Derailing the thought patterns?

[Bloodtearsdust]

Has anyone had any luck stopping themselves from thinking about suicide? If so how did you do it? I take antidepressants, and for the most part they are ok, they are definitely not a magic bullet for me. I am looking at lifestyle changes to help. I actually did not think very much about suicide until I tried a series of SSRI's. I switched to a different class of meds and that has helped... I'm at a point where I don't want to CTB but I still visualize myself hanging somewhere sometimes.

 

[chris8000]

It's good you want to get better. Have you tried CBT? Not CTB lol.

My long term partner basically ran off in my early 20s and I was suicidal for ages, actually what got me out of that was mindfulness meditation and going to stay at a Buddhist monastery, which was a lot more fun than it sounds. That was just my experience.

Yeah lifestyle stuff is a good idea, exercise routine etc? Try and do what makes you feel better, I know that sounds obvious, but sometimes people get stuck doing things that are the opposite which is easy to do.

Eat dark chocolate, that's what I do at the moment to keep me happy.

 

[hatelife]

yes its on my mind always. even ECT that im doing now doesnt help, I think im an impossible case to treat sadly

 

[BPD Barbie]

The only time it's not at the front of my mind is when I'm really distracted by whatever it is I'm doing. But as soon as I'm idle again, it's back.

 

[SinisterKid]

Distraction, distraction and distraction, is the one and only thing that works for me. Reading, this place and lots of music.

 

[enjoy]

honestly... keeping busy. our brains tend to function in the moment, as most humans live in the moment when their mind isn't idle and wandering. when i'm with a friend or someone else, i never think about ctb.

rewarding yourself (in moderation) can work, too. spoil yourself every now and then. buy your favorite food, get that sweater you've been eyeing for the past few weeks... but don't get heart disease or become an excessive spender, y'know?

oh, and immersing yourself in your hobbies. i play guitar and i get really into it if i'm jamming hard. i don't have time to think about ctb when i'm trying to get down a certain chord progression. listening to your favorite songs, starting a new personal project or picking up something are a few things you can try, if you'd like.

i, too sort of want to get better, so i can see where you're coming from. i'm sorry that your meds have been giving you a hard time. like chris8000 said, cbt is great and a lot of people do. there's also dbt (dialectical behavior therapy), which i tried out last summer. it was very pleasant and relaxing.

i wish you the best of luck!

 

[Bloodtearsdust]

yes its on my mind always. even ECT that im doing now doesnt help, I think im an impossible case to treat sadly

Have you tried mushrooms? It's definitely disheartening when nothing works, or makes it worse

Distraction, distraction and distraction, is the one and only thing that works for me. Reading, this place and lots of music.

Yeah I haven't been doing as much lately, and I definitely think it's contributing. I like the fact I can actually mention it here.. It's freeing.

The only time it's not at the front of my mind is when I'm really distracted by whatever it is I'm doing. But as soon as I'm idle again, it's back.

Definitely going to do more distracting things. I play the fiddle.. it helps

It's good you want to get better. Have you tried CBT? Not CTB lol.

My long term partner basically ran off in my early 20s and I was suicidal for ages, actually what got me out of that was mindfulness meditation and going to stay at a Buddhist monastery, which was a lot more fun than it sounds. That was just my experience.

Yeah lifestyle stuff is a good idea, exercise routine etc? Try and do what makes you feel better, I know that sounds obvious, but sometimes people get stuck doing things that are the opposite which is easy to do.

Eat dark chocolate, that's what I do at the moment to keep me happy.

I was quite an outdoor enthusiast, I still am... but winter is more limiting.. our winters are pretty extreme here. I may look into Buddhism and meditation. I feel like I'm on the right track... but it's that same pattern I can't seem to shake. I can't look at rafters or anything with bars really without seeing myself in a noose. I have not figured out how to replace or derail this image.

honestly... keeping busy. our brains tend to function in the moment, as most humans live in the moment when their mind isn't idle and wandering. when i'm with a friend or someone else, i never think about ctb.

rewarding yourself (in moderation) can work, too. spoil yourself every now and then. buy your favorite food, get that sweater you've been eyeing for the past few weeks... but don't get heart disease or become an excessive spender, y'know?

oh, and immersing yourself in your hobbies. i play guitar and i get really into it if i'm jamming hard. i don't have time to think about ctb when i'm trying to get down a certain chord progression. listening to your favorite songs, starting a new personal project or picking up something are a few things you can try, if you'd like.

i, too sort of want to get better, so i can see where you're coming from. i'm sorry that your meds have been giving you a hard time. like chris8000 said, cbt is great and a lot of people do. there's also dbt (dialectical behavior therapy), which i tried out last summer. it was very pleasant and relaxing.

i wish you the best of luck!

I think I'm going to try CBD oil. I will look into DBT as well. I have seen a psychologist.. but I have not brought up my suicidal images. I play the fiddle and it definitely helps. This is a long road forsure

 

[hatelife]

Have you tried mushrooms? It's definitely disheartening when nothing works, or makes it worse

Yeah I haven't been doing as much lately, and I definitely think it's contributing. I like the fact I can actually mention it here.. It's freeing.

Definitely going to do more distracting things. I play the fiddle.. it helps

I was quite an outdoor enthusiast, I still am... but winter is more limiting.. our winters are pretty extreme here. I may look into Buddhism and meditation. I feel like I'm on the right track... but it's that same pattern I can't seem to shake. I can't look at rafters or anything with bars really without seeing myself in a noose. I have not figured out how to replace or derail this image.


I think I'm going to try CBD oil. I will look into DBT as well. I have seen a psychologist.. but I have not brought up my suicidal images. I play the fiddle and it definitely helps. This is a long road forsure

nope I have not, sadly, there are plenty here in fall time in sweden out in the woods to find free