ft trailer is longer still...
 
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I'm assuming you meant you work in the industry.
I do appreciate your advice.

But yeah it's a bit problematic for people like me,
Though I've already lost before I first got into gambling.

life got to me first,
What a shame.

No i was a professional gambler, have had the successes people think they want from it. That shit is short lived, will fry your brain and soon enough caring about $ in real life isn't a thing because that's how you need to act to beat the game.

The market has gotten tougher in some areas and climb is ridiculously hard now for someone without experience. There are years of costly lessons to be had. Never mind the people who try to go pro and never make it which is much more likely. When online poker was legal in USA there was no A.I. anyone who was smart and hardworking had a shot, still less than 5% profited long term and I think that #'s closer to 1%. Things have changed dramatically in a bad way.

Only 1 facet of gambling has and will become easier to profit from in the future... it's one of the more difficult endeavors to try to succeed at in the 1st place. That's an awful statistic for a profession with no other benefits outside of freedom which has its own limits if you're serious about making good $.

Also, by law casino cannot offer a game without having an edge. If a customer is able to find a way to gain favorable odds making their bet +ev in the long term it is rendered illegal and the casino has legal rights to take back any $ you figured out how to make profitable. Crazy right?! Google Phil Ivey, Borgata, Crockford's lawsuit.
 
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No i was a professional gambler, have had the successes people think they want from it. That shit is short lived, will fry your brain and soon enough caring about $ in real life isn't a thing because that's how you need to act to beat the game.

The market has gotten tougher in some areas and climb is ridiculously hard now for someone without experience. There are years of costly lessons to be had. Never mind the people who try to go pro and never make it which is much more likely. When online poker was legal in USA there was no A.I. anyone who was smart and hardworking had a shot, still less than 5% profited long term and I think that #'s closer to 1%. Things have changed dramatically in a bad way.

Only 1 facet of gambling has and will become easier to profit from in the future... it's one of the more difficult endeavors to try to succeed at in the 1st place. That's an awful statistic for a profession with no other benefits outside of freedom which has its own limits if you're serious about making good $.

Also, by law casino cannot offer a game without having an edge. If a customer is able to find a way to gain favorable odds making their bet +ev in the long term it is rendered illegal and the casino has legal rights to take back any $ you figured out how to make profitable. Crazy right?! Google Phil Ivey, Borgata, Crockford's lawsuit.

yeah well I was doing blackjacks for the most part,
I'd presume gambling's ups and downs are more drastic as opposed to something like forex/crypto trading.
Even the "experience" alone isn't enough to do well in gambling,
it's too random. bad cards in consecutive games/days/months will eventually knock people out.

It's also emotionally draining. Most people gamble because they have a problem.
Professional gambling is nice but gotta be careful as well.
As people like to say, they didn't build vegas out of nothing.
 
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I'm a truck driver. Ever since my psychotic breakdown I've been over the road hauling steel. I will make 65k this year but I bust my ass 14+ hours a day. My old device sales job I would make that in a really good month.

Life changes. Child support is so high I'm thinking about CTB. It's a hard combination of job loss, divorce, loss of time with children, financial devastation, and now most difficult is social status loss. All together it leads to a CTB unfortunately.

Now I'm 90% not hireable in my old field. I will miss the kids but their mom is a BPD monster.
 
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I'm a truck driver. Ever since my psychotic breakdown I've been over the road hauling steel. I will make 65k this year but I bust my ass 14+ hours a day. My old device sales job I would make that in a really good month.

Life changes. Child support is so high I'm thinking about CTB. It's a hard combination of job loss, divorce, loss of time with children, financial devastation, and now most difficult is social status loss. All together it leads to a CTB unfortunately.

Now I'm 90% not hireable in my old field. I will miss the kids but their mom is a BPD monster.

why would you be unhirable if your previous experience and skillsets are still there?
Not to sound like a super positive person because I'm not like that all the time,
but you could switch back to your old profession once corona settle down?

Sorry to hear things are hard for you in the meantime. :hug::heart:
 
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I dislike my job. I'm trying to learn well enough to become a daytrader. Im a novice in it, but I ran into this trade idea that has worked 100% of the time this year. For anyone interested, you can research it for yourself. Every friday morning, amazon drops at least $20-$40. Its almost always within the first 15min, but this past week it took an hr, but it did drop. So at opening bell, buy a put option for at least $30-$40 out of the money. You could go further out but the profit will be smaller. Last week I made a profit of $250 off a a total investment of $200. The week before, I made a profit of $800 off a $200 investment. Any questions don't hesitate to ask.
 
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Because outside sales is a beauty contest and going from prestigious medical device sales to semi truck driving screams WHOA!
It's a red flag. My good friend got me a regional sales mar job in austin paying 125k but I couldnt take the job leaving my children. Cash ran dry and psychotic breakdown occurred. Homelessness ensued. Wish I would have taken job! Now I drive a semi truck. Real life is a mother fucker.
 
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BPD monster.

Not trying to derail, nor am I denying your experiences. But I absolutely hate when people like I (I was diagnosed with BPD) get referred to as such like this. I already feel enough guilt already. We are all different people. Oh well I guess...

Sorry you went through all of that though, some people genuinely suck. :notsure:
 
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