Decided to recover and keep going

[greencoat111]

This is a decision I have come to in the past few days. I went through total darkness and despair in the past 5 years with suicidal ideation. I made an attempt at suicide once and failed, it was a frightening time. I'm not sure what ever caused me to get into the deep depression I was in in the first place. I was in a relationship with a narcissist which almost destroyed me and ovsf the years I've realised that many of the people in my life have in fact been narcissists.

I'm in my late 30s and had already started to feel that everything is too late for me. I realised that it was a really defeatist attitude because I've had friends in their 70s and 80s who are still out there doing amazing things and things are only too late if I say they are.

This forum has also given me hope because I've seen so much kindness and support here, something I feel had been lacking in my day to day for a long time. Its nice to know that human kindness is still out there. I will still visit the recovery forum and hopefully can be a support for others too like they have been for me. Thank you all xx

 

[Susannah]

This is a decision I have come to in the past few days. I went through total darkness and despair in the past 5 years with suicidal ideation. I made an attempt at suicide once and failed, it was a frightening time. I'm not sure what ever caused me to get into the deep depression I was in in the first place. I was in a relationship with a narcissist which almost destroyed me and ovsf the years I've realised that many of the people in my life have in fact been narcissists.

I'm in my late 30s and had already started to feel that everything is too late for me. I realised that it was a really defeatist attitude because I've had friends in their 70s and 80s who are still out there doing amazing things and things are only too late if I say they are.

This forum has also given me hope because I've seen so much kindness and support here, something I feel had been lacking in my day to day for a long time. Its nice to know that human kindness is still out there. I will still visit the recovery forum and hopefully can be a support for others too like they have been for me. Thank you all xx

Lots of loveS

 

[AlexM]

Great to read that! Love, hugs!

 

[Final Escape]

This is a decision I have come to in the past few days. I went through total darkness and despair in the past 5 years with suicidal ideation. I made an attempt at suicide once and failed, it was a frightening time. I'm not sure what ever caused me to get into the deep depression I was in in the first place. I was in a relationship with a narcissist which almost destroyed me and ovsf the years I've realised that many of the people in my life have in fact been narcissists.

I'm in my late 30s and had already started to feel that everything is too late for me. I realised that it was a really defeatist attitude because I've had friends in their 70s and 80s who are still out there doing amazing things and things are only too late if I say they are.

This forum has also given me hope because I've seen so much kindness and support here, something I feel had been lacking in my day to day for a long time. Its nice to know that human kindness is still out there. I will still visit the recovery forum and hopefully can be a support for others too like they have been for me. Thank you all xx

That's great news at least keep going till u have to go because you are deathly ill, starving, or there's absolutely nothing that u gain any pleasure from. That's best u can do in the current society. Attempt to make a little meaning out of the suffering to the best of your ability.

 

[greencoat111]

That's great news at least keep going till u have to go because you are deathly ill, starving, or there's absolutely nothing that u gain any pleasure from. That's best u can do in the current society. Attempt to make a little meaning out of the suffering to the best of your ability.

I really agree with everything you said x

 

[Flippy]

I wish you well on the road to permanent recovery! I have faint hopes for it for myself some day too and I hope you will continue to share your thoughts, feelings and advice on here throughout your journey! :-) Good luck and all the best :-)

 

[greencoat111]

I wish you well on the road to permanent recovery! I have faint hopes for it for myself some day too and I hope you will continue to share your thoughts, feelings and advice on here throughout your journey! :-) Good luck and all the best :-)

Thank you for your kind words xx

 

[ManWithNoName]

This is a decision I have come to in the past few days. I went through total darkness and despair in the past 5 years with suicidal ideation. I made an attempt at suicide once and failed, it was a frightening time. I'm not sure what ever caused me to get into the deep depression I was in in the first place. I was in a relationship with a narcissist which almost destroyed me and ovsf the years I've realised that many of the people in my life have in fact been narcissists.

I'm in my late 30s and had already started to feel that everything is too late for me. I realised that it was a really defeatist attitude because I've had friends in their 70s and 80s who are still out there doing amazing things and things are only too late if I say they are.

This forum has also given me hope because I've seen so much kindness and support here, something I feel had been lacking in my day to day for a long time. Its nice to know that human kindness is still out there. I will still visit the recovery forum and hopefully can be a support for others too like they have been for me. Thank you all xx

Always happy to hear this from anyone here!