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Nothing left to keep me out of paradise.
- May 27, 2022
- 53
I just want to cry right now.
I'm sure I'm not the only person who saw the video of the pastor calling for gay people to be lined up against a wall and shot in the head. At this point I am used to hearing homophobic rhetoric (my workplace culture is very hostile to LGBT+ people and ideas), but something about seeing this video and hearing the crowd vocally agree with the pastor just hurts so much. I'm being reminded of when one of my close friends said "I wouldn't want a gay son"(everyone else there agreed or did not contest this statement), all of the demeaning jokes, all of the times I've had to lie about who I am to protect myself, and just how much it hurts to have my humanity interrogated just because I love different types of people than what is usually expected. What the fuck am I supposed to do? Am I REALLY supposed to try and be an ambassador to someone that thinks I'm inferior to them? I'm just trying to stay alive out here and I have to construct an entire false persona just to try and avoid being completely ostracized?! AS SOON AS THERE IS A SINGLE PERSON LIKE ME IN ANY KIND OF MEDIA HALF OF THE COUNTRY FREAKS THE FUCK OUT! PEOPLE GET ANGRY WHEN THEY HAVE TO ADDRESS THE FACT THAT I EXIST!
YOU CAN OPENLY CALL FOR PEOPLE LIKE MYSELF TO BE EXECUTED IN THE STREETS AND GET PUBLIC SUPPORT.
It can be absolutely crushing to keep the wall up sometimes, between pretending to want to live (do not want to get locked up) and pretending to be straight (or at least staying far away from the question of sexuality).
It really makes for a killer combination when mixed with an already pointless and painful life.
My heart truly goes out to the trans and NB people of the world, I can hardly stay on my feet as a cisgender person, meanwhile there are people showing incredible strength in expressing their identity in this hateful and hostile world. You all are truly amazing, please keep up the good fight . Even if we don't make it there, we are slowly building a world where it is okay to exist as we do.
I'm sure I'm not the only person who saw the video of the pastor calling for gay people to be lined up against a wall and shot in the head. At this point I am used to hearing homophobic rhetoric (my workplace culture is very hostile to LGBT+ people and ideas), but something about seeing this video and hearing the crowd vocally agree with the pastor just hurts so much. I'm being reminded of when one of my close friends said "I wouldn't want a gay son"(everyone else there agreed or did not contest this statement), all of the demeaning jokes, all of the times I've had to lie about who I am to protect myself, and just how much it hurts to have my humanity interrogated just because I love different types of people than what is usually expected. What the fuck am I supposed to do? Am I REALLY supposed to try and be an ambassador to someone that thinks I'm inferior to them? I'm just trying to stay alive out here and I have to construct an entire false persona just to try and avoid being completely ostracized?! AS SOON AS THERE IS A SINGLE PERSON LIKE ME IN ANY KIND OF MEDIA HALF OF THE COUNTRY FREAKS THE FUCK OUT! PEOPLE GET ANGRY WHEN THEY HAVE TO ADDRESS THE FACT THAT I EXIST!
YOU CAN OPENLY CALL FOR PEOPLE LIKE MYSELF TO BE EXECUTED IN THE STREETS AND GET PUBLIC SUPPORT.
It can be absolutely crushing to keep the wall up sometimes, between pretending to want to live (do not want to get locked up) and pretending to be straight (or at least staying far away from the question of sexuality).
It really makes for a killer combination when mixed with an already pointless and painful life.
My heart truly goes out to the trans and NB people of the world, I can hardly stay on my feet as a cisgender person, meanwhile there are people showing incredible strength in expressing their identity in this hateful and hostile world. You all are truly amazing, please keep up the good fight . Even if we don't make it there, we are slowly building a world where it is okay to exist as we do.