magicdeathbutton
Member
- Mar 18, 2026
- 21
My life is a complete dead end and I want to cbt soon but I live with my parents and one of them is always in the house, which is small and they can hear everything I do even at night. I can't drive and there are no forests or high buildings nearby. I have a rope (the only method I can really do) but I don't have any drugs to ease it. I'm so desperate I can't live like this. I don't really have motivation to do anything even kms but I need out of this life. I wish there was a way. I'm also terrified of the pain. I know it's only 20 seconds but what if I do it wrong? I need to go soon before my life gets even worse than it is. I hate this life I hate this I know it won't get any better. I'm praying one day they both leave the house for an extended period of time so I can try it but even then I'll probably end up not doing it and stepping back on to the ladder or whatever I do
