Deciding kill himself

[fvckfamily]

What made you get to where you are? deciding to kill himself

 

[heliophobic]

From what I've gathered from my parents, I was basically born melancholy. I was a sad little kid, and kept being sad. It's basically kismet.

 

[nir]

From what I've gathered from my parents, I was basically born melancholy. I was a sad little kid, and kept being sad. It's basically kismet.

I also was described this way by my parents!! I wish it had been a sign for them to get me into therapy or something early. Maybe things could have turned out differently.

 

[mymarbles]

exhausted, fatigued, every waking moment from when i wake up until i go to sleep, feeling demented, cannot think coherently, cannot finish school, cannot do the most basic tasks to care for myself as my motor and cognitive skills are declining, also doctors just suggest i improve diet and exercice, mostly realizing no one is going to consider my problems seriously and that i'm only going to get worse, no matter who i go to for help. i'm never not going to be fatigued or like a demented person in their 80s etc.

 

[FuneralCry]

Personally I'd always prefer to not exist than to suffer in this cruel, torturous and painful existence, to me having the ability to exist is so burdensome and deeply undesirable, I see existence as a horrific mistake that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering. In my case I wish for eternal nothingness as only then am I unable to suffer and to never suffer again is all I hope for, I never would have chosen existence, I'd never wish to exist rather I just hope for permanent nothingness instead, I just want some peace, I find it terrifying how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence that can continue for so long.

 

[Davey40210]

My last relationship and history repeating itself yet again, with the woman I loved so much that my mind is shattered.

 

[JR_Timm]

Late autism diagnosis, personality disorder and depression disorder that is with me since I was little. There is something else in my broken brain too but I`m too tired of doctors to even speculate on it. Basically I have no moves left in this plain of existence, there is no point in existing just because. But I cant even exit properly, failed twice its so pathetic is funny in a weird way.