Did you body shut down once your mind realized you gotta cbt

[John8]

Once you figured it out FOR REAL and started researching.
Did you body start acting crazy, like panic shaking for few days without any sleep and then just sleep/lay in bed the next few days?

 

[_Gollum_]

I would say I actually had the opposite experience, where at times I would feel high, ecstatic even, and at other times, just relieved and at peace, like a giant burden had been lifted off my shoulders.

 

[wren-briar]

For me, I was made actively suicidal by the systemtic actions of supposed MH "professionals". In particular, there was an very specific moment when I went from seeking medical care because I was trying to live, to fuck it, you self-righteous, sanctimonious simpletons haved proved that this is no longer a world that I'm safe in, i.e. death is safer to me than their supposed MH "treatments". (full account is at https://wrenbriar.gitlab.io/)

Since that moment, I've suffered from something termed "anhedonia" and it's been rather extreme.